Chapter 21-
Manik silently went upto his room...he sat near his window pane and inhaled slowly the fresh air but alas!the fresh air couldn't calm him down..he closed his eyes but all he could see is Nandini saying "I trust you"..just as Shakespeare said music is the best medicine..its the most powerful trait a human can possess..it has such strength that it can calm the wildest of horses..and Manik Malhotra!music flowed in his veins..thinking it to be the best healer he picked up his guitar and strummed it thinking of Nandini..what if she doesn't love him?can he ever rub Nandini's colour off him?does he even have any value without Nandini?he has come for Nandini..to live Nandini..what will he do without her??will he survive??he wanted to ask all this questions to Nandini and urged to know her answers..may be it was his questions which made him sing the song..sing his insecurities
Chuteya na chute mose rang tera dholna
Ek tere baajo duja mera koi mol na
Bolna mahi bolna
Bolna mahi bolna
Tere liye aaya mai toh tere sang jaana
Dholna veh tere naal jindri bitawan
Kabhi naiyo chodna ishq di dorna
Saare chad jayen mahi tu na chodna
Bolna mahi bolna
Bolna mahi bolna
His eyes were still closed,hands still strumming,mind and heart still busy thinking will Nandini ever understand the meaning of the lyrics?will she ever feel the lyrics??his lyrics for her??his feelings for her..he opened his eyes to find Nandini standing before him..he was about to get up when Nandini stopped him and herself sat beside him with her hands upon his with locking up her eyes with him
Tere sang hasna mein tere sang rona
Tujh mein rehna mein tujh mein hi khona
Dil mein chupake tujhe dil naiyon khol na
Marke bhi maahi tose muh na modna
Bolna mahi bolna
Bolna maahi bolna
Both were still looking into each others eyes as if answering the other person..but their eyelock broke the moment Nandini started"Manik I am sorry..i know a sorry is too small to make it up for every of my mistake..its nothing compared to the amount of pain you have endured for me..i know Manik I am wrong..i am so wrong..you kept telling me and what I did??shunt myself from you..thinking its all your planning to get me because you loved me..but the reality is you just said that you loved me..you never even asked me once if I love you..if I felt for you..all you did is just smile..you smiled to hide your pain..your love behind your smile..and what I did Manik?i choosed a rascal over you..i broke our years of friendship..we were not only friends..we were each others lifeline..how could I do this??everytime you came to me to make me understand all I said you are doing this because you love me and cant see me with anyone else..because you want me as yours..you never wanted to hear that I love you but you always wanted to hear that I trust you but I did not do that also..you know what Manik..i hate myself..i literally hate myself..i ha..te me..Ma..an..ik..i hate"saying this Nandini broke down in Manik's arms
"Nandini calm down its okay..whatever happened, happened ..forget it..its okay"Manik lightly patted her head to calm her down.."no need to regret Nandini..you never knew Harshad was a criminal and when we found out his truth you loved him too much to believe he is evil..you loved him Nandini and in love its hard to believe that your partner can ever commit the slightest of mistake let alone a murder..so stop feeling bad regarding that"Nandini slowly lifted her head of his chest and looked into his eyes
"Manik I never loved him..i never knew what love was..so believed my attraction as my love..and the thought itself disgusts me..Manik lets start afresh..with only you and me..i promise I would make everything correct..Man.." "Nandini"interrupted Manik"I know you are guilty and want to make things correct but I think I need time"
"time??Manik please don't give me this punishment..please don't stop loving me..Manik..i know I have committed a blunder but"blabbered Nandini"hey Nandini calm down..i haven't stopped loving you..it just that I need time..time for myself.."he went close to her and cupped her face"Nandini when you said you love Harshad I was hurt to some extent only because I would have lived ages seeing you smile and if Harshad was the reason of smile I myself would remain indebted to him..but when you said you don't trust me..that sentence killed me..killed me a thousand deaths..killed me with every breathe I inhaled..killed me everytime I looked at myself in the mirror Nandini..you mean the world to me Nandini and if your world says that she doesn't trust you,you have got no right to live..
i am still hurt Nandini not because you didn't love me back but you didn't trust me,our years of friendship..it was Harshad's men who spilled the beans and you believed them but think Nandini when I almost cried my heart out infront of you all you said is I was plotting to make yoy mine..you used to read my eyes Nandini..i wish once more you would have tried to read them..you would not only find love for you,but also that I wasn't lying..for your happiness I can turn the world upside down Nandini..think if today you weren't able to find out Harshad's reality then you would have always hated me Nandini..i would have hated myself forever..i would have died with guilt only..when I came running to you to reveal Harshad's reality you slapped me hard,I swear Nandini it didn't hurt as much as your words did..and now that you have said you trust me my mind and heart needs time to believe that you really meant that words..our friendship started with the base of trust,promising to trust each other always..but you were the one to withdraw first..i need time Nandini..i hope you understand.."finished Manik with a sigh..Nandini went all numb..she never knew this was coming but she deserved it..she verily deserved it.."you need to take rest Manik.."is all Nandini said..she stood on her toes,lightly pecked Manik's forehead and silently moved out of the room.."I know Nandini you are hurt but I need to do this for me"said Manik
"Manik is nowhere wrong..he is right..how could he forgive me??but don't worry Mr.Malhotra I swear I will manaofy you..you will have a hard time Mr.Malhotra because Nandini Manik Malhotra never gives up..be ready Mr. ..i will swipe you of your feet..i will mend what I tore"said a determined Nandini..
"hello Cabir" "haan Nandu hello..sorry Chotti who from last two days I couldn't come to meet you guys..exactly mom isn't keeping well these days so I needed to be with her..i am sorry"blabbered Cabir in a go "oho Cabir shut up..first you say how's aunty and why didn't you tell us aunty isn't fine? "yeah,mom is a bit better now Chotti and maine tujhe isiliye hi nahi bataya..because I knew you will start panicking and now Manik needs you more so be with him"
"exactly Cabir I needed to tell you something..umm"Nandini said every detail to Cabir..how she heard Harshad talking to his men,how she investigated and finally how se was able to do it.."Chotti you don't know how happy today I am..finally..like finally you guys are together..i said you na you will soon realise Manik is the best for you..gawd! i am so happy for you guys..i can't believe you guys are together"Cabir almost danced on his side of the phone expressing his hapiness "Cabir we are not together Manik said that he need's time"
"what..wait mein yeh gadha se abhi baat karta hoon" "no Cabir..i deserve this..let him take his time"said Nandini keeping a boulder on her heart.."its okay Chotti don't worry..everything will be fine soon..and I hope this time will heal every wound and when you guys come togther there will be no chance of you guys part ways because you guys would have conquered "trust" for your new relationship..Nandu trust is the most important ingredient of a relation..love can eventually happen over the years but if you don't trust your partner you can never earn them..Chotti you have to walk carefully in the beginning of love,the running across fields into your lover's arm can only happen later when you are sure they won't laugh if you trip..and for this you need trust"
"thank you Cabir..i love you..and haan tomorrow everyone is coming back..you are going to pick them up?right?" "sure behna and yeah I love you too..bye"
"be ready Mr.Malhotra..Mission Manao Manik starts"winked Nandini
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Edited by bidisha10 - 9 years ago
