Fear filled her heart once again today. She stands on that crossroad once again today. And the final decision doesn't seem to be in her hands.
"What about us?"
She is not afraid to ask him today. She won't take silence as an answer this time. She demands these answers! She has these rights on him!
Yesterday she proposed her definition of love to him. "Love is selfish". If loving him means she's selfish, then yes she is selfish! If wanting to spend every moment of the day in his presence is selfishness than yes she is selfish! If selfish is wanting all his kisses, hugs, tears, aches to herself then yes yes yes she is selfish!
She wants him to fight for her for once. She wants him to fight for himself once. She demands he fights for them!
She fears that dark night will return once again when she won't be able to explain to him the relevance of her firelies. The reason why they glow.
She already dreads his unspoken words as to who he is going to choose this time. But she won't let him go so easy this time. She's always listened to him. Be it when words of anger were fired or when a needy plea was made. She never gave up on him. Then how can he just give up on them so easily? Give up on her hope, his hope, their hope?
She must be stupid she thought. She must be mad to love him to this extent. It makes absolute no damn sense for her to love him so immensely! Yet it makes just the perfect sense.
He has pushed her to the limits today! No room for tears today. Answers are what she demands and the only answers which are valid are those that mirror hers.
So she waited.
But all he could voice was "Tumhe lagta hai keh maina iske bare mai socha nahi?"
If you have then why not tell her what she wants to hear?!
You had once asked her to say what you wanted to hear. "I want to hear that you'll always shine for me. That you'll always be my star. Hamesha. I wanna hear ke mai hamesha tumhari prayers mai rahoonga. And I wanna know ke tum hamesha mujh par trust karogi...Hamesha."
Now it's your turn...tell her what she wants to hear! Tell her that you'll always let her shine for you. Tell her that she will always be your star. Hamesha. Tell here that you promise to always remain in her prayers. Tell her that she will always be able to trust you. Hamesha.
Tell her. Just please. Her heart is begging you. Just once. She promises to not ask a single question afterwards. She promises to never question your trust ever again. But today she needs the much-deserved closure.
Yesterday you needed her.
Today she needs you.
She begged, pleaded and hoped. But you didn't give in.
She was expecting an answer from the heart. But you spoke the mind's words.
And now she's angry. Beyond upset. Almost fuming.
You're impossible!
A humble request...a simple hope...Declined!
You've left her questioning her own hope today. You've left her confidence to waver yet again.
Yes it is your fault! You promised to protect her for the whole of your life. You're going to have to fulfil it till eternity. There's no backing out. You have no choice.
"Are you seriously asking me to leave?"
Are you Mr. Malhotra? Because if yes, then you're really going to have to prepare yourself for some tedious labour ahead. She's walking off beyond upset with you. You'll have to do something beyond this universe to get her to smile again.
She thought of you as her fate and her fate has let her down today. You have let her down.
Disappointed, she walks off.
But surprise surprise! What is this we have?
A blocked exit. No way to leave.
You're lucky Manik Malhotra. Fate seems to be in your favour today. You didn't want her to walk away.
I get it. We get it. You messed up.
Your words betrayed your thoughts. You had wanted to stop her and assure her that her hope wasn't going to falter. That this fight was long over. That you are ready to welcome her home this minute.
But we get it. You messed up.
It's okay. Only humans make mistakes. And the best thing about mistakes is they can be reviewed.
Fate is giving you a chance. Go stop her! Enlighten her! Tell her that you're going nowhere. That you're bound to her forever! That her hope has already won!
Tell her that she is the air you breathe. That she is the heartbeat of your heart. That she is the dream you dream every night.
That she is the reason for your existence...
Teri saanson ki saans mein
Jo hoon toh main hoon
Tere khwabon ki aanch mein
Jo hoon toh main hoon
Tere hone se hi mera hona hai
Tujhko khona jaise khudko khona
Tu jo hai toh main hoon
Yun jo hai toh main hoon
Tu jo hai toh main hoon
Yun jo hai toh main hoon
I'm glad you helped her as she needed you. You made room for her, yourself and for the both of you. It means you won't let her down. You will fight for the both of you. Pushing all hindrances back, you will make room for your love and your relationship to blossom.
I'm happy. But is she?
However whilst you could review your mistakes, reality isn't always that kind. Some blunders can't be reversed... some souls are just not that lucky. You'll meet one such tomorrow. You'll witness the consequences of a lonely and broken heart. Your friend. Mukti. She'll be unrecognisable tomorrow. A complete mess.
But I have a request. Don't blame love for this heartbreak. Don't curse love for this blunder. Don't question love for these consequences. She just slipped at the wrong time in the wrong place. It's not her love's fault. It's not her fault either. It's just the fault in their stars.
Not everyone is as lucky as you to have true love. Have true love forever. Don't let it slip. Don't lose it. Many dream for this wish. But only some wishes are fulfilled. You're lucky you have her. Your Nandini. Fight with her. Fight for her. But just don't let her go.
Also. Can I request again? Don't blame yourself tomorrow. I know you well. You'll behold yourself guilty for this infortune. It's not your fault though. You've always tried your best to protect them. Your friends. And those attempts have been quite successful too. But always remember. Preventions are in your hand. But destiny isn't. No one can control fate.
Your brother Dhruv. I know you miss his presence. You miss his smile. You miss his company. You're also worried for him. Beyond concerned. Your eyes express it all to me. I can hear it all in your silence. You want to be able to talk to him, I know. You want him to return to speaking terms with you, I understand. But right now he needs room. So give him that space. He is in need of some air. He feels as if he has just been re-born. Let him learn. Let him experience life. Let him struggle a little. Let him fall and then learn to rise again.
