Protectors,Saviors and 'Not-Lovers'

Originally posted by: Medha.S

So the fact of the matter is that I find 'Love' overrated when it comes to romantic relationships. Yeah, I say 'I Love You' all the time, to my parents, siblings,cousins and friends and even people I have never met. But when it comes to being in love with someone, feeling something more than what I feel for a friend, I hesitate to say it. Because it feels like that it is more than 'Love'.

This is why we are meant to be #Bros4Eva. I use and overuse I love you' so many times and with so many people that when I'm actually in love with someone, it feels like I'm not doing justice to my feelings by saying only 'I Love You'...it kind of, undermines the profundity of the emotion I feel for that person.

I get that it might be weird but saying that 'I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU' makes me feel like the intensity, the depth of it is being undermined. Like, something important is being taken away from what I really want to explain, to tell the person when it really comes down to confessing.It just doesnt not convey what I actually feel.It is not enough.

Exactly. It is just not enough. It limits my feelings, my emotions. It doesn't justify what I truly, deeply, honestly feel. And the more I say it, the more I feel like I'm demeaning the real significance, the real intensity this emotion holds. It sounds weird and complicated when put like that, but I know you get my point🤓

So I never said it, never say it ...Because I don't know if saying the words would convey how protective I feel of the person, how I smile when the person smiles and how the tears come helplessly when I see the tears in that person's eyes.It just doesn't convey that I would go to any lengths, forget about my morals and what I am all about to shield the person away from any harm.Seeing the person I am in love with, in pain or away from me hurts me, it is a physical hurt that starts at my finger tips and reaches my heart and eyes.So even when I am in love, and I know it and I do everything and say everything to make that person realize that I am in love, I never say that I am in love.

I will do everything and will say everything to make that person realize what I feel, what he can make me do or make me feel. But I never say I love you, I never say I'm in love with you. Ever.

I'm telling you we are long lost bros or something. Legit.

So I watched Manik and Nandini talking, confessing their secrets, saying things that they would never have thought they they would feel a year ago. Here they are, so in love with each other, owning each other so completely that their every action is affected by the other, is for the other and due to the other. There is nothing more precious than seeing them just talk, communicate rightly and let each other in.As fun and beautiful their romantic scenes are, I just love these scenes when they let all those feeling and doubts and reassurances out in the open for each other to see, accept and find comfort in them. Their was nothing romantic about the hug;just pure love,happiness sand relief.

That hug afsdffdafsdad...Nandini running towards him like it's the end of the world..Manik holding Nandini and Nandini holding on to Manik for their dear lives...like they won't be able to breathe if they let go of each other. Just let the world slip away into oblivion and let it end and they will just BE..Nandini in Manik's arms, wrapped so tightly that you can't distinguish the two hearts because that's how they live..two hearts who completes each other, beating as one. Labeling it as only romance' would be so unjust. It's just so surreal, so magnificent. Extraordinaire

The same Manik Malhotra who used to try and scare her into submission ,who used to corner her in the corridors and bully her with his words, who claimed to be invincible and self-sufficient, who did not need anyone to protect him and look out for him.The same guy so easily accepts that Yes, She is his protector -He needs her to protect him always because he is not invincible.He has a heart, he feels, he gets hurt and he gets injured, he is impulsive and rash, he is careless.He does not care for anything, not his life especially.He cannot protect himself because he does not give himself the importance, but she does.He is her priority always.He can count on her and always trust her to protect him from the world, from his own reckless mind and everything else.

He lived behind the mask of 'I am Bad, I like to be bad' and the pretense of not feeling pain,not getting hurt-Always angry but never sad.The Ruler of his own f**ked up little Kingdom where he cannot let anyone enter.He used to be wary of her because deep down, he knew she was capable of taking over and dominating him.But she did not need to invade his preciously protected Kingdom, she attacked his heart and took over.Now she owns it while he has his Kingdom and his people to protect.At least, now he knows that he will ALWAYS be able to protect his people because he himself with all his flaws, his heart and vulnerabilities is protected and safe.He is not standing by himself with all his burdens, she is always there to share them and take them away from him when he is feeling down.

