FF: Goodnight Beautiful; Part 3 pg 2

Hi guys, I am back again with another new FF and this time I promise I will update regularly well I will try to. 😆😆I had read a novel called "Goodnight Beautiful" by Dormothy Koomson some weeks before and loved it so, thought of sharing with u people with the hope that you will like as well. So, here goes the story.

Goodnight Beautiful

Eight years, it has been years since she had gone from our life but her presence is still there between us, her essence is still lingering on our surroundings. It must have been seven years since he is born, I can still feel his those petal like soft hands, can hear his mellow giggles, his pink fingers tracing lines on my face though I have never seen him just felt him inside her. Why? Oh Why? Every now and then I keep asking myself why I did what I had done that life has stopped moving ahead, as if we are in a circle moving around same point but if I hadn't done that may be I would have lost what is left with me, may be till yet I would been past in their life.

It has been ten years since I have married him yes today is our 10^th wedding anniversary but a permanent line has been drawn between our hearts which is widening with every passing day, minute and second. Until now he had never mentioned about them in front of me but today he said in front of everyone. It should have been our anniversary party today but we were called in our social gathering as we both forgot that it was our wedding anniversary. I never like being late in the party because if u r late people will talk about you and same thing happened. People were talking about us and why we never had any baby knowing that how much he liked babies. People were always decent enough not to ask that question but once u r drunk u don't care where u are, what u r doing.

"Jai yaar why don't you adopt baby when you cant have your own?" Tarun had asked that question in his drunken state. Everyone was shocked to hear that but all eager faces had turned in our direction waiting for the answer.

"I have a son, my own son. Pia I am waiting outside near the car. Come fast." I had never in my life thought he would reply that.

The click of my bathroom door brought me back from my reverie. Jai entered the room rubbing his hair vigorously. He stared at me for some time and continue rubbing.

"Why did u say that Jai?" He stared at me for some time and continue rubbing.

I asked him again but he asked me another question answering me instead.

"Pia don't you ever feel guilty?"

Guilty? My feelings and emotions have already crossed that line. Guilty is nowhere what I feel. When you are ashamed of what u did that u feel like dying, u can't name that emotion guilt, when you can't see your own face in the mirror and say truth to yourself u cant call it guilt. I am humiliated for what I have done but I cant say that to him. I don't know how to say that to him but I rather say

"Do you know today is our wedding anniversary?" A flick of remembrance moved across his eyes and I think I saw guilt as well but he did nothing just hugged me and wished me curtly. I didn't want to leave the moment so I started moving my hands across his body but even after long time didn't fell any response instead his eye was staring me with no expression. I reached my hand where only I am allowed to touch him but then he removed my hand, mumbled a short sorry and went to bed leaving me in my thoughts. I was so ashamed and humiliated.

St. Thomas Hospital, Room no. 101

It was just yesterday that he was hiding my bag so that I wouldn't go to work, it was just yesterday that he was holding my hand and showing me his favourite bird, it was just yesterday that he was screaming "mama" just to scare me off but today my baby he cant even move, he can't call me any more. There is no one at house to trouble me, there is no one messing around the room searching for his favourite play station game and videogame and there is no one to pull my leg with his dad. That's why I don't like going home. The house, which was filled with his laughter and talks, where I always wanted to be, now the same house kills me with its forever-stretching silence but Pushkar never let me stay here at night saying that I need to rest at night at least but he doesn't know I cant even close my eyes. The face, which has his eyes, the same hair that curls near his ears, the same smile that lifts just at the corner of his mouth haunts me.

I know I need to call him now and tell him about the present situation, tell him about his son and his condition but I am scared. Scared of what I don't know but cant and I wont do it. I need time but still somewhere near my heart I want him, I need him but I am sacred. May be scared of my need and want, scared of my heart which every second is betraying Pushkar, my husband.

Hope you like it and waiting for ur replies. 😛

hi pooja,

imm a bit confused

jai is married to pia???

n they hav a son..??

do continue soon

Hey pooja,

It was penned beautifully, pia's as well as bani's soliloquy.

It's a bit confusing but, I guessed it right I guess.

Jai is married to pia for 10 years, bani is married to pushkar. Bani and jai have a son!!!! Both jai and bani love each other and feel as if they are betraying their partners. Pia had done something which caused for jai and bani to separate!!!

This seems like an unsolved mystery to me!!!! Waiting for the mystery to unsolved!!!!

You better update regularly!!!!

Continue soon…

God bless

Dhani

hey pooja

very confusing but very intriguing.. please doo update soooooooooonnnnnnnnn

s omuch mystery!

Thanks guys for ur lovely comments. Here goes the next part.

When did I first meet him? Can't remember. Since, I was child he was there next to me teasing me, playing with me, fighting with me. We four were always together me, my sister Rano, he and his sister Karuna but I and him were especially close almost glued together. We were the only non-vegetarian Punjabi family in pure vegetarian Brahmin community and since his father was in Jail, we both family were support for each other. His mother was always sick. Ambulance in front of his door was not a new thing but that day it was in front of our house. We both ran madly fearing of the worst but when we reached there it was his mother as usual. She was being taken in stretcher. Later when I heard my parents talking I found that she had again taken some sleeping pills. It was second time in a fortnight she had done that. The rate had increased since his father 'Uday Walia' had come.

