hey di
i dont think all of us 'believe' that bani is desperate.well her behavior has changed a lot over last few days.
she was the one who started feeling as a wife first. she burried those feelings deep down and did not let them come on the surface cause she knew jai did not feel the same for her..
when finally she could see that same love and concern in his eyes,park road revelation hit her hard but somehow it underlined the fact that she loves him no matter what his past is when she chose death than to live without him.
somehow this secret had same effect on jai too...the way he was trying his best to hide the truth and chose death over seeing hatred in bani's eyes for him was acknowledgement of his unspoken love.
all this while bani never expressed her love for him..atleast in words as her every action was a proof of how much she loved him...
she even decided not to revive the best moments in her life with jai(their c-night)if that makes him feel guilty
now when we see bani..she is very expressive like never before..
according to me she is still insecure somewhere...i dont know exactly about what...but she wants to live every moment she can spend with jai.their marriage has gone through so many ups and downs that she is trying to bring krishna back to make it secure.
she knows how much jai has craved for his own child and thats the reason she wants to bring his dream alive.
she lost krishna and she is carrying that weight on her chest. she could feel jai's frustration and helplessness and thats why she is trying to compensate that hurt with her love.
she knows that her plans to save jai's wealth has done no good for their relationship. she has lost so much time that she fears that her marriage will pay for it badly and thats whats making her all expressive...
i dont think she is despo for another c-night cause that one experience and its memories were enough for her life.if she was despo then she would have emotionally blackmailed jai who couldnt have refused but she chose not to and thats what sets her apart.
when she says about 'making up for the lost time' its sick to thought it just about intimacy...
bani mean it for emotional intimacy she missed. she may have missed those small incidences that brought them closer. she must have missed his presence around her..
on lighter note we can call her despo for her behavior..but when it comes to her intentions she is as far from being a despo as we all are from other universe.
Edited by himali_kokate - 19 years ago