She told him that she is scared.She is scared because she loves everything about him, even the fact that he is the best kind of friend who would do anything for his people.If it comes own to making a choice, he will choose his friends. Because he is Manik and he cannot stop protecting them, protecting them, taking care of them is an integral part of his existence. But he tells her that She protects him in the same way that he protects his friends and it made my heart explode with happiness.Because from where I see, he made the biggest confession of his life with that. She turned away because she thinks that she is right, that she has a reason to be scared.But he told her that she is his protector and how can she protect him if she is scared? No cheesiness, nothing romantic about it, no magnificent confessions of eternal love and togetherness.But there, he gave her the biggest reason as to why she shouldn't be scared.Because in the whole wide world, it is only her that he trusts to protect him.

And here I would quote my reply from Rida and Maisu's post:

"She didn't want him to choose. She knows how important friendship is to Manik, she herself has admitted it's the first good thing she had noticed in him. She'd never want Manik to let go of his friends because she herself values friendship too much. She just wanted to know what she really means to him, what is her place in his life. She wanted to know whether everything she had felt was real or just something her mind deluded herself into believing. And the way Manik has reinstated her belief through those words, baring himself in front of her, the way he hasn't and probably won't do for anybody else is what makes this unconfessed-confession so, so special to me."

To Manik, "Nandini is never a 'choice'. You can choose between two persons. But you cannot really choose between people and a star, that keeps shining for you, lighting up your way, your life no matter what."

Nandini and Manik aren't two different persons anymore. Nandini saying "Woh aur main, hum nahin the" My bacchi couldn't be more wrong. They are never "you and me" they are "us", always. Together they are ONE entity. How can you make a choice there? You can't. So even if a similar situation occurs in future, Manik won't really have to choose, because Nandini will always be there. Nandini is what completes MaNan. Nandini and Manik are each others' principal clause. MaNan can take as many extension as they want but they are one unit, one line that gives meaning to each other (yeah I had to show off my linguistic skills here).

I still remember how he told her that he trust her too when she had told him that she knows Cabir's secret.But this time, the point actually hit home. He trust her and she knows.He just gave himself up to her and she took him with happiness and love. He might be her savior, he comes in the right time to save her but she is always there, to stop him from getting into the trouble, always looking out for him.

Hence, when he got hurt and was admitted into the hospital --She felt like she has failed him.She was insecure because she thought that she couldn't protect him from himself, from his own stupidity. But he gave her the confidence back. He banished all her fears with those words.She feared that she was not good for him because she couldn't stop him from hurting himself but his words reassured her.She is his star who is with him always, she is not far away and untouchable.She is here and here to stay.And I could feel Manik's hurt when he said that she left him.Because it is not meant to be like that, she is always supposed to be there with him.His own personal star, just made and sent for him and him only. I loved how her face started shining with pure delight and happiness.

She ran up to him and hugged him like he was hers.He tried to pull away and she shut him up and hugged him again.Because she gets to do that, He belongs to her after all.

Now, in the future they will confess their love for each other, the phrase would be used. But I won't wait for it.It will be beautiful but after this, I am not dying to see any more confessions.

#PsychicBros #Bromates4EvaNEva😎😎

After the episode, I switched off my TV, Mobile and PC and went to sleep thinking about them.

I felt content, i felt 'Not-Scared' for Manik and Nandini after such a long time.The relief and happiness I felt was bliss. When the 'real confession' comes, I will enjoy it and it will be awesomeness but this'Not-Confession' I will always remember because I finally could see that they have each other, they will be together and all right.I don't need to be worried about them anymore.

Yes. After the episode, you totally abandoned me, didn't even think about letting me know you won't be there AT ALL, left me to stray with those not-so-content feels because I couldn't fangirl with you, and went to sleep and left me to deal with the hurt of your betrayal🥺

Now, I would like to see what Manik does about Soha😆 -- When she gets all up in his business and Nandini just gives him these pissed off looks and says sarcastic stuff. Who knows? Just to get back at him, she would even push Soha at him and see how he struggles to get away from Soha.

Soha. Dude. Soha is a problem. Legit. I'm telling you😕

Let's hope Harshad and Soha start liking each other and fall for each other and SohShad happens and and they adopt Navya's child because Navya died in the delivery room (Sorry Navya but this world is a corrupted place and an innocent soul like yours should go to heaven asap😳)

Yes,I blabbered -Ukhaad Lo😆