Chaahat: A RoNakshi Story- Chapter seven updated 23/03 - Page 13

Update soon na darling!!!!

I knw am being demanding but....i am like dat so just deal with it!

Sorry to trouble you.. pls update if possible..

The show is becoming unbearable... only ronakshi in ff and fiction remains bearable now...

Originally posted by: vaidehi1306

Disclaimer - *Long post ahead alert* 🙈🙈🙈

Hey Vasu 🤗🤗❤️

First things first, I'm so so sorry for not commenting on the earlier chapter and now you've updated even 🤦🏻‍♀️😐

Chapter 3 -

Loved to see how Ajit and Pooji were constantly by Rohit's side since they got to know about his accident, I don't know if we'll get to see the same precious bonding in the show, so I'm glad you've put it here ❤️

Some say, promises are meant to be broken but promises made in love are meant to be kept for eternity..sounds cliched, but yeah..loved it ❤️❤️❤️

The moment he figured out that it's none other than his Sona, his feelings..you described it so beautifully.. I was feeling the adrenaline rush while reading it 😍😍

I legit knew it.. Chahat is Ronakshi's child, their blood and flesh..the living symbol of their love...❤️❤️❤️❤️...it seemed like the world stopped when their eyes met.. I could see all in front of my eyes! Rohit's feeling of hatred is justified, he has suffered all these 5 years, not just because she left him with no proper explanations but also hidden about their child that had an existence in this world! I actually felt sorry for both here as Sona won't be able to tell him anything, she'll definitely hide her reasons and Rohit won't be able to figure it out!

Moving on to next chapter,

Chapter 4 -

I cried and cried and cried while reading the whole chapter, specially the last part😭😭💔💔

You nailed in creating a satanic Rohit 👏🏻👌🏻..yes I did felt extremely bad for the way he treated Sona but still couldn't hate him because right now he's broken and betrayed to the core by the person he had loved the most 💔💔.. Sona's plight is understood but yeah, I wish she would've talked to Rohit for once! By accepting Naren's orders she thought she'd saved the family from breaking but what happened at the end..the truth came out and it wrecked the foundation of the family breaking it apart and nothing had remained the same! I wish she'd got to know about this! Yeah, Rohit is angry and heartbroken..yet he gave her a chance to speak and tell about her reasons, that was commendable! I won't blame him for taking Chahat away from Sona as he thinks in this way he'll take revenge for what she'd done, the day he'll get a slight inkling of what blunder he'd committed, he'll repent with guilt!

My heart went out for Sona when she prepared Chahat to go with her dad..she literally gave her life as a payback for all the sufferings she had given him in these 5 years..😭😭😭

Sona tried to attempt suicide.. the girl who was so strong and lively, who believed in second chances, who lived life to the fullest and inspired others to do the same had gone to such an extent of trying to commit suicide 😲😲..if Rohit would've came to know this he would've ripped Naren apart! I'm sorry to sound like a sadist, but I'm glad Karma hit Naren!

I cried loads while reading the last scene of Sona.. her struggle to get water, her imagining him at her place (I'm feeling he is there for real and it's not just her imagination; I fail to believe that Rohit hadn't gave any thought to what Pooji told them what happened 5 years ago), her confession everything was penned out so beautifully 💔💔👏🏻😭😭

Please let it be Rohit present there when she confessed why she left him..please not let it be just her imaginations 🤞🏻💔

Waiting for next chapter, do update soon 😘🤗❤️

Hi vaidehi🤗

Long delayed reply, i am sorry about that.

I am glad that you loved both the chapters and i am really lucky that i have a support system like you guys who love my work and me.

At chapter three yes i wanted to show the sibling love and glad you love it equally. And if you felt the adrenaline rush, then i am really glad you did because i wanted exactly that to happen. I consider my attempt is successful.

At chapter four i really wanted to create and end the satanic rohit but now looks like satanity will continue further. Don’t hate me for that. ☺️ rohit went through alot and yes sonakshi shoul really have talked to him once but the point is she is trying to protect him and ends up loosing the same person.

i will slowly provide you the answers for the rest of your doubts with the upcoming chapters. There will be few more. The takla has done the sin and repaid it well deserving in my story, but gone he is and people still suffer because of him.😡

Chapter five in making. It might be a long one and most importantly now that rohit is out of the picture, you all will know about sona and her feelings which were left unattended by me purposely in the initial chapters. The story started with rohit’s side of the story but let’s see where it reaches and where it eventually ends at.

Love you lots. I am paying my total gratitude for loving and appreciating me and pushing me for further.

Tc and hugs.

And i absolutely loved reading the long post!!!! Ahaa them feels as i read it, so happy.

Originally posted by: Sayantikachak19

update me too ...di

Hi there🤗 thank you for the love. I am sorry for the delayed reply dearie. I will pm you on this forum once my update is ready. Thank you for all the love!!!!

Originally posted by: AnushkhaA

Update soon na darling!!!!

I knw am being demanding but....i am like dat so just deal with it!

Anuuuuu🤗 i am so sorry that i delayed this long. Please forgive me for that. i am trying to bring it up soon. I apologize again dearie. And i love that you are demanding hehehehehe.

Originally posted by: freakybat

Sorry to trouble you.. pls update if possible..

The show is becoming unbearable... only ronakshi in ff and fiction remains bearable now...

Hi lav🤗 i am sorry that i am so late.I am trying to bring that soon as possible. Please hold on my darling, i will come back soon.

Trigger warning: all mental health related issues have been mentioned for fictional purposes. No promotion of them are intended. People go through things we have no idea about, let’s be kind to everyone.

Chapter five: Tukhra Ke Mere pyaar-mere intekhaam dekhegi

As the empty space occupied his eyes, rohit took a deep sigh. he had left her. brutally treated her.took chaahat off of her. Did everything to make her feel the same pain that he went through because of her. Then came a revelation about her suicide attempt five years back. He flinched as he remembered the way pooji told him that.

Was she acting? Was she actually doing it? She wanted to die? What if she succeeded that night? She actually could have died. What if she did? He would have never known that such a thing happened to her. Then What would have happened to him? He tried not to picture that moment but unfortunately ended up picturing the very same. Her cut wrist,bleeding hand,her clothes wet in red and her breathing stopping. He felt nauseous. He was a surgeon,never had he ever had a problem with cuts and bloods and breathing ceasings but he couldn’t stand sonakshi going through all that,not even the picture of it.

The next moment,he remembered last night which he spent near her. The final night of his whole life which he would be seeing her,in the way he decided. There he showed sonakshi her wrist which was empty of the friendship band he gave her. There he clearly saw a horizontal healed scar which he then missed to pay attention to. But when pooji told him about what sonakshi had gone through,this scar quickly flashed infront of his eyes,letting him match it with what he got to know. Why couldn’t he think of it that night? Well how would he,he was head over heels in crazy anger with her.

Could she really get her hand to cut herself? Could she really think that it was her life that she was ending? Another minute delay would have ended everything. and that was the moment she has got to know about chaahat too. What if chaahat didn’t happen? Would she have tried to finish her life again? He curled his eyebrows as his head started paining. Loosing him was her reason to die it seems.Having chaahat was her reason to live. And yesterday night,he took chaahat off of her hence literally taking her reason to live. So what will she do. Without her reason to live. Would she do the same? What if she doesn’t think it’s not her life alone. What if she forgot that she has a daughter she gave birth to. What if she forgot that there is still a family that awaits to meet her. What if she forgot that there was a rohit who cannot make up his bloody mind to let go of her in his anger and in his love.

Love. The f**k. He cursed in mind. He couldn’t stop doing that to her.

He changed his position and resting his head comfortably he shut his eyes trying to get over the feelings that was surging up and down his being trying to destroy him.

