PreRish os -reflection

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Ragini

@Raginiraichand

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Posted: 5 years ago

Hey guys I am new here just got this angle of prerna's broken down self after Bajaj leaves her. He has already done so much for her expecting nothing in return in these 8 years. So I wanted to have this woman reflect on her own actions towards him and realize her mistakes. And with regrets and love both in her heart I wanted her to pursue her true love, her fairy, rishab Bajaj . Hope you all like this 🙂

Prerna's pov:

I read very lovely line from Kemi Sogunle that is : If you don’t love yourself, you can’t be happy and can’t love anyone else.You can’t give the love that you don’t have.You can’t make anyone love you without loving yourself first.

Same is happening with me from a very long time that I really don’t love myself. But one day a fairy come’s to broke my nap and made me realize that who am I and I was wrong about myself like he know’s me more than I do.It was just like a bad dream has just ended and I started loving and enjoying of who I am and my company.

Earlier my work was my best escape from all of my emotions that I always felt so lonely even after having almost everything one could have, but I was lacking one thing and that was one partner with whom I could share my feelings and burdens, joys and lows etc. I was started liking his company, even liking the fairy itself. He was beautiful in and out,simple, sweet, generous and the best anyone could think of, best in friend, best in father, best in husband, life partner one could ever dream of, best in everything but he was not good at was recognize people about who is bad or what is his/her intensions were. To be precise me, I know he loved me with all his heart but still I broke is heart that held only love for me. But life itself is big irony as they what goes around comes around. The same thing happened with me the infatuation... Yes only infatuation that I held for a person who was not even worth it for whom I broke my fairy inturn broke me with his coward actions once again. He didn't change or done something he as never done with me, but the only thing that changed is me I am no more the blinded person who loves to play the soulmates - soulmates thing. To be precise

The phase of loving my life lasted seven long beautiful months but ended eventually and I thought this is merely because of me as I am so cruel that I really does not deserve any good person in my life or he could not properly recognize me and on one day my morning was black as my light was gone and my hope was lost. he had always encouraged me like no else had ever done and I thought he was understanding me more than anyone can do which is true what I failed see his I didn't understood my angel, to be true I never tried to like he always did for me, for my Family always put myself above his own life, thoughts,likes,dislikes and so on.

he was always with me and I was addicted to him but now I literally cried whole night because of his absence and with the sense of regret of hurting him once again with my harsh words and the world is now more worst for me than it was. As it is difficult to live with own failures and now I hate me and my life more than earlier and is still trying to figure out what I am without that fairy.

Everyone needs a partner as I do and specially for me, a mental broke down person living on medicines trying to figure out her own sins she has committed but is unable to get anyone of those. I must have done so many sins because I haven’t got anything which I love instead this fairly but even this haven’t last long and after months/years I am seeing myself standing steps behind me. Weeping, crying alone; fighting with own waiting for a hand of love and a sense of care and the way out of regret.

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