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Nandini's POV
Its been a week since the horrendous night passed, but Its taken away a part of me, its taken away my beliefs, my confidence, my music
Its been a week since the horrendous night passed, but Its taken away a part of me, its taken away my beliefs, my confidence, my music
Everything around seems unchanged yet its different
Outside things are so serene but there is a turmoil going inside me
Everyday I see my love ones making an attempt to make things normal around me
I appreciate their love, their affection but this somehow isn't helping
The guilt inside me for not listening to manik, for judging panditji by his face value is suffocating me
He did warn me umpteen number of times but I was adamant and named his judgement as jealousy
Outside things are so serene but there is a turmoil going inside me
Everyday I see my love ones making an attempt to make things normal around me
I appreciate their love, their affection but this somehow isn't helping
The guilt inside me for not listening to manik, for judging panditji by his face value is suffocating me
He did warn me umpteen number of times but I was adamant and named his judgement as jealousy
if even for once I would hear him out, analyse the reason behind his hatred for panditji, the things would have been different
Its me who chose this darkness and I can't find a way to come out of it
I know that darkness cannot fight darkness, only light can do that
Yes Manik is that light, he is the light shining upon me right now
But each encounter of ours takes me to a guilt trip
I am so messed up, what have i got myself into?
My chain of thoughts were broken by the constant knock on my door. It was subbu, our housekeeper. He informed me that amms was calling me for lunch downstairs.
End Of POV
Amms : Bache..come here sit with me
Nandu : Amms actually i need to check on Rishabh,I will join you later
Amms : Nandu, enough bache..you can hide away from me and everyone around but not yourself. Though you are not speaking but your eyes are speaking volumes, they are showing the vulnerable state that you are in. please just let it out. Your silence will do nothing but kill you from within. You are strong, stronger than all your fears and i know that you will get through this phase too, but please don't push yourself to a place where it would be impossible for anyone to find you.
'Amms' was all she could utter and tears began rolling down her eyes, she hugged her as tight as she could, trying to hide herself from the rest of the world in her grandma's embrace
Amms : I wont stop you from crying bache..cry your heart out. I am here for you, and I'll be there for you always
She was trying hard to collect her thoughts, her unsaid emotions but failed to do so
The only thing she could do was run away.
She didn't run away from her amms but her thoughts
She didn't have the courage to sort out her messed up mind
All those emotions again remained burried deep inside her heart
In the coming two shots nandu will blurt everything out and clear the mess created in her life. And nandu's birthday celebrations
Ciao!
CID