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The flight was about to land in Mumbai and while one sippy was sound offed and eyes shut, pooja and ajit were still in the arguement that started from the airport in goa.

“Ab toh katam kar yaar pooji. Kitna aur sunayengi tu yeh sab.”

“Simple si question pooch rahi hoon mein.”

“kya?!”

“Kya matlab kya. Hotel par mein bhaiyya ke saat itne boohri baat karke rahi. Sonakshi bhabhi ke suicide leke bhi bohot kuch kaha,tab mujhe rukhwana chahiye naa tujhe? Ek baar bata do dete....”

“Kese kahoon yaar pooji? Bhai neh mujhe rokha.bola ki kissiko mat batanekeliye. Aur weise bhi tumari saat mein bhi uss wakt bhai ko bola tha naa,bhabhi ko wahaan chod ke nahi jaane keliye.”

“Don’t be dumb.kissiko didn’t mean me.airport aate wakt obviously I was going to know.mein confuse hogayi jab bhaiyya isko hume dekar waapas jaate wakt.” Said pooji to chaahat,the other sippy that was sleeping in her lap.

“Haan toh mein bhi confused tha yaar.tujhe toh pata hein ki bhai kitne unpredictable ho sakte hein.”

“Wahi toh hein lekin jab kissine hum sab ke ticket book karwaake apne ticket book nahi karne ka ek hi matlab hota hein.ki wo waha rukhne waale hein akhele.tume iss ticket ke chakkar ke baaremein mujhe bataanadena chahiye ta.isska matlab hein ki bhai bhabhi ke suicide attempt ke baaremein janne se pehele hi wahaan rukhneke decision mein the.right? Aur ab pata nahi kya karenge wo,given the wonderful history he has had.”

“pooji,jo bhi hein.mujhe lagta hein ki wo waapas gaye hein bhabhi ke paas.”

“aur jagda karne keliye? Wow.i don’t think so.gaye bhi I don’t think bhabhi will tell him anything.and we called sharanya before take off,bhaiyya wasn’t there.”

Ajit shrugged his shoulders in annyoance.

“teek hein,agar bhabhi ke paas nahi hein toh bhai honge kahaan?”

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In a half conscious state,sonakshi tried to get up from where she was. She couldn’t imagine where she was,or what she was doing. A dried up throat troubled her and she badly wanted water. But her head felt heavy and it was making her whole surrounding spin. She felt breathless. Her fever was yet on,the chills that shook the entire being told her.

Chaahat? Where is she.who would look after her. Would she have eaten. What time is it now. But she couldn’t raise her head beyond her shoulder.

Am I dying? Like the last time I tried it. She wondered.

Rohit. She wouldn’t see him before dying.What was he wearing last.how did he look the last time she saw him. What was the moment she saw him last. they made crazy love to each other one night for the first time.she remembered taking off that red shirt off him.Was it yesterday? No. It’s been longer than that. He was not near her that way in recent past. Rohit.

Her eyes filled with the pain she held for him. Her heart filled with the pain she has given him.

I want to see him.I want to see rohit.i want to see my rohit.Last time when I woke up from a slumber,his face was what I saw for the first time. That was how we first met. He said he secretly had fallen for me at that very instance.I want to see that khadoos doctor surgeon. Here I wake up from a slumber,yeah may be for the last time.I want to see him nevertheless.

Her eyes were giving in,shutting down but she force opened them.

“Rohit.”

She took his name,which escaped like an inaudible whisper. Then she tried to move her body,but she felt like she was being weighed down to where she was. Her body felt heavy,especially at her abdomen. It was like someone held her down,so that she is clutched in between unable to move.

She raised her head and looked down at her own body. As her heavy eye lids threatened to shut off, What she wanted to see one last time.she saw him. That was her rohit.

Lying down next to her,resting his head on her abdomen,and holding into her by his long arms tightly around her waist,it was her rohit who was deep asleep. His one leg was over her body so that she wouldn’t be able to a move an inch. This was his weight that was weighing him down? Rohit. Did you come back?

She smiled alone at herself. It is said that you will see the most loved thing of your life at the moment you are dying,may be it’s the same. Her vivid sick imaginations brings her rohit back to him, in a delusion. He is never going to come back.

Still She stretched one hand needing to caress his hair,one of her favourites that belonged to him but she was too weak and so was her mind. As she realized it was all an illusion,her eyes shut down and her hand fell into a side and her consciousness left her again.

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Sun rays shone on her eyes,making her open eyes.Sonakshi raised her head,trying to register what had happened. The last memory she had was sharanya leaving and that was an early morning,Then she tried to wake up and get some water and there, nothing else really came to her mind. Didn’t she fall down? She did she really did.Her head pained at the right and her vague memories were compatible with that. Then when did she come to the bed. Or how. Leave that,She didn’t even know what date it was. Stretching to the bedside table she took her phone.that was all yesterday? Now it was the next morning and for almost a one whole day she has been sleeping.thankfully,Her fever seemed to have gone down.

Taking a deep sigh,she remembered chaahat,her baby daughter. She would have reached mumbai,to the house she well deserved right from now on,to be with the one she deserved to be. Her heart ached remembering how chaahat searches for sonakshi every morning when she wakes up. Would she do that there at sippy mansion too? A lone tear escaped her eyes. It will take sometime,but with rohit there near her,she will get used to him.she wiped a tear.

Getting up and leaning against the headboard,sonakshi remembered what he said last. The last few lines before the separation,forever.

Pyaar yaa nafrat,dono cheez har ek insaanko apno se hoti hein.pata hein tume right? Toh aaj se samajlo ki mere man mein tumari liye naa pyaar hogi naa nafrat. Kyun ki aaj se tum,Ms.sonakshi rastogi...aaj se tum mere liye koi bhi nahi hoon.Not even a stranger.you will not be anyone for me.

Aaj se,tumhari paas koi nahi hoga,nahi mein,well mein toh tume chahiye kab ta?! Toh naa mein rahunga tumare paas,naa mere nishaani.yaniki meri chaahat.

ab mujhe bhi isse yaa isske ye nakhli aasuon se koi farak nahi padta.sab kuch katam hein aur ab mein apni beti ko yahaan se lekar isse dhoor jaana chate hoon bas.aur kuch Nahi hein.tumari so called bhabhi aur mere beechmein ab kuch nahi hein jo tum log bacha sake.honestly,I think there was nothing at all ever.

He hates me. Rohit hates me. He does. And he will do that forever now.She couldn’t bear the sobs that escaped her lips and she started to cry out loud.

All what she could remember was the first time he confessed his love to her,cupping her cheeks and leaning against her with that breath halting smile he used to possess, and then the moment they became one in all sense in a night five years before and then day before yesterday where he stared at her with those angry red eyes,hatred filled in them and disgust evident in his face.

She had never loved anyone like that. She never had. The only person she loved than chaahat was him,her rohit.Yes she loved him more than chaahat. He was the only person who loved her without bounds without expectations. He blindly believed her,depended his life on her and what not.There was no one like her rohit. When everything and everyone went against her there was one soul who loved and stood by her and that was rohit. And it was just when they were in love,since when they knew each other since they were best friends of each other he was the same.There was no limit to the extent he was willing to go for her.rohit might have no idea but she loved all the nights that she felt him next to her, and all the mornings she woke up next to him,his masculine scent being the first thing she feels every day.he was the fire that could burn her with desire and also the ice that could heal her soul. He carried that vibe the sense of security and made her feel protected. In a world that she lived and did everything for others,there was that one man who did everything in his hand for her and that was Rohit sippy. Yes she loved him than any other thing in this world and she still does despite the justified hate he carries for her in his heart now. Yes she will never love anything ever again that way.

That is why she had kept herself away from him,kept chaahat away from him,fearing the otherwise heartbreak he will go through when he would see his broken hearted mother.well that was what naren sippy threatened her regarding,five years back.

