'You're so evil Manik.'

FleetingWishes. thumbnail
14th Anniversary Thumbnail Sparkler Thumbnail + 5
Posted: 10 years ago
#1

"You're so evil Manik."

you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Today I saw the depth of evil inside Manik. Truly said, he's evil.

Manik has all the means in the world at his feet, prestige, pride, money but at heart? He's destitute at heart.

And today he looked bilious. As if he wanted so badly to succumb to the ground, as if he wanted to break and cry and howl. Today the pieces of the man he wanted to be were strewn across the same floor Nandini's tears had fallen to.

Today his evilness was at its peak.

Because he's evil for being so selfless.

He's evil for tearing asunder his own heart with his bare hands.

He's evil for loving her with no room to breathe.

He's evil because he has no one to look up to.

He's evil for he's guilty of still loving her.

He's evil because he's hungry for her shadows.

He's evil because he has done what he has but he doesn't seem to understand it himself.

Manik Malhotra. You broke her heart. You ruined her dreams. You destroyed her hope. You crushed her soul. This is what you wanted didn't you? This is why you were so ruthless. You wanted her to hate you. So she does. She thinks you're evil.

Where's your triumph? Now do the right thing and distant yourself from her.

Today you should've not looked at her.

Today you should've moved on another step.

Today you should've not cared about her.

Today you shouldn't have given a damn why Dhruv was out there so long with her.

Today you should've not cared if she fell while climbing or not.

Today you shan't have pursued her silhouette.

Today you shan't have desired to touch her.

But this is not what you did.

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go

Today you did none of those things. Today your eyes followed her. Today you watched her cry and felt the pieces of your own heart stabbing at your chest. Today you drank her silhouette, the silhouette of the girl your best friend loves, the girl you shan't even be thinking about, like you were dying and she was water. Today your fingers trembled when you traced her, today your eyes bled when your soul seared her, today you couldn't seem to walk away, today you were desperate and in need of her.

Today you did what you thought was right and sent him after her. This was right wasn't it? Then why did you care Manik? Why couldn't you stop waiting, why did it irritate you? Why were you hesitant in the question if it's the right thing? It is...isn't it?

Then why do you care so much?

Get over her.

Move on.

Nothing is impossible right?

Why did all the air whoosh out of your lungs when you saw her climbing up, why did you feel the wild urge to grab her in your arms and never let go, why did you want so much to hold her? Why did your breathe turn out heavy when she almost slipped? Why did you shout? Why did you hurt when she said all those words you compelled her to say?

It hurt. Didn't it? You are hurting so much.

But you think you will get over it. Don't you? One day. Don't you?

Why were you guilty of spoiling her performance?

Why were you so mindless before it?

You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies

Why were you green with envy when she walked in with Dhruv? Why were you unable to stand them together? Why did you shout at Dhruv? Why Manik?

You'll answer me one day, won't you? You'll say you'll get over it.

You'll get over her.

You've taken the right decision.

You've done what was needed to be done.

You're Manik Malhotra.

You do what's necessary to keep the people you love happy.

Nothing is impossible.

Not even getting over Nandini Moorthy.

Right?


'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

I think I was smiling today. I was smiling because the promise of tomorrow is already there. I was smiling because this boy is not just impulsive, he's foolishly innocent. Think you can do it Manik? Think what you've done is right? Then stop breathing her air, stop drinking her sight, stop loving her the way you do. But you can't can you?

And that's love.

There is love.

And there is love.

And this kind of love? it stains your soul, it taints your destiny, it ruins you for another, it kills your heart again and again but it also revives it back to life.

Every single day, he's going to love her more. Tomorrow he'll love her more than he did today. Tomorrow when her smiles won't be his he'll crave them. Tomorrow when her hugs won't be his, he'll detest it, tomorrow when she'd emerge strong he'll admire, tomorrow when she'll hate him a little more, he'll die a little more, tomorrow when she won't be his, he'll regret.

And regret is beautiful.

It's the red glossy peering gaze of the sun before the golden shimmering rays that fills our world with light.

Regret is heavy and regret hurts. But regret is also humane.

And regret makes you a human.

This is the difference between his love for Aliya and his love for Nandini.

He will never get over her.

He'll simply love her more every day.

Starting from today.


Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her g
o

Today he was purely evil, wasn't he? Come to think of it dictionaries define "Evil" as profoundly immoral and wicked.

And wasn't he?

He's supposed to stay away from his best friend's girl (according to him).

But he simply can't.

He's charged of guilt.

The guilt of loving her.

The guilt of needing her.

The guilt of being jealous.

And most importantly? The guilt of wanting her.

This is truly war Manik.

This war is being waged between your mind and your heart.

And I think it's the road.

It's the road to discovery for you.

Because you will. You will discover that you Manik Malhotra, deprived of emotions and warmth and guidance all his life, has in him, the power to love like a madman.

The countdown begins.

So here it is, my third topic on this forum and third day! I'm a huge fan of angst, LMFAOO. ANYWAY WOW I'M LOVING THIS TRACK. AREN'T YOU?

Rida.

