NOVEL~*Hiding behind a Stranger*~ THREAD 45 Chapter50 - Page 158

Originally posted by: karkuzhali

Once..when I was a young lad...

I was drowning.
Underwater.
Fighting for air,
Fighting to swim.
Drowning, underwater.
Something held me down,
Something kept me from taking a breath.
Drowning, underwater.
I tried to float, but always sank.
I tried to breathe, but always choked.
Drowning, underwater.
I had no escape.

But Huzoor, you saved me.

You cut me loose.
Taught me how to swim,
Taught me I could breathe.
Inhale, exhale.
Taught me I could smile,
Taught me I could laugh.
You showed me kindness.
You showed me happiness.
When I found you,
I found me.
You gave me life,
You gave me purpose.

But you changed your mind.

Was I not enough?
Not smart enough?
Not loyal enough?
Not brave enough?
Was I too much?
Did I ask too much?
Did I care too much?
Did I love too much?
Did I need too much?
Did I hurt you?
Did I scare you?

Why were you so afraid of me Huzoor?

Afraid of the change
Afraid of the unknown
Afraid to let me in
Afraid to feel what we felt
Afraid to love me
Afraid to let me love you
Afraid of the future
Afraid of us
Afraid of my loyalty
Afraid it wouldn't last

But I needed you Huzoor!...

Now I'm drowning.

Underwater.

Not alone but

Together with her

Fighting for air,

Fighting to swim.

Drowning, underwater.

You're holding me down,

You're keeping me from taking a breath.

Drowning, underwater.

I'm trying to float, but I'm sinking.

I'm trying to breathe, but I'm choking.

Drowning, underwater.

There is no escape.

But I can't forget you.

Your words now grab my ankles,

Tying me to the ocean bottom.

I'm kicking and fighting,

But your touch paralyzes me.

I'm crying for help,

But your memory suffocates me.

No one sees me,

No one hears me,

No one saves me.

You don't save me.

Drowning,

Underwater

But I am still loyal to you, Huzoor!

( Copied from internet and modified suitably)

KK.