And her memory ran in flashback.

She was so happy that morning.Seeing her rohit cuddled to her body,and sleeping like a little baby with his head resting on her abdomen,his hands tightly holding her bare waist and locking her to him underneath the duvet by his one leg over her slender frame, she blushed too hard.The night before was beyond the prettiest imagination she have had about it til it happened.Rohit was all over her,not leaving her for a second and he took her to peaks of passionate pleasure that she have had no idea about.They had made crazy love to each other and he made her his in every breath that counted. She blushed more remembering how he took her not once but quite a few times, but handling her softly and literally worshipping the untrodden self of her.

I love you sona,I just love you so much that....bas I love you.

It was what he kept on repeating last whole night when they went beyond the love they made.she took a corner of the duvet that hung loose and covered her bosom, seeing all those marks her mischievous rohit has made on her.She had to go get ready for her shoot, but she didn’t feel like leaving him. Slowly, she twirled down the bed still locked in his arms and reached his face and sensing her move he mumbled like a someone who just got their comfy sleep interrupted.

Kahaan jaa rahi hein sona....I want your tummy I slept on.

Arey morning kiss dene keliye aati thi mein ne.ok I will go.

He holds her hand to stop as his eyes open and they smile into them like that.

Brush karke bina hi kiss karengi tum mujhe. I thought you are very healthy conscious.

Kese conscious rahoon mein doctor surgeon.kal raat se hi mein behosh hoon aapke pyaar mein.

It’s ok,tum behosh mein bhi madhosh lag rahi hein my drama queen.

He cupped her cheeks as their lips meet and all damned feelings that he put to rest last night got awaken inside her by he himself.his hands travelled down and his lips followed and he chuckled as he sees those marks on her skin.

Kissne kiya eise sharaaratein.

Hein koi pagal heart surgeon,ussne ki.

Looks like he has lots of fire in him.

Wo to hein.mujhe jalaadi kal raat.

Sach?

Hmmm.

Aaj bhi dikhadu,in fact abhi.

Rohit no no. Mujhe shoot pe jaana hein leave.

no. no. no. no. no.

Yes.please.aaj raat aakehi kar dungi. Anything you need.Okay?

You want me now.admit it.

Who says.

The heat radiates baby,from here.

Said him,as his fingers caressed her sweet spot without warning.

Aaah rohit.

That’s right.

He whispered as his fingers created havoc inside her and his head dropped to her shoulder as she moaned in his arms unable to bear that sweet damn torture.

Promise me for every morning to be like this.

He whispered.

Rohit don’t stop.please.

She begged as her nails dig into his back.

Promise me.

What?

Promise me crazy sex every morning.come on.

Rohit.

Promise me first.

I promise.rohit.i promise.please now.

Done.

He pleasured her as his fingers helped her reach the peaks she wanted to and their lips meet again,wanting time to be halted then and there.

She climaxed on his fingers and he hugged her tight. She rested her head on his shoulder trying to calm her erratic heart from beating. She spoke up then sending her fingers among his perfect ruffled hair.

What was that rohit.

The fire I told you about.

They laugh out loud in their arms and he kisses her forehead.

Sach mein jaana hein aaj shoot pe? Morning ki main kaam baaki hein. We just had a phase.

She rolls on him and he feels her above him,right where he wanted.

Karke jaau phir?

He smiled at her bold but beautiful eyes.

No.you said nah. Anything I need. Aaj raat.so srif aaj keliye I will wait for tonight. Par kal se har subha,remember that you promised.

She smiled and placed her lips on his forehead.

I love you doctor surgeon.

I love you more sona.

Chalu?

Promise me that you will come back soon.please sona.jaldi aajana.

Waada karti hoon,mein waapas aaungi. Wo bhi bohot jald.

Her eyes shot open.That one promise that she couldn’t keep. The broken promise that destroyed everything. Now there is nothing remaining of it.no the promises no the hearts who took and gave the promise.

At the set she was ready to run back home after the shoot was over.as she heard that paapa came to meet her she was pleasantly surprised. They were never in good books but his arrival made her so happy. No matter how naren treated her,she always tried to see her father who left them all midway through him. But she was wrong. He was yet furious at her job,though she was just serving her notice period. The rain dance sequence and the fight at nishi bua and YK’s anniversary party was still in his mind. He blamed her for all what has happened. there he told her to leave rohit at that very instance. So that their family reputation will be saved from a low class actress like her. Sonakshi wasn’t hurt for being called as one,but she was hurt at the way paapa was trying to hurt his own son’s feelings by sending her away.

I promised rohit,ki chaahe jo kuch bhi hojaaye,mein usse chod kar kahi nahi jaungi.

Tume jaana hoga.

Paapa aap mujhe dhamki de rahe ho? Par kyun? Mein rohit ki bina jee nahi sakti paapa. Rohit bhi eisa hi hein.mujhse bhagair jee nahi payenga wo.

Usse toh apne mom ke bagair bhi jee nahi sakta right.

What? She asked in a shock.

Yeah,either you leave rohit forever. Or you choose rohit,and I will go and tell veena that pooja is my own child. Usske baad kya hoga,tume toh pata hi hein right.

Paapa please eisa mat karo.mummaa toot jaayengi. Aur rohit....

Haan toh bachaao rohit ko. Chali jaao aur dubara kabhi waapas mat aana. Aur mein aane bhi nahi dunga tume. Samjlo ki tum marchuki hoon poori duniya keliye.

Paapa please.

Ek recording bhejo usse,I will tell you what to say. And yes,tum logo ki kamre pade hue tumari saari zamaan mein yahaan laa chuke hoon.aur yeh hein cheque,mein sign karchuke hoon,jitna likhna hein likhlo aur wo sab leke yahaan she dafa ho jao.

Sonakshi took the cheque and tore it into pieces.

Rohit mere liye kya hein wo aap soch bhi nahi sakte hein paapa. wo mere liye kitna keemti hein wo aap nahi jaante. Even if you give all what you have for me in this cheque,tab bhi wo sab rohit ke aage kuch bhi nahi hein.eise apne bete ko mat bhejiye.he is priceless.you have no idea.

Naren stared at her in anger.

Chalti hoon mein paapa. Waapas nahi aungi mein.par please aap, mumma ko kuch mat kahiye.

She said broken beyond repair.

Separate gaadi ke intezaam kiya hein mein ne,kissiko kuch mat batao, chup chaap saare zamaan leke yahaan we chali jao.

And that was the last moment she was in mumbai. She did all what she was asked to and left.She had nowhere to go, and no idea what to do. And on the way as the vehicle moved, rohit’s call happened and her acted out brutal words broke them both apart.

By the time she reached goa,she had no idea what or how things happened this fast in her life.It was a dark midnight at goa,and she sat on the beach not knowing what to do.

That is when sharanya came,her friend her supporter her family now in disguise and she took sonakshi along with her to the apartment she lived. She didn’t say a thing to sharanya but only said that she had left everything and come and that no one should no that she is alive and here. And sharanya kept the word as it is. Few days later she heard the news that sonakshi rastogi the actress was dead and her burned vehicle was found with her charred body. And she could realise it was all a well schemed plan by naren sippy. But she had been left with nothing to do. For the world,then she was dead.

Four weeks later and unknown to sharanya,sonakshi was in a pit of depression. and she was feeling suicidal. Remembering everything now and then only about rohit, sonakshi had lost everything in her life. And she was anyway dead to the world, then

What is the point of living anyway? Death seemed the only option.the next thing she knew was she was falling down as blood oozed out of a cut at her hand.sharanya fortunately arrived home at that very instance and she rushed her to a known doctor of her.

