I think it makes her sad that she won't experience anything in life, besides being a Queen and that is why she tries so hard to be the best at it. It makes her jealous to see that Jodha can be a Queen and still get love, something that she has never got from her husband. It sucks how it worked out for her, and I feel bad for her. Not to mention the way Maham Anga makes her feel even worse about what's happening. I think Ruqaiya will show to be a better person later on in this serial. I do feel bad for her though, because she won't ever have love in her life like Jodha.