PM ff: ' falling in love again' - Page 10

Yeah okay im sooooo sorry i was'nt on for like two weeks i had like a thing but im writing my update now and i'll post it tomarrow k!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😊

Originally posted by: zaara_13_9

Yeah okay im sooooo sorry i was'nt on for like two weeks i had like a thing but im writing my update now and i'll post it tomarrow k!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😊

thnx 4 dat!!

***Chapter 7***


Prem stared back at Mukti not knowing what to say, not even knowing that he was staring.He looked at her with depth and intent trying to savour their moment, while Mukti just stared back blank for response and wanting to get Prem to look away from her.

She wished he would'nt stare at her with such intensity, wished he would just look at her and not into her with the depth that was present in his meaningfull gaze. Yet she could'nt bring herself to brake the stare so she just lay motionless and entirely speechless.

Even though he had secretly wished for this moment for a long time coming he had'nt seen it coming and had'nt expected it to be this difficult. Prem did'nt know what he wanted to say , had forgotten all his intentions and questions, he could'nt even bring himself to speak; he just sat there at the edge of Mukti's bed, not making a move to shift his weight even though he could feel his weight crushing his lower ribs and could feel the blood rushing to his brain. He felt indignant to his pain and refused to respond to it. Half bent over her and still holding her hand tightly, he moved closer to her bringing himself inches away from her, he thought that if he could just snap out of his reverie he could bring himself to speak but he felt like his body and soul were betraying him , refusing to acknowlege his commands.

Mukti felt the shock reside as a new realisation dawned on her. Prem, she saw, was in bandages and she realised her surroundings but with surprise terror she found that Prem was in pain. Even in the dim hospital room his pale face was evident as he bent all the more closer toward her.

She felt his hand tighten around hers as he attempted to say something but just come out empty. He took deep breaths trying to contain himself, and get his message across. Mukti felt a wave of guilt the longer she looked at this altered version of the Prem she had once known. She saw the coverings that were adorned to his head and the stitches that were aminent on his face and she felt like the most misfortunate person in the world. She felt helpless cause she could'nt help him out of his ache, felt bound to a pain that was'nt hers but felt , seeing the pain Prem was in, was her share of pain that was for him.

It hurt Mukti more than she had expected it to , to see him in a condition that a lost and detached part of her said he deserved. She pushed that thought out for Mukti just wanted him to be Prem again, she wished this person was'nt Prem, wished that Prem was'nt the one in the pain , she wanted to take all his pain and make it hers but she could'nt understand why she felt so strongly for something that did'nt concern her , wondered why she felt for Prem at all.

Prem searched Mukti's eyes, all the while searching his own heart for words he knew were there, even though he had refused to take them as his own. He tried to make out his speech and tell Mukti what he thought , but looking at her now he felt a feeling he had'nt felt before. He told himself it was'nt love , convinced himself it was just the pain, but the feeling he was experiencing now , he thought, had nothing to do with pain. He could feel it but not on the surface only on the inside, only in his heart.

His heartrate quickened, and his palm got sweaty aroung hers, as he got nervous at the prospect of the feeling being anything other than pain. He felt agity anmd annoyingly hot all the while staring at Mukti, stuburnly refusing to blink or look away.

Mukti was in silence she did'nt know what it was that caused her to feel so scared and nervous. She felt selfconcious and nervous as Prem watched her still more
closely and this time not making an attempt at explaining his self. Her face burnt bright red as his hand tightened around hers even more and he looked at her equally nervously.

A dorp of blood fell on Mukti's face. Prem and Mukti both blinked for the first time breaking their stare and looking equally startled. Mukti saw Prems head, the bandages on which were soaked with his blood, and was instantly startled. The blood slid down from under his bandages and slinked it's way down the side of his face, dripping on Mukti's sheets. She saw his head and saw that all the coverings on it were drenched in his blood and as sweat illuminated his face making him look less pale and more angelic. His eyes took a lighter tone as the blood eased from his head and made him feel light headed.

Mukti made a concerned and hurried attempt to get up and help Prem ,who was still staring at the blood that had dripped on her cheek, but Prem refused to move and held her to her bed.

Mukti: Prem your bleeding, you need to get help there's so much blood. she said in a concerned and urgent tone.

Prem however still refused to let her get up to help him and did'nt let go of her hand as she tried to get it out of his.

He slwoly laced his hand from hers and both brought their hands to the others face, Mukti in attmpt to stop the incessant bleeding and Prem in a move to touch her face. Mukti brought her hand back down, away from his wound, she was afraid to hurt him any further and cautious not to cause any more damage to his injury.

Prem however still kept his hand close to her face, inches form her cheek. In a gentle touch he brushed his drop of blood from her cheek with his left hand, trying to be gently and careful not to scratch her skin with his stiff bandages.

He inhaled , gaining the momentum to speak his mind and say what he wanted. He could'nt bring himself to look back into her eyes so he stared at her skin, as he absently pushed aside the hair that was falling on her forhead. He pushed her hair back and came in closer to her while making it a point not to look into her eyes.

Prem:"Mukti i.....Mukti im.....I think im in........i mean im in....im...IM SORRY",he blurted out not quite knowing if he had spoken the right words.

He spoke nervously and unevenly, unable to keep his voice even or his thoughts straight. He did'nt know what he was about to say or if "sorry" was the real message his heart was sending across but as he sought through other possibilities he was even more terrified.