Death betrayed her and she was hopeless.sharanya’s angry complaints about the drastic step she took didn’t bother her. She just waited staring at the white wall of the hospital room she was kept and she looked like a dead body alive. And that is when the doctor arrived hwith the news that made the three sixty degree turn of tables. She was pregnant. With her rohit’s baby. With all what rohit wanted.There,the biggest chaahat rohit have had come true. The chaahat of them has turned to a tiny beating heart inside her womb,since that night of love.

Wahaan se shuru hue the zingda rehene ki chaahat.

Chaahat became everything since then. And as she kicked against her stomach from inside, as she came to the world,as she smiled for the first time,as she took the first step in life and as she took the first word from her tiny mouth, sonakshi lived hundred lives and died hundred deaths at the same time feeling that happiness but also feeling that this was not something she alone deserved,it was something rohit himself too deserved even more.

Since the day sonakshi heard chaahat making little sounds signalling that she will start speaking soon, she taught her how to say “paapa” instead of anything else.

Because rohit deserved it. He was the one who needed and deserved her way better. And the day chaahat actually said it, sonakshi didn’t know how happy she was.

She wiped a tear remembering that day.

Then she started taqdeers,the wedding boutique so that she can let chaahat have as comfortable life as she can give her. She stayed undercover letting sharanya handle everything because it will be difficulty for a celebrity to be among the society, specially when she was declared dead and also threatened by force to never be seen by naren sippy.Her world revolved around chaahat and her heart kept beating because of rohit.that was how sonakshi lived her life for the past half a decade.

And now with both her reasons to live are gone,she had now lost all the hopes.The lonliness ,emptyness and hollowness evaded her.she feared if she might really die of pain before anything else.

Gulping down the memories bitter more than the sweet few ones, she put down a deep sigh.Chaahat is there where she rightfully owned to be, though she feared naren will harm her. But with rohit next to chaahat and her not being a part of their lives anymore sonakshi trusted the fact that chaahat will be safe.She remembered the way rohit took his baby’s name and hugged her tiny form to his chest. A smile drew on her lips among the tears.

Lo rohit,hein tumare paas tumare chaahat. bas jahaan bhi hein kush raho tum.

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After a while,sonakshi turned to take her glass at the bed side table to find that is not there.suddenly she remembered that sound of glass cracking but that memory was unclear. She looked down at the floor not finding any glass shards though. She tried to get down the bed but halted seeing blood on her top,dried up and not fresh. She checked her body but didn’t even find a tiny bruise on her.Then what was that?

May be sharanya came? To help her out yesterday and ended up hurting herself. Sonakshi quickly grabbed her mobile and dialled her number.

“Hi sonakshi kese hein tu ab?”

“Shara. Mein pehele se zyaada teek hoon.kya hua kal?! Tume kahaan lagi? I am sorry meri wajeise hamesha tujhe.....”

“Wait now kal kya hua means what.tum poore din phone nahi kiya aur meri calls answer bhi nahi kiya.i was waiting yaar. Aur lagi matlab?”

Sonakshi was stunned at that answer.

“Wo...”

“Sonakshi mujhe sach sach bata.kya hua? Tu teek hein na? Mein kal aaungi. Yaa mein aaj hi aajau?”

“Arey kuch nahi.mein teek hoon.”

“Chaahat ke baaremein kuch kabar mili? Didn’t you call and see.”

Sonakshi paused. She honestly wanted to. She badly wanted to hear her baby’s voice.she wanted to hug her little form to her chest and kiss those tiny hands and chubby cheeks. She wanted to make her bonvita and her favourite dhokla and feed her. It still smelled like chaahat and it seemed like she was still her. She already sensed her near but she knew that she is similarly far away from her.

She wanted to talk to her,But the moment chaahat will hear her,she will start her endless questions. Which will make everything difficult for everyone. She thought to wait till tonight to call to pooja or ajit after chaahat falls asleep.

“Baad mein call karungi,may be tonight.”

“Achcha suno sonakshi.aaj mr.saxena ki beti aane wali thi dress pick karne ke.lekin let’s cancel naa the appointment,you are not well also.tu akele mat jaa,ghar pe hi raho.”

“Arey mein teek hoon shara.i’ll go handover that and come.”

“Mad or what? Don’t....”

“Arey bas wo karke,Aajati hoon waapas. Orders lot ki aakhri one hein naa. Weise mein teek hoon shara,I will come back and call.don’t worry.”

Said sonakshi,ending the call.

Whose blood was this on her body? Was it from rohit’s bleeding hand when he fisted it against the wall while he screamed at her. She couldn’t really figure out.if sharanya was not there,how come she has blood on her clothes,and she remembered she fell. Who got her back to the bed.

How come she didn’t hear her mobile ring if sharanya called her.checking her phone she found out that it was on silence which she never puts on it.how come that happened.

and even if sharanya called how come there were no notifications.she checked the phone when she woke up this morning.quickly she scrolled down to find that the calls sharanya said had indeed been there,all notifications already read.But who would have known her password to unlock and check everything.

Why does she feel like she was not alone yesterday. She felt like something was amiss. She looked around as if she is alienated in her own house.some unknown fear invaded her. Who could it be.

Rohit? That was the only possible other to be here.but he had left. He did.But by any chance was rohit here? She shut her eyes trying to remember anything but nothing came up to her mind.suddenly him cuddling to her stomach and sleeping flashed in her mind,was it the last memory she has with him five years ago or was it yesterday while she was half unconscious.she wondered.She wiped her shivering hand on the bed sheet where she assumed he would have been and inhaled her palm,and don’t know how but her palms smelled exactly like him.Gulping hard she bent down and inhaled the sheets once more and she was right.it smelled like him.

Delaying no more,she literally jumped out of the bed and ran out,tumbling.

“Rohit?”

She called out peeping to every room.

“Rohit?!”

She took his name frantically expecting him to appear from somewhere,as she ran from her courtyard backside to front.

“Rohit.”

She called once and yet no response.

she fell down where she stood and started crying.he was here,right? Wasn’t he. He couldn’t leave. No matter how he showed he hated her,may be he couldn’t.Or was she still imagining that everything was better? May be. He is gone but she is still in a hallucination.was she turning crazy? May be. Was everything really over? May be. Letting go of all what she had was namesakingly easy,but letting go of rohit? She cannot ever do that. She just love that man too very much that she couldn’t do it. She was hurt beyond bounds that she couldn’t bear it further.

Sonakshi couldn’t stay there anymore.At least not then.things have started to trouble her.If this was her state in one day,what would rohit have gone through during the past five years.without any fault in his hand just to suffer without even knowing what went wrong where,rohit would have really suffered beyond bounds.she felt her heart literally being ripped into pieces.so much so that,she knew that one more moment might really kill her off.

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Sonakshi sighed deeply as the final order was completed.She watched as her assistant handed over the dress and the saxena family leave.

“Done ma’am.sab orders complete hochuke hein right.”

“Yes paridhi,phir kab aani hein,sharanya will tell you. Here’s your pay cheque.”

Her assistant smiled.

“Kyun ma’am? Orders lena bhi aap bandh ki hein,are you going to shut down taqdeers?”

Sonakshi flashed a fake smile.

“Thoda tak chuki hoon mein,break chahiye.tum bhi thodi break lelo.i will tell sharanya to contact you.”

sonakshi said,walking paridhi to the door and locked the boutique door from inside after she left.

Coming back to the seat she sat down and rested her head back. A weird feeling of emptiness that she was trying to push down started coming back to her mind again. She knew what this feeling was. She had been going through the same when she came to goa for the first time with nothing.She didn’t take long to realize that her depression was resurfacing.

Unfortunately,she had no one to talk about that and she didn’t want anyone to talk to either. She sort of felt where she was going to end up at. She had given up on taqdeers,her work and yes,why and for what she would continue all that she created? she wondered. Five years later,she has arrived and halted at the same phase of life she was after she lost rohit and before chaahat arrived. The same hopeless,aimless and useless life.