Edited by MaybeSomeday... - 10 years ago

Created

Last reply

Replies

38

Views

5.3k

Users

21

Likes

153

Frequent Posters

Firebolt thumbnail
13th Anniversary Thumbnail Rocker Thumbnail + 6
Posted: 10 years ago
#2
Perfection. I need to re-read it a million times. Ish.
brb

-edit after marveling at perfection-
Because he's evil for being so selfless.
He's evil for tearing asunder his own heart with his bare hands.
He's evil for loving her with no room to breathe.
He's evil because he has no one to look up to.
He's evil for he's guilty of still loving her.
He's evil because he's hungry for her shadows.
He's evil because he has done what he has but he doesn't seem to understand it himself.

LOVED this. He's so utterly evil and undeserving, isn't he? You know, Nandini can always pick herself up. She's strong, she always has been. It's one of her best qualities. But Manik? Man Manik will be torn up and hating himself. He'll convince himself he's doing the right thing but with every push he gives to Dhruv, he breaks. He'll watch them and he'll try the damnest to not feel anything. But his eyes will deceive him. They'll beg her to come back to him. But she'll look away. He's made sure she'll look away.

She'll fall out of love with him each passing day while he'll fall more in love with her. There'll always be moments where she'll fall, like she did today, but he can't catch her. Moments when he wants to lean into her but he can't. Moments when he'll want to hug her but he can't. Moments when he wants to see her smile but he can't.

She'll grow stronger each day while he grows weaker.

It'll be SO painful and amazing to watch. #sadist4eve
Edited by Firebolt - 10 years ago
CutielovesChocs thumbnail
17th Anniversary Thumbnail Dazzler Thumbnail + 2
Posted: 10 years ago
#3
*resss*

I'm loving this track to pieces. It's SO SO SO effin' awesome. And Rida, I can't believe you've used 'Let Her Go' - I LOVE YOU ULTRA for it! 😆

*unressed*

Let me first commend you on the usage of the song. I'm a sucker for great music - and the moments during which it's used. Which is why, let me give you a huge round of virtual jhappis because this song --- UFF this song, you totally nailed it and it fits Manik Malhotra to a tee! I was singing this song on my way to university today, and it did cross my mind on how it would be so appropriate for our flawed hero. And you used it in your post today - I couldn't be happier! *telepathyyy* xD

You're right. Manik's destitute at heart. But he tries to make up for his brokenness by healing everyone - by filling everyone's hearts with so much happiness that they don't need anything else. He has been wanting to break down and cry for quite some time now - the impact being at its peak today. Today was the time when he actually did let her go and thrust her into Dhruv's arms.

'Today the pieces of the man he wanted to be were strewn across the same floor Nandini's tears had fallen to' - By GOD. That just..I can't even.. Yaar ek baat batao - aap lit student ho? It's so wonderfully penned down, that it breaks my heart bit by bit. He wants to. Wants to but can't. And that's this undoing.

He's evil for being selfless. Ahhh. Such a simple sentence. Said in such few words - and yet, conveyed so much! He has always been selfish - but only for the happiness that his loved ones crave. He's always been selfless, but that is hidden behind the mask of arrogance, shielded by the demonic veil of darkness.

I think he does understand what he has lost, but he hasn't come to terms with it. It hurts him to bits when he breaks her heart, and the tears flow non-stop, but he thinks, he REALLY thinks that it's just something that is going to take its toll for a day or two. Oh baba, why you be so naive?

He can't help but simply let his eyes follow her every movement. He can't help but trace his footsteps so that they take him closer to her - even if he has to be content in caressing her outline through the tent curtain.

Today you did none of those things. Today your eyes followed her. Today you watched her cry and felt the pieces of your own heart stabbing at your chest. Today you drank her silhouette, the silhouette of the girl your best friend loves, the girl you shan't even be thinking about, like you were dying and she was water. Today your fingers trembled when you traced her, today your eyes bled when your soul seared her, today you couldn't seem to walk away, today you were desperate and in need of her.

Today you did what you thought was right and sent him after her. This was right wasn't it? Then why did you care Manik? Why couldn't you stop waiting, why did it irritate you? Why were you hesitant in the question if it's the right thing? It is...isn't it?

Then why do you care so much?


What powerful lines. What an impact they've created - it's so beautifully penned down that I have NO words. They portray Manik's desperation, his hurt, his helpless cry for love so wonderfully. I am literally rendered speechless - and mind you, that doesn't happen often! 😆


I was smiling too - the way he all but pushed Dhruv to take care of Nandini, and then the his eyes followed his best friend. The way he was green with envy at Nandini leaning on someone else's shoulder. He has literally gifted her love and given it to his best friend and he was the one with the wrapping paper - okay, crappy analogy, but at the moment it was the best I could do. Waise bhi, you've written such wonderful lines that I can't even find any more words to jot down. 😆


He has only known her for 3 months or so and his heart bleeds - his eyes not being able to hide his tortured soul, and his face blancing more often than not. And that is what makes this man human. It makes him not only impulsive, but naive, as you've so wonderfully described. He is going to love her more than ever. He's going to be her silent guardian, her Dark Knight.


