Hearts silence so audible, yet unheard-WHY?
Ok guys, after this week's episodes...there are so many emotional feelings aroused in our main characters, yet subdued…why, why, why???
It's easy to throw accusations, a lot harder to recognize the depths of misinterpretation of things. Don't forget that understanding is tough; coz misunderstandings make everything so persuasive and tempting…that people fall prey to it. Swinging in the air is fine, but don't forget that the higher you fly… the greater chance of hurt is welcomed when you fall hard on the ground.
There is a correlation between Zaib's behavior and Angad's attitude. What happened was Angad felt abandoned and disowned by people who he deeply cared for…which resulted in hostility towards them. He was influenced by seeing others reactions to something that he never committed…therefore socially he became the target, even though it was unintentional. Overtime his hostility grew; his attitude was affected in the realms of negative feelings. His mind started to think of how to get back at people for what they did to him and soon aggressiveness came upon. Aggression can be very damaging, not only for the one whom it is attempted at, but also who attempts for the aggressive act. Here is a great change in character for he went from loving, caring soul to a hurtful, deserted, and unforgiving person. The concern flipped into neglect and anger, which resulted in emergence of Zaib. So technically, it was both internal as well as external influence that changed him. Since Angad's perception was distorted…his attitude towards everyone altered as well. Now, he holds different priorities especially when it comes to his love/rage towards Kripa. This is how a psychologist might try to highlight Zaib's difference in behavior towards his love.
Lies…lies…lies…lies all the way!!! Truth is loud and clear, but the superficial layer of deceit is covering the essence of their survival. Truth is screaming and yelling on top of the roof, but everyone has closed their ears for they think the noise is bothersome. Following lies…
- Kripa so called hating Angad
- Zaib pretending to love Mishty
- Zaib with the idea of completely destroying Kripa's happiness and reaching internal satisfaction
- Prithvi wondering about Angad's interference in his life throughout, where as he was the one who did that
- Kripa reminding herself to be Mrs. Bose, when she doesn't feel anything for Prithvi and simply for namesake being his "wife"
- Angad saying his need to use Mishty is necessary to reach his goal, when he claims well for her
- Damini Bose asking her daughter to be truthful in relationships, when she herself took the support of sham and dishonesty earlier
- Prithvi giving advises to Mishty about love in relationships and how one needs to be honest in matrimonial bonds—dude how can you say that, when you yourself can't follow your guidelines for happy married life!
- Angad very well knowing the pain of betrayal, yet voluntarily enacts to hurt Mishty…wow Angad do you understand anguish of separation or what? After being crushed utterly saying you truly loved someone who left you…you plan to bestow the same kindness of treachery and unfaithfulness to the person who sincerely loves you, however in this case being intentional. You might have been a victim, but does that justify your actions for making another heart bleed until living seems like a burden?
Simply sad, coz A-K spend plenty time in solitude, yet can't hear the silence speak. Tears trickle down, but don't comprehend the depths of each teardrop piercing the wretchedness and desolation more than ever. A river might flow, the sea might wonder its direction, the ocean might arise from the dreadful confrontations…but does that one tear not hold enough innocence and virtue to bridge the distances? They want to hug each other passionately, but when near simply blame one another by pinpointing at the past. Don't get me wrong…by no means am I underestimating their undesired painful and unrealized conditions of separation, but till how long will they play the blame game?
Not everything we face can be changed…but you know what guys…nothing can be changed if we are not willing to face. So now I ask…forget them altering…are they even facing themselves to begin with? We have wonders within us, which we seek outside of ourselves. How can one change another's perception, when that person is not even aware of oneself? Which leads to the idea that how will they ever modify opinions about one another, when they are not even willing to help themselves first. Bitter experiences have splashed black blots on their canvas that their image has been out of focus now. Rather than brushing few bright strokes, they stand their starring and cursing at the idea of even trying to paint. Well…how can you see the upcoming storm of miserable life ahead, when couple of misty clouds of resentment has clearly changed your vision? Leaning backwards is not terrible, unless we bend in ways that break our bones and eventually cause us to fall flat on the floor.
Kripa's…suspicion was finally confirmed…but what happened along the way? Kripa saying he is none other than Angad, the man she is ashamed of once loving for only he would stoop to such a despicable deed. I wish you were hearing to what you were literally saying woman…ashamed? and yet rivers coming out of those eyes, which can't hide the truth for long. That love, passion, zest of his presence…is all that you sincerely wish, yet can't accept! The second she said that she loved him…notice those weeping eyes unable to stop the heart-ache as the words are forming, but not said the way they are actually meant. Loving…is that what you regret? Are you ashamed that you feel the love…or shameful that you might be wrong somewhere to your love…this is why I emphasize how important it is to look inside to see what is really worth seeing.
Kripa…Kripa…Kripa…you amaze me dear! How easy to say you don't love him, then why tears each time whether in his presence or absence? Is silence lying to you or you unable to locate truth in emptiness of your heart? Agreed you felt deceived by Angad when you heard he slept with someone else, but when he repeatedly insists on his innocence…can't you try to place trust for few moments to find out the real reality. Its really praiseworthy how you are sincerely making an effort to stop Mishty from being a prey to Angad's cruel plans…but don't lie so much that your imagined truth takes over the unimagined condition of your despaired heart. You said Angad was your "parshayi"…sweetie can you tell me how you can move around without your shadow? What more do I say, for those drenched eyes might even stop to over flood…but can you stop the bleeding of your heart?
Angad…Angad…Angad…you have so many identities, yet identifying your real happiness seems to be going above those revengeful convictions. Someone wise once said, "What lies before us and beyond us are small matters compared to what lie within us"—I wish you could comprehend that in any shape or form. You finally let the truth out about you being Angad…but unfortunately instead of hearts bridging—you created further distance. You started very well by letting out your emotions by saying "I love you Kripa" and continuing about how you were innocent and all you asked was trust from your love. Those actual feelings were permeating beautifully and she was feeling your anguish and pain…but, but, but…you ended in further heartbreak! If you just allowed a moment of calmness after your deep, powerful assertion of her leaving you in times of crisis…you could have given an opportunity to consent her to grasp that she might have been wrong. Instead…after you releasing your anger, pain, frustration…what do you do next…threaten to ruin her marriage. Immediate error by fuming air into the fire of "hatred."
Angad—how much can you lie to yourself and for how long? You even know how much Kripa loves you…the ocean can see the waves, but can the waves see the ocean? The heart can see your pain and anguish, but can you observe your heart's condition? You tell kripa that all she can do is cry, but what about you? You might not tear, but your heart weeps more than you can even imagine. Savage frenzy of separation is ripping you apart for the fear runs deep in your veins…clouds of horror chase in your dreams…aura of discomfort seeks within…and yet you continue stabbing lives of so many people, including yours. Think dear…think!
"How can I forget you when your always on my mind? How can I not want you when your all I want inside? How can I let you go when I can't see us apart? How can I not love you when you control my heart?"—something that absolutely fits for A-K!
So guys, what do you all think? Thoughts were simply running and it turned out so long. I would love to read your opinions on it. Take care!
-Love4ever!
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