She stood up and pointlessly walked to the trial room at her boutique.she had no reason to go inside but she anyway did.The pitched black dark room was filled with silence just as her whole being inside which her heart was not even beating. She locked the door and walked in silently,not knowing what her next step will be.

Next moment,the dim wall lights lit chasing the darkness away.She halted at her last step in shock wondering how did that happen. She turned back to where the switch was and stood in shock as she saw what was actually there.

The same dark eyes.The same face without any expression. The same rugged look. The same ruffled hair.

Rohit.

She thought she has started to hallucinate again but when he started to walk towards her,those thoughts turned out to be doubts and once he came and stood infornt of her in a distance where neither they were far nor they were close so that his breath slightly caressed her nose,the doubts turned into confirmation.

Suddenly her heart found a way to skip a beat in a way unknown to herself, and she stared at him with a complete shock in her eyes.

“Shocked?”

He asked with that devillish smirk in his face. She was speechless,as always.

“Oh i forgot,tume baat karna nahi aati right? Saalo se bolti bandh hochuke hein tumari. Mein toh bhoolgaye poori tarha.”

He shrugged his shoulders.

“Pata hein tume? Kyun aaya hoon mein waapas. Nahi tume toh pata hi nahi hoga.” He took a step towards her and she flinched taking a step back.

“Lo shuru kiya bhaagna.bhaago bhaago mujhse.Mein bhi dekte hoon ki tum kitna dhoor aur kitna tez bhaag sakti hein mujhse.”

The stepping towards and backwards continued till she crashed herself against the couch and fell on it. He neared her and she moved to a corner of it,for some reason yet his way right now scared her.

Resting his arms on the couch at either side of her, he made sure that she have no other space to move.

“Rokhi kyun? Bhaago.”

He ordered. She had her eyes stuck in his.

“Nahi? Nahi bhaagni hein?”

He nodded.

“Chaahat mumbai poch gayi hein.Yaad hein chaahat? Meri beti, jo tum tumari paas chupa kar rehti thi paanch saal tak? Yaad hein?”

Sonakshi felt her eyes filling,she was just broken beyond repair and the heartbreak he seemed to be bringing her seemed unbearable.

“No i just mentioned.Kya pata ki tum bhool chuki hein usko already? You know you can easily forget people.Act like they never existed for you. Can move on so fast.Right?”

He whispered dangerously. She felt a tear escaping down her brims. She had all she wanted when he was standing right infront of him like this,but still his words were piercing her heart brutally. She wondered what the strength she has to keep on going further even after the whole fiasco that happened in her house a day back.

“sonakshi rastogi, do you not think that tumari sazza kuch zyaada kam hein? I don’t know. I feel like that. Really. I mean you do all that you need. I find you with my baby. I grant to take her. And then you give her to me.i leave.You live alone.Seeing nothing else.Feeling not even a bit of the pain i lived in. Bit too fair,isn’t it?”

Silence.

“Issiliye aaya hoon,you know.ek offer ke liye.i mean jo bhi offer kar raha hoon mein tume,if you want...you take it,if you don’t want....you leave it.bas it’s just that either way tume sazza toh milenge.so in one way I really don’t care.but in one way I really want to see you go through hell.”

She observed all that expressions in his face,she really couldn’t depict what was in his head.but she gulped her tears off.

“Tum kehena kya chaati hein rohit?” She asked.

“What?!!?” He started clapping and burst out to an evil laughter.

“Arey tum sach much bhol sakti hein ab bhi.wow.offer word suntehi tumari bolti bhi shuru hui ho.wow.I am bloody impressed.”

She stared at him.

“So here’s the deal.two reasons I am here for.ek hein pooji. Uski shaadi hone jaarahi hein agle hafte. Wo toh tume pata hongi,lekin kisse shaadi karrahi hein wo pata hein tume?”

She stayed without knowing an answer.

“Nahi pata hein tume.right.nahi pata.ussne tumari bhai pulkit se shaadi karne jaa rahi hoon.taqdeer toh isse kehete hein.ek baar aur.same families.same nonsense.”

Sonakshi was shocked.rohit shrugged his shoulders,steadying himself from her and stood infront with his hands crossed against his chest.

“Nishi bua aur tumari mumma iss shaadi ke kilaaf hein.yahaan thak ki tumari mumma bol chuki hein ki tumari parivaar se koi bhi ye shaadi attend nahi karne waale hein.anyway,mere behen aur tumari bhai akhele faisla le chuke hein har haal mein iss shaadi karneke,aur bhaki hum sab un dono ke saat hein. But mein nahi chaata ki pulkit ke zingdagi mein sabse important din pe wo akhela hojaaye.toh uske liye shaadi attend karne keliye tume aana hogi.itne takleef bhi nahi hoga tume,kyun ki shaadi yahaan goa mein hogi.aur chaahein toh I will pay you for being the guest from his side.”

At his last sentence,sonakshi stood up next to him like a electric jolt.

“Rohit.wo mere bhai ke shaadi hein,tum socha bhi kese hein ki wahaan aane keliye mujhe tumari peise chahiye hongi?”

She lashed out.

“Sh.....itna gussa.mein toh tumari Level ke baat karte the.tumne kehekar gayi hein paanch saal pehele,ki tume srif mere peiso se hi matlab hein.bas.”

“Rohit wo mein...”

“Ye gussa ya ye explaination mujhe nahi chahiye.i don’t give a damn about you,got it?”

She looked down,she cannot argue with him.he had a valid answer for all what she said.this situation was something she invitingly created for and by herself.

“Aur ek aur baat hein.sabse important baat bhi hein.”

She looked up into his reddened eyes.

“Jo bhi tumne kiya,aur jo bhi mein ab karte hoon.ussemein meri beti ki koi galti nahi hein.mein nahi chaata ki iss Sab ke beechmein chaahat suffer karu. Toh tumari paas ek option hogi,wahaan aao mumbai.tum sippy mansion mein rehe sakte hoon....”

“.....?” Sonakshi tried to say something in shock but he interrupted.

“Srif chaahat ke maa bankar.srif aur srif usske maa bankar.as I said,tum mere liye koi bhi nahi hein aur naa tum uss ghar ki bahu hogi.”

Sonakshi sensed the fear in her heart,she cannot go back.everything will be destroyed the moment naren paapa will see her.

“Mein nahi aa sakti.”

She said.he stood silent for a while.

“Uske liye bhi pese chahiye?”

She looked up and took a step forward to him.

“tume kya lagta hein rohit? Ki tum mujh par tumari ye peiso ke taane maaru,aur mein aane keliye maanjau?” She pretended to be tough,so that he will stop all this and leave.she cannot take a risk of everything being destroyed.

“No no no.i don’t think that way.mein yaahan marne nahi jaarahahoon tume waapas malabar hill lekar jaane keliye. I am making an offer. Agar tume chahu toh aasakte hein bas. I can look after my baby alone,you don’t matter to me. But phir bhi,mein ne tumse ye offer issiliye kiya kyun ki it’s about my daughter.”

“You can look after her alone right? Abhi abhi eisa kahaan tumne.toh eisa hi karo.”

He gritted his teeth in anger,and he clutched her shoulders the next moment and she hissed in pain.

“Mere baat katam nahi hue,sonakshi rastogi.listen to me carefully. This is it. If you need to see your daughter at least till she grow up,you can come back to mumbai with me. Nahi chahiye toh heck I don’t care. Tum mumbai nahi aayengi toh,keep in mind ki Mein UK shift hone jaa rahe hoon agle mehene se,aur mein chaahat ko apne saat leke jaa rahe hoon.hamesha hamesha keliye aur tum.....kabhi usse waapas nahi dekh paungi....”

He shook her as he said it. And sonakshi felt like her heart tugged badly.

