Manan TS- The Reason Is You... (3rd Part-Page 6) 26th July

"Give Me Just A Reason To Live"

Why should we live? What should we live for when no one in your life has ever loved you? Life is so easy to be ended but so hard to be endured. Why shouldn't I end it and live in peace? What is left for me to live for?

My company was in a loss, I wasn't getting new lyrics for my song and the girl who I had trusted all my life, left me, left me to live alone and face these hard times alone. I never had a good childhood and neither did my mother ever love me. My father's last words to me were that he was ashamed of me and now, when I finally did what he wanted, I let the whole company down.

They say suicide is a very cowardly thing to do, but when the person is sitting alone, trying to make sense of his messed up life and finally reaching the conclusion that nobody cares, and all that is left is to take the plunge; there is this voice in your mind shouting STOP and cries in fear and complete hopelessness. You try to push over your fear and be brave enough to take your life and win over the fear you have from death and I believe that is actually the one time you are brave enough.

They say that suicide is a selfish decision, but it won't be selfish in my case, as I am not a person someone loves instead I am doing all of them a big favour, they won't have to deal with this failure of a man named Manik Malhotra.

And so, that's what I did, I did the bravest thing I could do and waited as the foam came out of my mouth and my consciousness was slowly fading away...

I opened my eyes, later much later than I had closed them, to welcome rays of very very white light. As my eyes were adjusting to this change, I wondered whether I was successful, had I finally reached my destination?

But then I saw a face, a beautiful face. It was as white as snow and had such delicate features that I believed that she was the angel who had come to take me away, away from my hardships to a place where I would get supreme bliss, but it was then I noticed, that this angel was wearing a white coat with an ID card dangling down from her beautiful neck and resting on my blanket.

So, no, I was not successful. She was not an angel and Cabir is now going to die along with me.

"Dr. Nandini" I mumbled reading from the ID card, which is all that it took for her to leave my wrists and look into my eyes. I was lost, so lost into those brown heartwarming eyes which bore into mine, trying to read the sadness I was trying to hide. I take it back, she was an angel, just not the angel I wanted her to be.

"Mr. Cabir, your friend is conscious now, you can talk to him if you want for now, but he will be seeing me today at 4. Don't forget about your appointment." She said before leaving and secretly throwing a last glance at my face.

And then came Cabir, crying, and crushed me under his brotherly embrace, giving me warmth.

I knew that the lecture would start and he would condemn me for even pulling this stunt on him, but surprisingly enough, he just looked into my eyes and said, "I understand."

Okay so maybe one person did care, which was Cabir Dhawan, my bestfriend and business partner.

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It was most probably 3:30 in the afternoon when Cabir woke me up and asked me to get ready. I was weak, but not weak enough to not be able to take care of myself. So I did just as he wanted me to do and got ready in the same clothes in which I had attempted suicide.

As I entered my hospital room again, Cabir waved my discharge papers in front of me and then in one instant came and held both my shoulders very firmly. "No one outside knows that you tried to commit suicide except your new counsellor. I will not tolerate anymore dramas like this. Don't you dare do this to me again. DO YOU GET THAT?! And yes, today we will meet your counsellor and she is going to stay with you till you're fine again. I am not going to take no for an answer."

I knew talking to him wouldn't do any good. He was pissed and the only source of concern that I had in this lonely, miserable life. Oh, what I would give away just for a teeny bit of happiness, just a reason to live.

With my gloomy face and dying hope, I walked towards the main gates of the hospital which opened to reveal hundreds of those crazy media fanatics, all swooning over me, trying to take pictures of my pale face which had a small smile plastered on it as ordered by Cabir and moving forward, I could see some employees of my company too, they looked worried and scared and it once again dawned upon me that I was RESPONSIBLE.

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No One's POV

"Manik Malhotra, the son of Raj Malhotra and the only heir of the Malhotra Empire, has finally taken charge after his father's death." All the newspapers were filled with the details of this super famous rockstar turned businessman and the excitement of his stepping up was a controversial topic for weeks.

It was during the zenith of his career that Manik had taken the much needed decision of taking up the reigns in his own hands, or that cocky b*****d Harshad wouldn't stop himself from taking control, after all he was the soon Raj was proud of.

The first six months of his new life were true bliss, the company was touching new heights, Harshad was nowhere in sight, Nyonika was defeated and his sweetheart Rewa was present with him during all of his success, but things can't remain meery always now, can they?

And so for Manik, who seemed to have used up all of the good luck in his life, was struck so badly after an year, altogether, that it seemed a miracle that he was still alive.

Harshad wasn't gone and neither had Nyonika, they just let him be happy enough so that they could crush him to the ground in the most brutal way ever. The secrets of success and all the plans had been leaked out by someone, a someone he knew all too well, but forgot to look over as he was busy enjoying this sudden flow of happiness, and all that followed was darkness. Malhotra Industries' stocks skyrocketed downwards and they were left with nothing but debts. The all so loving and beautiful Rewa, turned out to be his worst nightmare, who happily stabbed him on his back and went on to marry Harshad, the new billionaire in town and if all of this was not enough, his own mother betrayed him and brought him down on his knees.

It's such a beautiful life, isn't it?

But through it all, there was one who stuck by always, Cabir. And he knew he would be there when the sunshine emerges out all again, as it would, soon. But Manik lost the one thing that we all need to live, HOPE.

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Manik had an appointment today, maybe the most important in his life, with Dr. Nandini, the angel not sent by heaven *sigh* at 4, and one thing was sure, his hope and sunshine was waiting to come out and brighten things up again but all he needed to do was, try.

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