Tonight it feels like how a King would feel on the night before a great and crucial siege, the outcome of which, for him, would spell blissful 'Life' or hateful 'death'!
This makes me wonder why to me and to most of us, tomorrow's outcome is so important, like it is a question of life and death. Why are we so passionate about the show that a small rumor is enough to work us up and convert us in to high strung, irrational and perhaps to certain a extent, violent individuals?
Does it really matter if AJ get married to each other or not?
If they do not, will the world come to an end?
If they do, will this be the end of our desires?
I think not. Because then, we would want AJ to always remain together and the trust, faith and the love that they share must never falter. And we would want them to live happily ever after: Mr. and Mrs. Armaan Suri and Master Aashish Suri.
Obviously, the makers do not intend making things this easy for us. So, begins another crusade…!
I try to recall the day it all started….it feels as if it was only yesterday when it was announced that a new show called JJKN would air on Sony and the excitement that followed regarding the mystery surrounding the protagonist and the shock, surprise, amazement at the ugly heroine, the haughty, arrogant and insensitive boss, her selflessness, the fun, the subtly hidden social messages, the drama, the humor, the irony, love, tragedy……the unsavory diversions, the illogical twists, the mindless extension, butchering of characters, spirits…the resentment, hurt at being taken for a ride…the restlessness for the fairytale ending to take place, the fear that it never would, the denial that the show would ever end….yet the urge for the curtains to fall down….
The day it started, it instantly touched a chord! My sis and I, our circle of family and friends became instant Bhakths of the show and I remember how we used to detest the weekends. The show became second nature to us now. And AJ wedding was a pre-destined event! It was only a matter of time!
My sister joined Set, J_P and IF and found a family in people who were not only just staunch A fans or staunch JJKN fans or staunch P fans but people, real living people, who were passionate about something or the other, who were different, hailed from different cultures, countries, had different tastes….there seemed to be nothing but differences and differences yet were one, friends by default…played together, fought together, pulled each others legs, bickered with each other and got pulled out by moderators like they were kids of two….I was never active except maybe on J_P but I was a part of this fascinating life too, through my sister…It is amazing that a mere show ahs managed to bring us all together and though we have not met each other and know next to nothing about each other, we are there for each other…today we are all waiting to go down tomorrow together…with the show that brought us together…
JJKN is our baby, whom we must protect from bad and unhealthy influences, Jassi: our alter ego: her pains, fears and joys are ours, A: Jassi's A is our dream, that we may never attain, no matter how far and wide we may stretch out our hands…AJ wedding; our common cause, our common goal is the evidence, a memorial to this unique bond and relationship that each one of us shares with one another, with the show, with Jassi and Armaan and perhaps with the mystery called life, it self….
And every time, this memorial which is perhaps after all an illusion was threatened in to extinction, our survival instincts came to the fore and we fought like a mother would fight for the safety of her kids from a faceless enemy…but here, the enemy had a face…sometimes, in fact most of the times, the makers, other times, our friends who were on the opposite side…
Tomorrow, we again face a threat…our memorial faces a threat…and a fight begins…within us…between our irrational self and the rational self…
Tomorrow is the day of our victory. Tomorrow our memorial will stand high and mighty and prove that it is invincible. But a fear, an irrational fear gnaws at us, mocks at us…it says till date we have only been harboring an illusion and tomorrow the illusion will be destroyed…again the faceless enemy. We think it is T n D n G...is it them? Or us?
I don't know and I don't care. I will not run away from reality. Tomorrow my dreams might come true. A dream I cherished, I dreamt of, a dream that has bitter sweet memories connected with it…will I should I can I risk skipping the translation of The Dreams?
The show that earned me so many friends, taught me many things, in a way prepared me to take my place in the world, can I shun it? Should I?
I wonder. At last I make up my mind. Every time they went off the track, we protested because we love our baby too much…we always will…Tomorrow is our baby's big day…Will I abandon her..?
I wonder…And if my baby fulfills my dreams, will I be able to forgive myself for not trusting her, trusting my willpower to endure almost anything? Will I not regret for the rest of my life that because I chose to be a scaredy rat, because I wanted to have my cake and eat it too, because I feared being made a fool of, I missed seeing the most cherished dream of my life getting translated in to reality..?
I wonder…!
Tomorrow is another day…maybe tomorrow I will wake up in the truest sense….
Amen
ARMAAN JASSI FOREVER!
I know I am crazy, don't mind…getting all emotional today…..After all tomorrow is my wedding with my Vicky Darling…my D-day…😳New life..new people…new environment…feeling all jittery and nervous!!!!!
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