Not seeing chaahat forever?Can she even do that. One way of him at least let her see her daughter and the other way of him,she will never see her daughter again.

And what about he himself. She will never by even a mistake see him ever again if he leaves like that. Now that he has come back and suddenly he has created the need in her heart of seeing him,though he had no idea about it. And suddenly with his threat or declaration or whatever,she felt bit too hesitant bit to greedy bit too selfish to let him go away. Some feelings of wanting to have him near her no matter what surged through her mind out of nowhere. But can she. Her love was at one side and protecting him was another need from another side.

He sent his eyes all over her face.the next moment he bent over and neared his lips to her ears and her fingers that rested on his elbow till now senselessly clutched his shirt tightly at the sudden close proximity he created.

“Mujhe nahi pata tum kiss baat keliye ye hungama kiya hein paanch saal tak.”

He whispered and she shut her eyes. His breath against her skin made her weak.

“But do think whether wo baat is important,or whether your daughter is important. Weise mujhe tumse kuch zyaada ummeed toh hein nahi,phir bhi....”

his hands travelled from her sides to her waist and snaked them around her to lock her to his frame.sonakshi felt her legs melting at what he was doing,and for a moment her mind went totally blank.her hands went up his elbows and behind his neck to his hair and his eyes shut at that move of her. She felt her breath fastening.

“Sochlo ki tume...”

He literally whispered against her skin creating goosebumps on atop, and opening his eyes he noticed how lost she was in his arms,eyes closed and her hands still haq jataofying on him.

“kaunsi deal zyaada achche hein.tumare beti se dhoor ya aas paas.”

She opened her eyes at that.

All this touches and then he talks about the deal.what does he want from me.does he purposely do this to her or he just doesn’t have any idea about what his proximity do to her.she is flushed in red but still,he seemed to not be affected by her. A devilish smirk appeared.

When her hands moved off of his nape and her gaze turned down,he still stayed steady with no any expression.sonakshi rested her hands on his, and forcefully took them off her waist,freeing her from his clutches. Taking a step back,she turned away from him to leave,but suddenly her walk halted feeling a tight tug at her lower arm,of course by him. Then she got pulled back,ultimately ending up landing on him,her back against his chest. Her breath got stuck at the throat.

He placed his chin on her shoulder while only his left hand held her shaking form to his body.putting the right hand in his pocket and took something out. Slowly he fisted his right hand to hers,giving away what was in his hand to her. While she bent to look down at it,he took his hands off of her but not his chin off her shoulder still.

“In case you feel hesitant to spend your money to come back,here is the ticket.agar chahiye toh,yeh ticket leke wakt par airport poch jao. In case you don’t give a damn to read this,aaj raat ki flight hein,aur aayengi toh tum kal subha mere saat mumbai mein hongi.”

He finished his ordering whisper as her eyes scanned every line of her ticket alone. When she was done, she felt his warm breaths still caressing her nape.

“Weise tattoo erase karnewaale koi mila nahi tume it seems.”

He said again,putting her hair from her sides to the back after that,leaving her all confused.she turned her head to let her questioning eyes meet his.he flashed a mocking smirk.

“Koi baat nahi,mumbai aayengi toh Dr.nishi sippy se cosmetic surgery karwa sakte hein tum.well karwa sakte nahi,karwana hogi tume kyun ki i don’t like to see my name on the things that i don’t own.”

Said him,pulling him away from her as tears filled her black orbs again. He was talking about his name that was yet carved on her nape. She had nothing to do but to let him say all what he needed at her. And he left with a one last sentence.

“Yaad rakho ms.rastogi,agar aaj nahi.toh kabhi nahi.”

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Sonakshi sat on her empty room,back at the empty house. It was evening and she had yet not decided what to do tonight.

Two ways remained in front of her.

Go back to mumbai,and everything will get destroyed.

Stay back here, and she will be broken.

Five years,half a decade. She has been trying to protect her rohit putting everything else including her love at stake. Shouldn‘t she be doing that further?

Yes she should. It’s ok. Let rohit go away,even forever. Kamse kam mumma teek rahengi toh rohit bhi teek hi rahenge.

She looked at the time and decided to dial to pooja,to ask about chaahat.

“Pooja?”

“Bhabhi aap? Kese ho aap? Bhaiyya hein wahaan pe? Aap mili usse?”

Pooja asked excitedly.

“Chaahat kese hein?” She answered ignoring what she was questioned.

“achche hein,sabse itna jaldi gelled hui hein wo.sab bohot excited hein usko milke. Filaal maami ke saat bahar khel rahi hein lekin aate hi I will get her on the line.”

“Pooja no it’s ok,usko meri zyaada yaad mat dena,warna phir we shuru ho jaayegi.”

“Bhabhi...”

“It’s ok,bake sab kese hein?”

“All good.rohit ki bachchi ko dekhe sab bohot kush hein.bhabhi bholiye naa aap bhaiyya we mili hein kya? Wo hamare saat mumbai nahi aaya.”

“No pooja mein nahi mila usse.”

Sonakshi lied so that she can avoid same topic coming to discussion again.

“Matlab? Kahaan hoge wo phir? Pata nahi kya nayi musibat mein honge.”

Pooja sound worried.

“Nayi musibat? Matlab.”

“Bhabhi,iss paanch saal mein eisa ek din bhi nahi jahaan bhaiyya sharab nahi piye hue.he has turned to a chronic alcoholic.”

Sonakshi was stunned.

“What? Toh.....uska kaam wagera?”

“Srif har subha hospital mein kaam yaa koi surgery hogi bas tab hosh mein rehete hein wo. Kaam katam hote hi peena shuru karte hein.pata nahi kahaan jaata hein, lekin waapas aaye toh hamesha chot hoke aate hein,nahi aate ho toh dad aur ajit jaate hein usse doondne mein.kabhi kahi bhi behoshi ki halaat mein milta hein yaa phir kissise jagda karke padta hein kahin.”

She couldn’t bear hearing that.what has rohit turned into.

“Yaad hein uss raat jahaan wo aapke gaadi se takra gaye? Wo srif ek din hein apne usse uss tarha dekhi.hamare toh aadat banchuke hein bhabhi usse eise dekhne ke.”

She wiped her eyes that cried for him.

“Tu parishaan mat ho pooja.wo waapas ghar aayenge.don’t worry.”

“Bhabhi....aap bhi waapas aajayiena.please.hum sab ye milke solve karenge.please ek baar...bas ek baar aap aayie toh sahi.”

Sonakshi stayed silent.

“Bhaiyya jo bhi kehete ho bas sabaan se kehete ho.dil se nahi.mujhe yakeen hein wo aaj bhi aapse utna hi pyaar karte hein jitna wo pehele karta tha.balehi chaahat ko leke aaye hein aapse dhoor,lekin apna dil aapse eise yuhi juda nahi karpayega wo. I am sure.please bhabhi.ek baar.”

“Rakti hoon mein pooja.apna khayal rakho,aur rohit ke aur humari chaahat ki bhi.”

Sonakshi disconnected the call.

Standing up from where she sat, she walked to the mirror. In the mirror she stared at herself,the woman she couldn’t barely recognize.

What has she done to him.

Rohit ke bale kartehi teek usko poori tarha se barbaad karchuke hoon mein.

He is living a life which he doesn’t deserve at any cost. What should she do?

Should she go back an bear the consequences but still be with him.

Should she stay back and let this pain consume to destroy both of them.

Pooja was wrong,he doesn’t love her anymore. He hates her instead.

But her? She loves him still,and she will keep loving him till her end.

What should she do. What decision should she take?

Suddenly she noticed her neck in her mirror reflection.

Clutching her above the clavicle she wondered where her mangalsutra is. From her marriage till now,there was not a day that she removed it off her.Where has it gone. She thought in a complete fear.

