FIVE
Lost. Like a mouse in a trap. That's how she felt. Prerna could feel the ache in her heart. Raw and ugly.
The knife stabbed in her heart was twisting deeper and deeper.
Everything that has happened in the past few weeks had changed her life forever.
She'd already lost too much. And yet she lived.
She was molested by Naveen Babu, she stood firm. Everyone accused her of being characterless, she stood firm. Her education was stopped, she stood firm.
She couldn't step a foot out of her house.
Men hurled atrocious phrases at her.
She deserved this, they had said.
Wherever she went, people whispered behind her back, she stood firm.
All her friends, except Kriti abandoned her, she stood firm.
Her relatives ousted her, she stood firm.
Naveen Babu took her innocence from her and yet again she stood firm.
But what happened today was the final nail in the coffin.
She had finally showed the courage to go to college again. To face her peers, her teachers, the world.
It had taken her parents 3 weeks to coax her out of her shell. She had finally uttered a word.
Yes, she had said. Yes, she was ready. Ready to answer back to people who questioned her character and upbringing.
For the past 3 weeks, she waited for Anurag.
Waited for him to caress her cheek and touch her hair and embrace her and tell her that he believed her.
Yet he didn't. He didn't visit her once. Didn't call her once.
But she forgave him. She knew it was hard for him. Just as it was hard for her.
Yet today, she went to her college. She ignored the people who commented on her. Who stared at her.
She dealt with it. She held herself together. She put on a smile and pretended to be brave.
Anurag was ignoring her like a plague.
He's just busy. She kept on telling herself.
When she finally caught up with him.
He said something that broke her.
"Prerna, we should stop seeing each other," he said. His hands were in the pocket of his pants.
He always did it whenever he was nervous.
"What?" Her voice cracked.
She couldn't believe it. Her Anurag didn't want to see her.
"Listen Prerna. Whatever happened betwee you and naveen Babu has created quite a scandal. My mother is strictly against our relationship," he said, his face sympathetic.
Whatever happend between her and Naveen Babu. He made it sound as if there was something going on between them.
"Anurag, he tried to force himself on me. I screamed for help and Anupam Ji saved me. Ask him, nothing happened. Please," she gripped his shoulders.
She looked at him, desperate for him to believe her.
He shrugged out of her hold and said, "Then you shouldn't have complained against him."
Her heart broke into several pieces.
She had slapped him, hard and ran.
She ran on the middle of the road. She ran as fast as her legs could carry her. She ran till she couldn't breathe. Till her heart stopped aching, yet it didn't.
She ran without the thought of her safety.
Car drivers honked at her but she ran. Her dupatta flew with the wind. But she didn't care.
She was a fallen woman. A characterless person. She deserved it. She deserved to be molested, to be punished, to be abandoned.
She ran.
She ran to the cliff on the other side of Durga Temple. The temple where she and Anurag had promised to love each other, faithfully.
She stopped at the edge of the cliff. Her breathe was ragged. She was gasping for oxygen. Her chest burned. Her hair flew all over the place. The sun was setting in the horizon.
She glanced down. The cliff was steep. Her body would never be found. No one would know.
"You shouldn't do it," came a voice from behind her.
She instantly recognized that voice. That voice. That man.
Mr. Bajaj.
She turned around to face him.
Tears streamed down her cheeks. Her eyes hollow. Her face devoid of colour.
"Why are you here?" She raged. "Why did you come? To mock me, for my eagerness?"
"Ms. Sharma, I would never mock a woman in your position. I would never taunt a woman, period," he retorted. His long face impassive.
He was dressed in a navy blue suit. His face set in his usual style.
"Why? Because you're afraid that we'll break?" She asked, her voice cracking.
"No. Because women are a force to be reckoned with," he replied.
Prerna let out a hollow, fake laugh.
"Of course we are," she muttered.
"Yes you are. You're stronger than this. I've known you for one day and I know that Prerna Sharma is one of the strongest woman I've ever known. You challenged me, questioned my actions. You barely knew me and yet you dared to stand up against me," he kept going on. "Men cower in their boots because of me yet you didn't."
"Well, that Prerna Sharma is gone."
"No. She is still there. No one can take who we are from us. Search for her Prerna," his voice was soothing. Calm. Soft.
He was comforting her.
Her breathing slowed.
"What happened wrong. How everyone treated you afterwards was even more atrocious. A travesty on the part of society. But killing yourself will prove that you're weak. Guilty. Stay, Prerna, fight it," he held out a hand towards her.
"Anurag left me," fresh tears threatened to spill from her eyes.
"Then he's a fool beyond equal. Don't end your life because of a boy. Think of your mother, the person who loves you more than anyone ever could. Your father. I've met him. What you do will shatter your family forever. It will scar them," he gazed into her eyes. The wind blew her hair. "Don't do this. Please."
The faces of her family flashed in front if her eyes. The happy moments.
He was right. Life doesn't end just because Anurag betrayed her.
She must live. A d prove that she's strong. Stronger than anybody thinks.
She walks towards him and stumbles. Her hands grip her shoulders. She gazed into his dark eyes. His chest radiating warmth.
Elsewhere, the bells rung violently in the temple.