Even though her character is fictional, am just trying to capture what Bani would feel like today, when all hell breaks loose, her baby who was gonna be her world, her very reason for living, is no more ............ believe me guys it hurts and nothing can ever come close to this nor can anything ever erase the pain.
Today is a sad date
Was waiting for you to be born.
But all I have is
An emptiness to mourn.
As I sit and remember
When you were still a part of me
I try to forget...
Your life was never meant to be.
You were a life
Created from love.
You were a gift
That was sent from above.
You were given a life, a soul, a name
But now things will never be the same.
You were mine to give life to
Though only for a while
Things have changed now
And I will never see your smile.
Yet my love for you
Will never disappear
Though your voice, your laugh,
I will never get to hear.
You will always be my baby
Though I'll never see your face.
Not a thing in this world
Can ever take your place.
Mommy's arms are empty
With no baby to hold.
My heart feels heavy.
The weather is cold.
There isn't a day that will go by
When I won't think of you.
Calculating how far along my pregnancy would be
Or how big my tummy would be getting too
I know that you have gone
To a much better place.
Knowing that the grace of God
Is shining on your face.
If I see another baby.
I will think of you then, too.
Wondering what you'd have looked like
As you giggle, cry, and coo.
But I will never know these things
Because you will never be here.
But in my heart you'll always be
My baby, my angel, my dear.
It doesn't make it easier.
For the pain I have is still here.
I will never forget you, my little one.
That fact remains quite clear.
But Mommy's arms are empty
With no baby to hold.
My heart feels heavy.
The weather is still cold.