She wiped her hands on her blouse and checked on what she was wearing,but it was nowhere.she frantically searched it in the place she was seated and then all over the entire room as tears started falling off her eyes. It was the only thing of rohit she had remaining to herself now. And now it is gone.

Soon she covered every corner of the house,but she couldn’t find it.

Sitting down at the entrance of her house,she started to weep. She couldn’t bear the fact that she had lost the last thing she had from him. The holy symbol of their marriage.

Was this somehow be a symbol that she was been pointed at? Was rohit going to fall in a danger? What if something was going to go wrong? Is this some kind of a universal symbol of telling that she should just go back to him,so that she can save him from whatever that happens?

He hates me. Her inner self said. So what,love him so much that it will be enough for you and him both,wasn’t that what you were doing all this time? She thought again.

It’s ok,bear his hate,it was you who made him hate you so bear the consequences and get back to him.

But paapa? she thought again.

Srif chaahat ke maa bankar.srif aur srif usske maa bankar.as I said,tum mere liye koi bhi nahi hein aur naa tum uss ghar ki bahu hogi.

She remembered what rohit said. I am going there with the right on my daughter. If paapa says anything,I will tell him that there is nothing remaining between us or between their family and me.Of course,kuch bachaa hi nahi hein rohit aur mere beech.right now,aur kuch decide bhi nahi kar sakte.Jo bhi hojaaye,I will face it. That is it.

She stood up,deciding that she will go,back to mumbai. Back to malabar hills. Back to sippy mansion. Where their life started and ended. Back again.

It was time to save her rohit,this time in real sense.

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“The final call for the passengers of AI-640 taking off to mumbai.please report to the check in counter immediately.”

Rohit checked his watch which marked sharp midnight. His flight was to take off in thirty minutes.

Yaad rakho ms.rastogi,agar aaj nahi.toh kabhi nahi.

Would she come? or would she not?

His eyes fixed to a distance of emptiness but his mind had that wavering question.

So what even if she doesn’t? As I said,it’s her call. He told himself.

She is going to come,Rohit sippy. You know it more than anything. His mind told him in return.

What if she doesn’t.

She will.

The mind inner and outer halted the silent argument they had in between when he sensed something. Without a reason his head turned to the right to the check in counter where he saw, correctly her, Sonakshi rastogi who has already handed over her passport to the counter. Taking his bag he stood up and their gazes met each other. Her breathing literally seemed to stop. Unaffected,he started walking straight towards her. And with each step he took,sonakshi found her heart beating erratically.

Without a word,he went near her and handed over his documents to the counter next and once they were done,they both walked in to board the flight.

Finding his seat,he sat down.Next one to his seat was empty but her assigned seat number in the ticket was not that. She gulped down realizing the indifferences that already had started to make way towards her but silently walked away to the place she should be.

She was at a window seat and next to hers was empty. She adjusted the scarf she was wearing around the face not needing any dramatic attention from anyone around.

Goa. Her alienated home for five years. And now she is going back to mumbai,her hometown which is even alienated. She felt like she is lost somewhere and she didn’t belong to either of the places.She shut her eyes trying to calm down her anxious thoughts. You will be seeing chaahat in some hours. Wouldn’t it be a blessing? And you get to stay at a eye view distance from rohit? Isn’t it something you always wished deep inside?

Rohit who was seated ahead turned his head wanting to know where she has been seated. He cursed himself for the umpteenth time for not being able to stop doing what he shouldn’t be doing. He is not taking his bride home. It was sonakshi rastogi, his daughter’s mother. He had gloriously challenged her,literally did everything to finally make her take the decision to come to mumbai which she had no idea about. Seeing her looking away far into the dark midnight outside,his eyes didn’t fail to notice whether she had any annoying company next to her. He lowkey received a relief seeing her seat next is empty. He had purposely booked a seat far from him for her so then why worry now? Heck,stop being possessive.He thought as he turned ahead from her.

Yes he invited her home, but accepting the deal she invited herself trouble.He who wanted to let her feel all the pain himself went through had finally got the chance. Now she will see how having the one you love right infront and yet remained unloved will feel like.

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Ravi halted the car at the mumbai airport exit. Rohit who had plugged his earphones on listening to who knows what walked past sonakshi, putting his luggages to the car boot.

Meanwhile,wondering what she should do, sonakshi stood next to him. Closing the car boot,he raised his eyebrow-finding her next to him.

“Taxi ke liye peise chahiye?”

He asked heartlessly,taking off one headphone off his ear. She stared at him silently too tired to tell him anything.

“Sonakshi didi,laiye aapke samaan mein andhar daalte hoon.”

Said ravi who immediately came to them.

“Ye kya tumare baap ki gaadi hein ki tum kisse ke bhi samaan andhar daalu ravi?”

Rohit snapped at ravi.

“Ravi bhaiya koi baat nahi mein taxi mein aati hoon aap log ghar chaliye.”

She said.

“Lekin didi,itne raat ho chuke hein weise kal taxi strike bhi hogi.shaayad taxi milenge bhi nahi hogi aapko. ”

“Parishaan mat ho ravi tum,akhele chalne ke aadat hein issko. Let’s go.”

Said rohit getting into the vehicle.

Sonakshi signalled ravi to leave,saying that she will manage.

The car moved a few a more meters and halted suddenly. Getting down from the vehicle,she saw a rohit who annoyingly threw his headphones inside and closing the door before taking long quick steps to reach her.

“Beto gaadi mein.”

“mein khud aajaungi.”

He grabbed her upper arm and pulled her towards him.

“Ek baar suna nahi kya kahaan mein ne? Aao betjao.”

“I said i will come by myself.”

“Ye mat sochlo ki i am dying to take you with me. Chaahe bhi itne raat yahaan tume chod ke nahi jaa sakta. Mere kaam keliye aayi hein tum aur kuch hogi tume toh uska saaare inzaam bhi mere upar aajayenge. Don’t you dare aruge with me. Get into the vehicle.”

She said no more, and slowly released her hand from his and walked into the vehicle.

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“Hari ko bolo meri saari samaan kamre mein le jaane keliye.”

Rohit got down saying to ravi and sonakshi followed him to the door. The whole journey to the sippy mansion was filled with silence. And now seeing their once home which carried so many memories for her, she felt her turning teary eyed again. And a slight fear of what will happen next troubled her. Mixed feelings gushed over her as she walked in a lost trance behind him.

Rohit walked in but stopped mid way. She almost crashed against him at his sudden halt.

“Kya kahaata mein tumse?”

Sonakshi looked at him,unable to understand what he asked.

“Tum mere yaa iss ghar ke liye koi nahi hein. Yaad hein?” He asked from her again. She nodded.

“toh sindoor kyun hein tumari maang mein?” He asked and he sent his hand to her forehead and she sensed what he was about to do. She held his wrist from her hand,gripping him tight.

“Pata hein mujhe ki mein tumare liye koi nahi hoon aur ye ghar ke liye bhi koi nah hoon.lekin isska matlab ye nahi ki tum mujhe apne choices lene se bhi rokhu. Tum meri maang se sindoor mita nahi sakte rohit.Agar meri hone yaa naa hone se tume koi matlab nahi honge toh meri maang bare yaa naa bare usse bhi tume koi matlab bhi nahi hona chahiye.”

She said directly at him, without any hesitation.

“Afzoz. Maang ke sindoor toh bacha liye tumne.agra itna maine rakte hein ye so called stuff tumare liye toh kahaan hein tumari mangalsutra? Kal tak gale mein the. Aaj wo bhi nahi hein. Drama karnke had hote hein samje? Apne ye drama kamse kam ab toh bandh karo sonakshi.”

He lashed at her. She opened her mouth but a voice stopped her.

“Sona?”

