Just wonderful and so perfect take , Mansi... u penned all my thoughts like u read it... my dear Twinnie...
If u can't leave ur ego and anger behind, even in her last moments, then u have no right to cry on her death, Shehenshah'...Jo gave him the ultimatum... ever since Jo asked for permission to meet MA for the last time, he was in two minds...his Badi Ammi is not well, his own Jo told him, and he knows she never lies... but then Jo is the one who can care for anybody, let it be her biggest enemy... she is that pure soul... so what should he think of her care , her worry for MA?? Is Maham Anga really that ill , or she is just ill and Jo is caring for her just like she cares for all??? But how he will find out?? He himself has punished her for the worst crime she did, and now if he is asking to anybody, they will know MA is still in his heart, may be they will think it as his weakness... And Shehenshah can never be weak... Jalal is all confused... no , better wait for somebody to come on his own and tell him... though he wants to know abt her badly, still he can't show, can't share his pain so openly to anybody... It won't be good for him, for his power... he has to stay strong, and that means how much it gives him pain, how much it will fill him with guilt, he has to keep his role only as Shehenshah, he can never again become MA's dear son, Jalal...
He is lost, waiting for some news... And then he is informed , that Jo has requested him to see her in MA's room... he couldn't believe... What she is doing there now?? What has happened that she wants to see me there?? Why she didn't come to me if she wanted to meet me??? He rushed to MA's room , unable to understand anything... and after reaching there, her words and actions rooted him to spot... Right in front of him , she ordered baandis to clean the room, rather empty MA's room, and throw old unnecessary stuff away... he couldn't hold himself back from asking her what she is doing and why...a small hope somewhere in his mind... hope for what?? That some miracle will happen and he will get back "HIS" Badi Ammi...
He looks at Jo with those hopeful eyes, but her reply shatters his hopes... " she will live maximum for two days , shehenshah... And then we will hear last of her... and anyway, now u have ordered to take her to delhi, so she won't be returning to this room... so why keep all this unnecessary stuff of that witch??? Better get off every memory of her", Jo replied with a very firm voice... This can't be true, Badi Ammi is dying, no this is not true... Jalal's mind is fighting with so many thoughts... but Jodha never lies... So??? And just then Jo shakes her with her next action... she takes off all the things from a box , MA has kept safe for so many years... All his things since he was a kid...Jo laughs , looking at them... see here Shehenshah, MA has really lost her mind, she has kept all ur stuff of childhood, as if it's something most precious in the world... He keeps staring at that... his best childhood memories with his Badi Ammi ...this will go away from him, why coz Jo is saying MA will never return here coz she is leaving this world... the truth behind her words , is finally gripping his mind... Is she really dying, Jodha Begum, he asked with a final hope... there Jodha knew, she has broken the ice... But she knew it's not enough, she had to melt him completely, and for that she has to cut him in pieces, with more hateful words which will burn him, his mind...
She kept on her work... That's true, Shehenshsh, she has max 2/3 days of her life remaining... there it is... She said it again... He is rooted to spot, all lost... Jodha understood, now is the time for her final attack, and it has to be the worst, challenging him... he is hiding behind the fear of breaking to see his mother dying... but if she didn't make him break right now, his guilt will kill him soon... the burden of that guilt will be unbearable for him... And so she does it purposely... Jalal hears the most hateful words from Jo, he never expected to hear from her... She hates MA so much, but how can I hate her... Jalal wouldn't have been there if MA would not have saved him...if she would not have become his mother... I know Jo is right to hate her for what she did, and I can't blame her, but I can't hear a word against my mother either... He orders Jo not to say a word more, and there Jo understood, the son of MA is trying to come back to world, leaving Shehenshah E Hind, behind everything...
Just she needs to try more, and she will be able to fulfill the wish of MA... Jo softens her stand, she challenges the son in him to forget the ego and anger of a shehenshah in him, the hurt of a son in him, and asks him to meet his dying mother, if not for their lovely bond in past, then as a responsibility of a son to fulfill the last wish of a mother... His face clearly shows , the small boy who loved his Badi Ammi is not far away... She pushes him again, this time with a finality, " Go and meet her as her son... And if u can't do it, then remember, u will lose every right to cry as a son on her death"... There he heard those words... Reality has sunk in him, that just in some time he will lose his Badi Ammi forever... And same time Jo again orders Baandis to clean MA's room with a finality in her voice... Jalal is shaken with the thought to lose everything, but he has no strength left even to oppose Jo... He leaves without a word... she feels helpless , unable to understand what he will decide to do... Will the son in him show the strength to overcome Shehenshah , or will the Shehenshah kill the son in him and accept the world of guilt for the lifetime? She feels his pain, but right now doesn't know how to console him, when he is not ready to give in... only thing she can do is feel his pain in his heart and let it flow out from her eyes...
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