You have her. Nandini. He has no one. He had you... but he himself pushed you away. He needs you but he is in denial. Ever wonder why his eyes remained lowered today? He was speaking to you but why wasn't he facing you? Because he has already started feeling that guilt.
When he thought he had found love, he thought it was going to be the most beautiful thing ever. You had yourself assured him of that. You had said his love story would be one of a kind... simply beautiful. Beyond magical. But it didn't turn out as he had hoped.
Hope.
His hope has shattered too. He had hoped for a beautiful life with her. Aliya. He had hoped she would understand him like no one else. But his hope crumbled. It failed. It lost.
Now he doesn't want to hope. He doesn't believe in such ideologies. Love, friendship, trust, hope. It's all a joke for him. Why? Because he's become a joke himself. Look what she has changed him into. He doesn't hate you. No! He simply hates friendships. He loathes love. He detests trust and can't bear the idea of hope!
But be patient. As the fruits of patience are always the sweetest.
He will return. Let him experiment a little. Let him experience himself. He wants to be like you. This bluntness, this harshness, this bitterness. It all used to be a part of you once. Before your shining star had arrived. It was when your mask could conceal your reality perfectly. When you used to claim to be the monster because that's what your facade used to reflect. He wants to see if he can be the same monster. He's drowning in inferiority complex at this stage. Let him surface to the shore on his own. You were never the monster you had claimed to be. So how will he manage to pull off this pretence for long? He will realise soon. Sooner than you think. And that day he will return home.
So I hear your opponent is quite intelligent? He knows how to play this game well. But don't you always play it the best? Because you like playing it dirty!
You need to fight him. Fight for her.
His hands reached upto her hair today did you know? I was afraid he was going to replace you here too. As far as I remember only you have the right to tuck the locks of her hair behind her ear. For a second I thought he was going to substitute himself instead of you here. If that had happened, god forbid this world would have to face your wrath. But you understand what I'm trying to say right? She needs protection. She needs you. You're irreplaceable according to her. Whether it's this fusion concert or whether it's her heart. No one can be as perfect for her as you. No one can replace you.
You weren't there to question him today so she questioned him on your behalf. But she wishes to see you back in that room tomorrow; questioning him of his intentions. She expects you to question him how dare he touch her where only your touch is allowed. She is hoping you to return tomorrow to question him of why you were replaced. She is still awaiting your return. She is still expecting you to protect her. She is still hoping for you to fight for her.
Don't fail her!
me me...
Well here i am..very late buy hopefully this won't become a habit..lol
Okies..WOW. This analyiss was really different but in a good way. I feel like your writing style changed a little with this analysis..and i really liked it..it almost seemed like a conversation with Manik, a unique style and i think it was just as amazing.
Me...i just keep the same ranting style..lol. You Ready ?
we shall start with Dhruv. You did an amazing job with analyzing him..simply superb. How Dhruv so desperately wants to be Manik and now he is being everything Manik use to be before Nandini entered his life. His life, Alya has failed him. She never gave him the priority he deserved so now, this indifference is the new Dhruv, a new person no one other than Alya will recognize. And this indifference shall cost him and time itself will teach Dhruv important lessons..He shall stumble but his friends, his buddy still won't let him fall. Manik, he loves this boy like a brother, like a son. He has made sacrifices for him...and he seems to have made another one today: walked away from the fusion concert..the same concert that meant so much for his relationship with Nandini. He shall find ways to be 'happy for him'. because that's how selfless Manik Maltorta is..Alya...this girl is the only one who knows Dhruv now, mainly becuase she has part in making this new Dhruv.
Where there is love, there is always fights..Fights mean there is something worth fighting for..and that applies to both friendship and love ( Manan's relationship).
Oh Pandit. Divide and Rule you are playing." I am replacing you, Manik Maltorta." My Manik Maltorta sees right through you. He has been part of these games long before you even learnt to play them, oldie. Where young kids ran around and played kid games, his mother taught him how to play mind games. So be prepared, to lose ! But my lad likes a strong oppponent..makes winning all that sweeter for him. And here you are toying with the two most important people in his life..his love and his brother. If my Manik finds out you are touching his Nandu where only his hands belong..you shall have a problem, bud. Pandit pulled this stupid move for this anyway. Had Manik been here, he wouldn't even let you touch his girl...that's why you used Dhruv, his resentment towards to give him the chance to be 'Manik Maltorta'. I worry for you Pandit, I truly do.
Just yesterday, she taught him to hope. To not give up. To keep trying and today hope itself seems to be failing them both.. Lying other the stars, he tells her "Hope karti raho" but Manik, you have seem to given her no reason to hope. Are we back to the love vs,friendship sacrifice ? Are you going to give up on your Nandini again for your buddy ? Manik knows what this fusion concert means to Nandini, it's the battle for their hope to survive and come out on top. This Fusion Concert is suppose to be their victory. Manik and Nandini's victory. But Manik has walked away from this concert ? walked away from their chance to win ? Nandini has every reason to worry...and she has the right to ask him these questions. Yesterday, she gave Manik what needed the most: herself, her support. Today, she needs his words, his reassurance and he won't give up to her, on them ! So she doesn't want to feel the hurt..so instead she chooses anger. He can't give her answers even when he has thought about it..and even today, Dhruv takes priority.
She thinks fate and Manik don't them to be together, and fate answers back in a humorous way : it locks them in and gives Manik a chance to fix his mistake. Fate tells Manik: prove your girl wrong. Use your strength. Use your power. I think you analyzed their lock in really well..Manik has a chance to prove to Nandini that he can and will fight for them.
Okies..so i shall pick Cavya and Mukti in my next post..so let's end this one here..
Great work as always my twinkie bear.
- Reya aka Your Sunny <3