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Episode 127-128: Dard, Ishq & Faraq in bunches
The ASR music has never sounded so brutal, the dard(pain) in this ishq(love) had never run so deep. His eyes scorching on her, slowly he walked over, she looks away fiddling with some jewelry in her hand nervously trying to ignore him,
but he calls out her name "Khushi" eyes cold as ice, she could ignore no more, she looks at him, he passes the set onto her, he has malicious intentions and the young, innocent, inexperienced girl falls right for it. Poor thing thinks he bought the set for her that she was eyeing. "aap? yeh?" is all she can say in front of everyone. She knows ASR is capable of anything, even gifting her a set in front of everyone. He proceeds to take the necklace in his hands, eyes still on her, and holds it up worrying her even more "Aap? yeh?" she asks again. Once he had her where he wanted her, he makes his intentions clear "Lavanya? I wanna see how this looks on you". He puts the necklace on Lavanya, moving her hair to the side with his hands while keeping his eyes steady on Khushi every second only to look for that faraq.
The faraq she didn't admit to when he had looked her in eyes and asked point blank, she had the audacity to look him back in the eyes and tell him "koi faraq nahi padta" leaving his eyes with visible dard in them. A ping pong game or rather war of inflicting dard (pain) on each other had started since Arnav's discovery of Khushi's engagement. A cold war had continued the next day with indirect hits of "cheap bracelets," bank balances, and "nakushi" (unhappiness) but when she picked up that bracelet, a sense of loss on his face was evident and as Kushi would say later point out "aap haarte bahut boora hai Mr.Arnav Singh Raizada"...the war had intensified to newer levels perhaps both weren't prepared for. His anguish best expressed in his anger, like often result into irrational behavior.
After seeing how upset La was with his abrupt irrational decision to have the engagement the very next day, Khushi had followed him out by the poolside to talk to him, to convince him. Perhaps she didn't know just how much her sticking up for her fianc's bank balance and picking up that bracelet would stir him, but the faraq from it all was everywhere in that exchange by the poolside in the way he directed his anger towards her, and in his need to let her know how little she means to him:
"Mein kuchh bhi karron mujhe tumhe jawaa dene ki zarurat nahi" (I don't have to tell you what ever i do)
Or, in the way he slams file he was pretending to read and stands up eagerly to face her to unleash on her
"tum hoti kaun ho mere life ke decision mein interfere karne wali?" (Who do you think you are to interfere in my life like that?) - there is definitely and underlining of resentment that she is not a bigger part of his life, but she's not so he wants to hate her for it. His reaction behavior is so intriguing and moving here.
This faraq had turned his world upside down, driven him crazy at thoughts of her belonging to some faceless man, he was so desperate to hear from her and know that this faraq has affected her too. so when he saw bits of it, he couldn't hold back.
She had fired back to his short and nasty comments. "aap samajhte kya hai apne aapko? aap ke samne dar ke maare koi mooh nahi kulta iska matlab yeh nahi ha ki-"
while talking, looking in his eyes, something stops her. he catches on. she tries to go on..
"Jab Anjaliji aur Nani ji ne aapki sag" again, whey can't she go on, finish the word "sagaai"...his sagaai. "you have to listen to me, this is your engagement, not some game" to which Arnav asks her to take care of her engagement first.
she looks away, "i'm talking bout your engagement not mine"
"Exactly," This was his chance, he closes in on her, "sagaai meri hai" looking her straight in the eyes he asks away "Khushi meri sagaai ho ya na ho, kal ho ya ek saal baad ho, tumhe iss kya farq padta hai?"
Translation: "Exactly, it's my engagement, Khushi, whether i have an engagement or not, whether its tomorrow or a year later, what difference does it make to you?"
Barun brilliant voice modulation as work again. His voice had gone so mellow, and serious.. And he said her name, only her first name, there was an intimacy in this question and the way he asked it that it did all sorts of things to her. The whooshing wind had suggested how deep his question reached her, as deep as his mehsoos reached every time, har baar... A question she didn't anticipate, but the answer had involuntarily appeared in her eyes. But perhaps in her eyes wasn't good enough for him, he wanted to hear the word from her lips. He held his breath and swallowed hard.
Why do i get the feeling that the way he waits for her answer here, if she had admitted that the faraq is plenty, there really was a small window in which he would've also given in? so not like ASR but here so much desperation, if even for a brief moment, I feel he too would have revealed his true feelings. Sadly, If there was this small window, Khushi slams it shut. Hard to blame the girl after all the pain she had endured since Diwali night, she wouldn't dare bring to her lips anything that would leave her vulnerable to him.
As hard as it was for her, she looked down, away from him, and managed to piece together a sentence with hesitance "aapki sagaai ho ya na ho? hamme kyu faraq pade ga?"