Mukti: kya????

Mukti was dumbfounded and caught offguard, she had'nt expected to be surprised let slone shocked.

Prem: It's all my fault, everything. Saab meri galaati hai, jo bhi hua may ri wajah sai hua. Everything that happened to you it's my fault, it.... it all happened because of me.... meri galaati ki wajah sai tumhari izat......

His voice cracked and he broke unable to relay the outcome of his deeds. Prem felt a wash of pain that was the worse he had ever experienced, and he knew this time that it was guilt and .....and regret.

Mukti took in what Prem was trying to say and was taken in by his emothions as tears began to stream from his eyes.

Prem did'nt dare to look at Mukti's face he did'nt want to find her with a accusing stare, for he now completely understood what he had done and weight of his sin began to crush down on him as the realisation, that he was Mukti's "Gunegaar", dawned on him and made him feel the worst he had ever felt in his life.

Prem had began to cry not realising it,his tears streaming down his face and on to Mukti's. He moved away from her feeling unclean and tainted, feeling that he was'nt worthy of being close to her. Prem now sat, his head bent down refusing to meet her eyes, crying he brought his hand away from her hair and beside her shoulder on the bed, so as to keep himself up and supported.

Mukti: Prem Yai tun kya keh rehai ho? Your wrong , it's not your fault. Tum hai nehi patah tah kai Sharadh mai rai saat....

Mukti fell dead, her words surprising even her. She did'nt know where they had come from, haad'nt even intended for them but then as she said them she realised they were true. What she had been fighting to accept for so long , she now realised, she had unknowingly already accepted. It was'nt Prem fault, it was his mistake, he was'nt to blame he had'nt been the one who.......

Prem:" No Mukti dont say that!" Prem said still crying.

Prem: "Dont be so forgiving." he said teary and brokenly.
"I dont deserve it." Prem added bitterly.

Mukti got up and sat in her bed unable to stop herself. Tenderly pushing off the sheets with Prems blood drenched on them, she brought her hands to his face, and began to cry emotion wounding in her as she felt his tears. She got Prem to look up at her making him look back into her eyes.

Mukti: "Listen to me Prem. This is'nt your fault. Jo kuch bhi hua, it was just an accident shaad yai mari kismat mai likha tah lakin tumnai kuch nehi kiya." She spoke with hardship and understanding, tears streaming down her face as she tried to get her feeling accross. " im not going to hold you accountable for something you did'nt do." She added softly as she looked into Prems, guilty eyes.

Prem could'nt bring himself to face Mukti he just wanted to say sorry and here she was saying that it was'nt his right. He wished that she would'nt be so understanding, wanted her to be cruel and hateful, wanted Mukti to blame him and hate him. He wished that this kind and understanding Mukti would give him his well deserved punishment that, he felt, was the only way he could breath wholey again and live peacefully. And yet still his heart tiold him that he did'nt deserve peace that the pain he felt was the punishment he should get for the rest of his life.

Prem: Mukti please punish me, hit me , tell me you ahte me but dont......dont be so understanding. tum mujh hai sazah doe Mukti ma issi kai layak hoone.

Mukti startled hearing his words yet not knowing why they affected her so deeply.

Mukti: Prem yai tum ka si batein kar rehai ho? ma tum hai kas sai sazah dai saktih hoon? Tum hai tumhari gallati ka ehsaas ho gaiyah hai yai saab sai baar ri baat hai mai rai li yai.

She brought her right and linked it through his holding it gently, aware not to compress his injury. And brought her left hand to his face and lovingly wiped away the mesh of tears that were blurring his sight of her. She absently smiled at Prem as she stared at him confused with the feeling she was experiencing.

Prem felt a wash of feelings emotions rush over him as Mukti showered him with her kindness. He , without thinking or even knowing what he was doing, let go of her hand and hugged Mukti.

He had'nt expected to do it and had no explanantion fo rit but he still hugged her, as freash tears formed in his eyes, tears which he knew this time were'nt tears of sadness but of something more different, he wondered if it was tears of happiness but he could'nt think of even one reason for which he cshould be happy.

Mukti was stunned as Prem hugged her not letting go but she was even more surprised when she brought her arms around him and embraced him back. She began to sob not knowing why, she pushed aside her suspicion that she was feeliing an emotion she had promised to stay away from and rejected the possibility of love.

So they both sat on the Mukti's bed embraced in a hug and cried, each not knowing his own reason for the tears.

Shravan stirred on the bed next to, awakening from his pleasant dream.............



Hey you guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I have'nt updated in like forever! i've missed writing alot i hope you guys like my update! Also im sorry if it is'nt as long but i'll update tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Also i hate the new guy playing Prem. And i think all of us should have a pact of not watching the show anymore or something!

Oh and hey i found this video of the time Manoj first came on the show!! This is like my all time favorite scene!!!!!!!!!PLEASE watch i was crying when i was watching it today i mean he's really gone. Manoj's not going to be back. Anways here's the link watch it!

http://www.badongo.com/vid/294856

I hope you guys watch and like!😳

don't worry it was long and way too good and was worth the wait just update regularly from now onwards

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wow zaara! finally you are blessing us with an update! it was out of this world! sooo much emotion and passion! you are a fantastic writter! i just loved the update! had me in tears girl! hope you can update soon!

wow that was worth the wait zaara your a fantastic writer, I could imagine each and every scene!
I so love your fan-fic will wait for your next update 😛

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