Sonakshi let her hand go off his, and rohit took his hand off her forehead. It was veena, and the whole family followed with stun and shock mixed feelings in their faces. Ajit and pooja has already explained others of what happened but none expected that rohit will come back like this with sonakshi.

Sonakshi found her tears renewing and veena came and hugged her tightly.

“Kahaan gayi thi tum? Haan? Kyun kiya eise sona? Kyun?”

Veena started sobbing.

“Sorry mumma,i am so sorry.” That was all she could say.

“Koi baat nahi, ab tum aachuke ho toh sab kuch teek hojayenge. I am glad you are here. Chaahat ko apni maa baap dono hi chahiye.Tum dono se agar ek bhi nahi honge toh wo bachchi kabhi kush rehe nahi payengi.”

Veena said.

“Wahi toh karte hi aayi hein aaj tak issne weise bhi.”

Said rohit,in a mocking voice.

“Rohit,bandh karo ye bakwas ab. Ab toh chod lo ye jagda karna.”

“Bakwaas mein nahi bakwaas ye karti hein mom. I don’t care about what you all think.Yahaan mein apne biwi ko nahi laaye hoon waapas, she is just here as chaahat’s mother.Aap sab wo baat please apne dimaag mein daaldeejiye. ”

“Rohit kya tareeqein hein ye baat karne ke?” Asked YK.

“Yehi sahi tareeka hein YK. Aur achcha honga ki hum sab ye baat yahaan hi katam kar dete. I am just not interested to talk about this again and again.pooji, chaahat kahaan hein?”

“Wo aapke kamre mein hein, so rahi hein.”

“Akhele hein?” He asked.

“Nahi tanya bhabhi hein uske paas.”

“I am going there,excuse me guys. Kal milte.”

He started to leave. Everyone came to sonakshi to welcome her as nishi left from there. She was still in anger at her for what she did to rohit.

“Laayiye bhabhi,mein aapki samaan bhaiyya ke kamre mein le jaati hoon.” Said vimmi coming forward and rohit halted at her.

“Vimmi,sonakshi ke liye guest room ready karwaado.”

Everyone looked at him in shock at his blunt order but he just didn’t care. Walking to the elevator he took it and left from there. Sonakshi sighed silently.

“Had hein yaar. Bhabhi aap aayie mere saat meri kamre mein rahiye aap.”

Said pooja.

“Its ok pooja, mein guest room mein hi rahungi.” Sonakshi said.

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Walking with veena and pooja to the guest room, sonakshi kept her luggage inside and sat down.

“Kuch kaaungi tum sona?”

“No mumma. Not hungry. I will wash and go to sleep.”

“Teek hein. Toh kal milte. Good night.”

Said veena planting a kiss on her forehead and both the ladies turned to leave. Sonakshi who was troubled with a repeated question in head,decided to ask it.

“Mumma?”

“Haan?”

“Wo....paapa nahi hein ghar pe?”

Pooja and veena stood there in shock. Sonakshi sensed their change in face and wondered why is that.Veena looked at pooja and held her hand. And after a while she left from there without a word.

“Bhabhi? Paapa....nahi rahe.”

Sonakshi received the shock of her life,standing up from the bed she went and held pooja’s arms.

“What?”

“Teen saal hogaye hein,paapa ko heart attack aaya aur.....”

Sonakshi took a step back in shock. No matter how evil he was,she was hurt. A pain of loosing a part of the family hurted her. And pooja calling him as paapa made her understand something that was amiss till now.

“Pooja tume pata....i am sorry lekin tume pata hein ki?”

“Mein uska beti hoon. Haan bhabhi pata hein. Sabko pata hein iss ghar mein. Paapa ke funeral pe mere maa ne waapas aayi the.”

“Waapas aayi the? Lekin rohit ne mujhse kahaan ki tumari mom delivery ke samein guzar gayi thi.”

“Haan,paapa usko ham sab se chupaakar rehethe the. Wo zingda thi aur aayi bhi thi waapas.lekin ye meri ghar hein aur ye meri parivaar hein. Issiliye Waapas gayi hein wo. Lekin sab sach jaan kar maami poori tarha toot gayi hein. Ab toh pehele se behetar hein,lekin....nothing is the same now.”

Sonakshi felt like her head hit somewhere. It is rightly said that no one can escape from secrets for long.

And then came the shocking realization that she had been away from rohit, for no valid reason. She felt like her head spinning. How could she commit such a grave blunder? Will rohit ever forgive her even if she says him why all this happened now.

Pooja bid her good night and left as sonakshi still sat in shock.

What has she done. How can she face rohit now.

Sonakshi held the bed corner sittinng down and buried her head in her hands.

Rohit.

he has already seen his mother breaking down. He has already gone through that pain alone.....the pain she had been trying to protect him from has already eaten him up.

On top of it, to rub more salt to his wounds she has wasted years of rohit’s life and chaahat’s life and also her life pointlessly. What if she never met him and them at goa? She would have stayed away from him without a reason. Why did she be so wrong like this? He lost his time with his daughter for no reason.

She stood up. She cannot wait anymore. Rohit has to know this. He will hate her even more now but she has to talk to him. This cannot be the reason for him to suffer anymore. She will do anything,bear anything or suffer any punishment for this whole thing she did, but still rohit will have to know this now. He deserved to know the truth and he owns all the right to do anything he needs to about this.

knowing very well about how he is, she knew that he must be crazily suffering inside. She has to talk to him, let him pour all that pain out and he got to break that ice and he has to come out of this pain.

Rohit. You will have to hear me out. You just have to. Please.

Chapter title credits: Mere intekhaam dekhegi (shaadi mein sarroor aana 2017)

I just don't know what to say....

I felt Sonakshi's pain...through and through

I love how you have managed to make the circumstances the greatest villain of the story and not the characters. I loved both Ronakshi's inner turmoil. I just love this story. Keep writing and rocking. And please update a little soonish dear....

You have a responsibility towards us poor Ronakshi fans sick and tired of the show...

Wasuuuuuu ❤️

Well done yaar for this beautiful update 👍🏼

I'm sending you virtual hug now 🤗

Thank you so much for the long update.

I am immensely impressed by your creativity.

I knew it, I knew Rohit wouldn't leave Goa without her (from the hints you've given in the last chapter)

It's so painful to go through all these & my heart goes out to RoNakshi.

Rohit has suffered a lot but so did Sona.

The flashback of their first night together was so beautiful, Wasu. Sexy yet lovely. You write better dialogues than KHKT writers seriously☺️

It was so cute when Rohit was checking up on her in the flight & adamantly asked her to follow him in his car. He has difficulty in deciding what he wants when he's around her because subconsciously, his Sona is still giving him the butterflies that he thought were dead ☺️

Each dialogue, each scene, you made me imagine Karan & Dipika. I loved that ❤️

Naren is dead but that man wasted RoNakshi's time 🤬 I wish he could have written the truth about Sona in a diary or what so that Sona can show Rohit the evidence of his dad's deeds 😒

I am very sure that Rohit is still crazy about Sona & he'll find it difficult to resist her now that they'll be under the same roof.

Since Naren is no more & Sona has realized all the wasted time, I think now Sona will boldly make her move to get her Rohit back (I hope so)

I am super duper eager for the next update, Wasu.

Please don't take too long, like this time 🤣😭

The suspense is excruciating 🥺

Update soon PLEASEEEEEEE 🤗

(P.S: In the previous chapter, there was blood because of the shattered glass. I assumed Sona had injured herself but in current chapter I am unclear about it. The blood on Sona, was it hers? Since you mentioned that she can't find injury on her, then whose blood was it, Wasu? Was Rohit hurt?)

Sooo beautiful.... it was so good that I forgot to read today's written update and for a second thought this was actually the episode... could really feel the pain of ronakshi...

The show has completely lost it...