Hiya winkh..
Its a big wala res..
N i promise.. Nandini promise.. That i will definitely write it down...😳.. ( gosh! M so bad at this res thing)
Its a special post from you.. Need to find some solitude and then dive into the depths of your words..
Love HAMESHA
Pankh
UNRES..
I honestly do not know from where to start. How do I summarize and write, all that I have to express, all that I feel, and all that THEY deserve. I am not ready for a goodbye, not ready to accept their absence. Somehow, there is this dread inside me that nothing's gonna be the same now ( I wish too hard to be wrong about this). They have THAT place in my life. A sane mind would logic out the credibility of this obsession, but I don't wish to interact with logics, because it is the heart that speaks for them, that adores them to death, and has that unspeakable bond with them, as if they were a part of my life since forever.
I don't wish to be sad but I am. I wish I could just be happy with whatever we got, but I am not. It feels like losing a friend, so close to you that you cant help but sit and cry over it. Alas, being sad or disappointed won't bring me any good, but remembering all the moments KY2 was there in my life would. All those moments when I laughed with it, smiled and dreamed crazily with it, cried my eyes out with it, questioned life and relations with it.. would be the most beautiful memories for me.
I cant help but remember the very first instance of Ky2 that I was lucky enough to watch and unlucky enough to not give a thought to. It was sometime near Diwali, and my cousin was going crazy about watching a show which had this Black-vest wearing boy (someone with good looks, sharp nose, n something different with his eyes) watching a girl cladded in white and black lehenga twirling around somwhere. It gave a sense of a youth show with the pair having an amazing chemistry. I only got to the part where he said
" Nandini, Its ok.. It happens.. Experience nahi haina tumhe zyada parties ka, it happens.."
and I got up from there that it was probably another Tv-drama, where the start is fresh and gradually the people turn out to be monotonous. Laughed at my cousin for being stupid (who now laughs at me for being super-CRAZY) and carried on with my life.
Somehow that image of two people who interacted in a formal yet informal way, was always in my mind, and over the time I thought if someday, I am bored or anything, I will give it a try. And that time came in January this year, a day I will always remember. In the morning, I called up my cousin, asked the name of the show and searched for "kaisi yeh yaariaan diwali episode" and there was no turning back from there. I watched episode after episode of it. There have been so many reasons why people got hooked to the show, but I have never been able to find mine. MANAN probably would be the best answer. A boy screaming and manhandling a girl, and then apologising, as if it was the most difficult thing to do, a simple and sweet girl who actually did forgive him, or the way they were shining even more than the lights around them, or the way he held her hand to prevent her from going away, or The Lamp of Stars.. never have been able to figure it out.. whatever it was I was gone, gone for good.
The show made me relive my teenage madness once again, the craziness of going ga-ga over the hottest male lead, giggling at all the silly stuff and dreaming about my Mr. Right and the expectations only got higher and higher (God bless the one who actually is gonna marry me😆). But the different thing was the uniqueness. They portrayed relations, individuals, love, friendship in such a practical and logical way, with right amount of emotional quotient.Initially, I hated Manik, for all it was worth, wanted to kill him, but gradually i never even realized why and when I fell in love with him.
Manik.. A name, a word, a GEM that will always hold a very special meaning in all of our lives. He is an inspiration which taught us to maintain your purity and goodness even if you are surrounded by the most evil situations around you. He truly is a lotus in the muddy water. He taught us how to stand by your friends. He taught us the meaning of family. He taught us the love you should maintain for your passion. He taught us what it is to love selflessly.. Even being the broken child he was, he taught us so much.. I can never never justify him and the brilliance of the way Parth played this character with my insignificant words. Manik is Manik beacuse of Parth.. and they both will always be special.
Nandini, oh how I could relate to her on so many levels. She was the strong-willed girl. An optimist, someone who fought her demons with the light of goodness. Someone who made us believe that there was good inside everyone and brought out the best in everyone around her.
Someone who had her own existence, had her own morals, who stood by it and had the guts of punching the Monster in his face( The most rejoicing moment of the initial episodes). Hats off to Niti for her brilliance in acting and the innocence and cuteness she brought to the character Nandini..
Fab 5.. memories of my friends, meaning of friendship.. I was crazily, obsessively, and exuberantly in love with all of them. They are a part of my life.. sigh.. I love them. The bond of friendship, you learn from them.. to mend the broken pieces of your heart.. you learn from them.
Navya.. I had to mention her.. although her behaviour was irrational at times, but she was the naive one.. like we all are at some point of our lives.. some lessons are learnt the hard way.. and the same happened with her.. but I will never forget the determinationa and enthusiasm that Navya Naveli possessed..
I feel like writing on and on.. but I have to stop somewhere..
Winkh, it was supposed to be something else.. but I got off-track.. just wrote this at the spur of the moment, you and your writings make me do that. I start off deciding to write something worthwhile n end up expressing my tumultuous thoughts..
well KY2 gave me one more precious most thing and thats you my winkh.. I love you so much.. since day 1, I have felt such a strong bond with you.. although we met in a virtual world of crazy fans, but you are as real to me as any other friend in my life.. I can go on and on about the brilliance of your words.. and I will never get tired of it..
You create magic with your words.. your words have a life of their own.. as I have said this a million times and can say it a zillion time more.. you understand Manan like no one else does.. thanks to you.. i always got a better understanding of them.. I was always highly impressed by your thoughts.. you are the beautiful most person I have met here.. coz your words speak about the purity of your heart... And I respect you so much for that..
I am so so so lucky to have met you.. thanks to the fireflies and the stars😉..
I have written so much.. actually wanted to write you a beautiful something, but it came out as it did..😆
bas I just wanna say this.. as Manan forever... its Winkh-Pankh Forever
Love HAMESHA
your fan HAMESHA
will be there for you HAMESHA
Love HAMESHA😆 (I say that a lot)
Pankh
P.S. sorry for the typos
P.P.S could not end without a P.S.😆
Edited by riddhima11 - 10 years ago