Dear nandini,
I'm not good with words or expressing myself, the way you are. You must be thinking from where i came to know about this, I've read the letter you wrote, for avni.
I've read your letter uncountable times, i adore you the way you love avni.
I wrote this for you two weeks ago but couldn't gather the courage to give you, i know i have done so many things to you, in past. I wish i could take them all back, but unfortunately i couldn't But lets not talk them we have enough of all this.
Instead of asking for another chance or saying sorry, i want to tell you about me. I don't know from where i should start as you have completely changed me. I'm not the same anymore. A insecure, angry man who hates everyone, everything. I was a Devil, a true Devil. Because an insecure person is no less than a Devil, who couldn't trust someone. Who really doesn't care about anyone, i used to think every relationship is based on give and take but you make me realise its not, from the starting i kept telling myself i hate you, and keep hurting you as well but you made me realise how alone i was, i never realised i craved for love until you came in my life. You never gave up on me though never tolerated me but still you made me realise how wrong i was, i always want you to leave me, but you never left my side. I felt like there was a hope for me, hope for us. ,
i always wanted to know what you think or felt about me.
I found myself daydreaming about, you must be laughing on me but it was special. Everything related to you was very special for me. The day we first kiss, the day you came after me and land up in problem the day, you said you trust me , that time i knew that i loved you. But i kept pushing you away from me, trust me it was equally painful for me too. When i told you i loved you in front of everyone i mean it every damn word, i swear. But i let my insecurities over power my love i thought hurting you would lessen my pain but it never happened. When i locked you in the store room i sat outside in case if you need me , i didn't let that girl touch my body trust me it was all a drama. my soul, heart, body everything belong to you only. I don't know why i keep hurting you treating you the way i did. But it was a equally painful for me. But i won't give you an excuse because i don't have any, i know its too late. But if it could heal your little pain than i would be the happiest person on this earth. I'm terrible person or i don't deserve you, but i want to thank you because you have changed me or i like this new manik, now i don't hate anyone. I don't have anything to say just thank you for loving me, changing me for good, for not giving up on me. You were the best thing ever happened with me. You gave me the best gift of my life AVNI, it feels great to be a father. She belongs to me, to us there is someone who belongs to me. Now i'm content whatever i have i learnt how to accept, how to apologize and how to fight for your love, i will fight for you till my last breath, I'll love you till my death your memories are enough to keep me alive and happy.
I am sorry all the pain i have caused you, but i know its not enough.
Its really not enough !
Waiting for you both
Love you
Manik
Don't know what to say this latter is touch heart . agar kisi k pass dill nahi ho sayad tab bhe vo maff kar da . or yaha to nandini ussa baimtaha mohabbat payar karta hai. Now its ur wish but insan Sa galti hoti hai agar khud kuch saha to aga aisa or hoga ISSI dar Sa galti sabsa hoti . ham farista nahi Jo hamsa vul na hogi. Or new Bron baby Sa dur rakh kar manik khud ko saza da raha hai apni gati ki. Ab dakta hai writer ki dill or pen kaya karta hai. Lv tc.
Kumkum Bhagya
Anupamaa