His father had come nearly two months ago after being free from jail. I had heard people speaking that once someone had teased and touched his wife in a bad way and in his anger he had killed him instead of informing the police. Judge had asked him just to say sorry and pay some fine to the court for killing him but he didn't. At last, being compelled the judge imprisoned him for 10 yrs. Everybody were waiting intently the day he was returning but when he came he behaved as if nothing had happened. He came, took shower and went to pub. His mom had wept like mad after and her condition returned to same. His dad stayed them for nearly three weeks but his love for his mom was so much that he could see her suffering and so he left. After that day, his mom health was deteriorating day by day.

Nearly after two days his mom gained consciousness. Her brother had come to see her and had some serious talk with my dad. That night my dad called all four of us saying that he has some important thing to say to us.

"Bani, Jai, Rano and Karuna you all know what's the condition of Krishna. These things are affecting your everyday activities and since we have to look after her, we are being able to care u children properly. So we have decided that Jai and Karuna will stay in their uncle's house."

"What?" I shouted. "What u saying dad? I mean how can u say that. How can we four live separately?"

"You wont be separately. You can meet each other at school."

"But that wont be like family?" I shouted top of my lungs, Rano and Karuna had started crying and Jai was sitting in complete silence. I never liked Jai's silence. Once a guy in our school had teased him about his mother. At first, he was all cool and calm but once teacher turned the other way he gave one solid punch to that guy that he broke his nose.

"Uncle I want to talk to Karuna.

He held Karuna's hand and led her outside. They return nearly after fifteen minutes. Jai's expression wasn't changed a bit but Karuna's sob ha somewhat subsided.

"Uncle tomorrow morning Karuna will be leaving with my uncle but I am not going. My mom needs me.

My dad didn't say anything he just nodded his head. Jai went out of the room. I followed him after sometime and found him staring at the moon. His face was glowing under moonlight and the tears were glistering. As if sensing me he rubbed his cheeks. I went near him and sat next to him. I started talking him about random things. He simply lied down keeping his head on my lap. I moved my fingers through his hair but continued speaking. I could feel him shaking and his hears in my thighs but I didn't say anything as if I didn't know, giving him space as well as support. Next day he was fresh and no one said anything about the day before but whenever he feels lonely or weak he comes to me.

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When I woke up this morning his face was an inch closer to me, smiling to me. He apologised about the night before and gave me a long lingering kiss.

"Darling, we are going to Paris this afternoon,"

"Paris?"

" Yes, to celebrate our anniversary and I promise my whole time is yours. No phone calls no nothing. I will leave my blackberry here."

He kissed me again and slowly slide his hands under my nighty'

This morning he made love to me five times. Twice on the bed and on the shower and once near the kitchen, where I was waiting for my bread to toast. He came from the behind and simply ripped my clothes off. He made love to me in such a way that I felt he was a having affair with someone else and he is saying sorry to me. That evening we left for Paris where we spend our whole holiday on bed.

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I did my university in Sheffield University. He always used to come to visit me once in a month with my sister but this time he came alone. We all were enjoying ourselves in one of our university's nightclubs. He said he was getting bored so we planned to call it a day. I said it to my friends and made way to my room. They all gave some knowing looks. I had a small room, one single bed, computer table and cupboard for my clothes and books.

"Whenever Rano used to stay overnight we used to share the bed. So if u don't mind we need to share the bed tonight." I said to him

"Oh! I don't mind" so we both went into the covers. It was a single bed so we had to touch each other while sleeping, his chest my back, his knees touching my thighs. After some time I felt his hands caressing my stomach slowly, rhythmically. My opened my eyes with a jolt. He slowly made his hands downward, my breaths were getting hard and I could feel him getting hard. I always wanted my first time to be special. My friend used to tease me about that and used to say that I was missing something from my life. Now I know what I was waiting for. What is more special than doing it with Jai?

He slide his hands inside my pyjamas elastic and brought his mouth on my jaw line. I closed my eyes waiting but he stopped abruptly, groaned loudly and went out of the bed. I didn't turn around, tears flowing from my eyes. He went inside the bathroom. I could hear the water running inside. He came after sometime all fresh and lied on the floor.

"Bed is not enough for both of us to sleep. Goodnight"

But I didn't reply pretending to be sleep but we both knew that I was not sleeping. Next morning we behave as if nothing happened the night before. We chatted normally, showed him around university and waved him goodbye but determined that next time when he comes again I won't be virgin anymore.

Hope you liked it. I hope I didn't go beyond the limit. Sorry if it was explicit just tell me I will edit it but it was necessary for future. Waiting for your comments. 😛

We are talking about Jai and Bani here. Then how come he is married to Pia. Its kind of confusing. But waitng for you to unfold the story to get the clear picture.

kya pooji.. that was a little confusing.. very confusing actually.. lol.. but i wanna read more just to find out if JB or watz going on yaaaar.. continue sooooon.. aur hamari confusion mita doh yaar. lol.

hey pooja that was a gr88 part but still confusing