Every single day, he's going to love her more. Tomorrow he'll love her more than he did today. Tomorrow when her smiles won't be his he'll crave them. Tomorrow when her hugs won't be his, he'll detest it, tomorrow when she'd emerge strong he'll admire, tomorrow when she'll hate him a little more, he'll die a little more, tomorrow when she won't be his, he'll regret.

And regret is beautiful.

It's the red glossy peering gaze of the sun before the golden shimmering rays that fills our world with light.


Nahiin, matlab karna kya chahte ho aap? This made my heart break, and brought a smile to my face at the same time - HOW on EARTH do you do it?! This is..uff, too incredible for my words.

'He'll never get over her. He'll simply love her more, starting from today' - HAYYE MAIN MARR JAAWAAAN! Definitely. He's simply going to crave for her to be with him, have him in her prayers, trust him and shine for him - but he knows she wouldn't. And it will be that mere thought that will destroy his soul, bit by bit. It's the kind of love that will bring him to his knees.

And the end - oh GOD that

This is truly war Manik.

This war is being waged between your mind and your heart.

And I think it's the road.

It's the road to discovery for you.

Because you will. You will discover that you Manik Malhotra, deprived of emotions and warmth and guidance all his life, has in him, the power to love like a madman.

The countdown begins.

Oh my word. This is..too fabulous. Kahan the aap itne time se?! Yaar, aise posts ke aage, mere posts paani kum chai lagte hain.😆 PLEASE PLEASE keep them coming. It's a pleasure to read such wonderful words that one loves to get lost in.


Keep on shining!

-Raina

Edited by CutielovesChocs - 10 years ago
Jiyagulabi_26 thumbnail
12th Anniversary Thumbnail Stunner Thumbnail + 2
Posted: 10 years ago
#4
Superb!!!!!!
My eyes are wet 😭 after reading it.
Edited by addictedlove - 10 years ago
-FreeSpirit- thumbnail
11th Anniversary Thumbnail Visit Streak 90 Thumbnail + 2
Posted: 10 years ago
#5
Wow ur post is just I don't even know what to say 👏
I feel like reading it again & again, Manik truly is evil then he has committed many evil acts and will rectify them one by again when he realizes how much he needs love ❤️
.FunLuvingGirl. thumbnail
16th Anniversary Thumbnail Dazzler Thumbnail + 3
Posted: 10 years ago
#6
**res**

Excellent post. I toh loved it and you know it. 😆
Read it. Have an exam tom. Need to study 😆
Will come back soon.

ForeverForU thumbnail
14th Anniversary Thumbnail Rocker Thumbnail + 3
Posted: 10 years ago
#7

Originally posted by: MaybeSomeday...


Today his evilness was at its peak.

Because he's evil for being so selfless.

He's evil for tearing asunder his own heart with his bare hands.

He's evil for loving her with no room to breathe.

He's evil because he has no one to look up to.

He's evil for he's guilty of still loving her.

He's evil because he's hungry for her shadows.

Today you should've not looked at her.

Today you should've moved on another step.

Today you should've not cared about her.

Today you shouldn't have given a damn why Dhruv was out there so long with her.

Today you should've not cared if she fell while climbing or not.

Today you shan't have pursued her silhouette.

Today you shan't have desired to touch her.

But this is not what you did.




😭😭😭😭😭
This was poetic💔
my poor Baba...he has hurt her but more than her he has hurt himself
beautifully written!!

-KissMyAss- thumbnail
11th Anniversary Thumbnail Voyager Thumbnail + 2
Posted: 10 years ago
#8
Wow Rida you're on a roll !! 3 amazing topics already 👏
keep them coming girl I'm LOVING them ! 😉
That curtain scene is one of the most beautiful scene I've ever seen in any show ! How original and brilliantly executed ! Hats off to Parth and Niti man, these two are killing it ! 👏 My poor babies were in so much pain, I cried with them 😭

I'M ABSOLUTELY LOVING THIS TRACK !! I'm a big sadistic biatch 🤣 the angst is my thing so no doubt I'm enjoying every bit of it 😃
Edited by Manhoos_JSG - 10 years ago
lucky.m thumbnail
14th Anniversary Thumbnail Rocker Thumbnail + 2
Posted: 10 years ago
#9
I have joined IF in 2011 and all I can say is this is one of the best posts I have ever read .⭐️.it just strucks a right chord in your heart..Brilliant and beautifully writen👏👏.
apardh_ba thumbnail
10th Anniversary Thumbnail Dazzler Thumbnail + 2
Posted: 10 years ago
#10
Rida hats off to u. You actually makes me feel bad for manik. I hv nt feel this bad when I hv seen it. I ws enjoying it bt after reading ur post u actually makes me feel bad for manik bt still this is his punishment.
Just w8ng for manan reunion.

Related Topics

Top

Stay Connected with IndiaForums!

Be the first to know about the latest news, updates, and exclusive content.

Add to Home Screen!

Install this web app on your iPhone for the best experience. It's easy, just tap and then "Add to Home Screen".