He looks down disappointed with dard (hurt), but its her next line and the way she dared to look him in eyes and say with such confidence is what drives him over the edge
"suna aapne? hamne kya kaha? Hamme koi faraq nahi padta!"
"did you hear? what I said? I doesn't make any difference to me?"
Anger fills his face but the sad notes of Rabba ve mirror the deep inflicted dard so visible in his misty eyes. She tries to continue but he just keep looking at her with this look, how could she go on? and before she knew it, she was trailing behind him while his hand gripped her wrist tightly with that haq (a familiar dard now) and drug her into the living room...there was madness in his determined eyes.
"Ek minute Lavanya" he says letting go of Khushi's hand just in time...that shatir shatir batameez laad governor! Once he has everyone's attention he continues
"Khushi convinced me and I think she's right, Its really tough to prepare of an engagement in one day" Everyone is surprised at his sudden change in mind but there is a fear in Khushi's reaction..what is his angle? where is he going with this? He certainly didn't look convince out there
"SO i've made a decision that the engagement won't be tomorrow, it will be next week, because i can't wait longer than this Lavanya" needless to say he put a smile on everyone, especially on La with the last line "ab teek hai?""ok now?" a happy nod from La and he makes his angle known to Khushi
"Par maine ek aur faisla liya hai, engagment ki saari tayaariya Khushi karegi. Mera aur Lavanya ka risha tey karaane mein Khushi ka bahut bada contribution hai, aur maine Khushi ko office mein kaam karte hue dekha hai, bahut hardworking hai"
Translation: "I've made one other decision, Khushi will do all the preparations for the engagement, She made a big contribution in our relationship, I've seen her work in the office, she's very hardworking.
He turns around to look at her, a slight lift in the eyebrows "is that OK with you Khushi?"
...in a roomful of people only the two understood how poisonous that question and his look really was. She couldn't answer till La answered for her, all she could do was force a smile and nod. He walked over to her for another blow, in this one however his dard tucked inside "I hope tumme koi faraq nahi pada"
At this point, the faraq had become a weapon in this war, he just wants to hurt her, the way he had been hurt. His victory would lie in all the faraq he saw and pulled out of her which he knew was there, but she chose to keep it hidden at a time when he dropped all of his inhibitions to ask her. this just doesn't sit well with him especially when jealousy is involved
On a another note, after looking in his eyes, and knowing now what he's doing, she must realize how deeply he cares for her to be taking such extreme measures only to get her to admit. where she knows it or not, his challenge of faraq has her in fear...perhaps fear of giving him what he want. Afterall Khushi tends to show "jo dil mein, woh hi chehre pe" (whatever is in heart is on her face). The next day when Arnav arrives unexpectedly, the first words out of her mouth with fear in her voice "Anjali ji said that you're not coming"
"Kyu? tumhe kya farq padta hai?" hehe he was dying to say that to her wasn't he?
A galore of beautiful jewelry had been laid out for a bunch happy women. Arnav and Khushi sit on the opposite side of the sofa, but they were right there beside eachother weren't they? both aware of the dard exuded by each other. this is what you call sizzling chemistry. Anjali shows him a ring, a slight nod but the second he overheard that it was Khushi's choice
"i didn't say i like it, i said it's nice, app aur dikhaiye"' he looks over to catch any faraq, i'm sure he found some in those uneasy eye look away from him.
What makes it so hard to hate ASR is that even at his worst, his love and care for Khushi always shows. Like the minute Anjali and La leave, his gaze goes to her without any hostility, any arrogance, even when she looks away his eyes just can't leave her face and when they finally do, she sneaks a look in. The sad rendition of "Rabba ve" how would they ever have gotten over all these feelings ???
The sales guy had come to pressure her into looking at jewelry, she refused a few times but when the salesman saw her eying a simple set, he gave her choice away to ASR. The simple middle class girl refuses again to even try it out. She goes to help La make her selection, while Arnav had cooked up an evil plan.
"mujhe yeh kharidna hai (I want to buy this)"
Right away, he get a reaction from Khushi, he had built up this situation to have think exactly what he wanted her to with cruel intentions and hidden desperation. He left her in tremendous amount pain as La gushed over that set.
"Maine tumhari pasand ka set Lavanya ko de diya, I hope tumhe koi farq nahi padta hai"
"i gave the set you liked to Lavanya, I hope this doesn't make a difference to you"
Maybe he saw a glimpse of what he was looking for in her tears, once again he had managed to crush her, punish her harshly only because she doesn't do what he wants her to. However with Khushi's broken heart, it's he who has to work hard to keep the faraq away from his face.
While he continues inflict dard on poor Khushi, we see a repeated reminder of a fresh wound,
an symbolizing his constant agony over her engagement. Conscious effort by the CVs to keep it on him I think. Only after he can't handle her pain anymore and apologizes, does the bandage come off. A truce in this war of faraq, with her and with himself. Not that the pain becomes any less, but he does his best to deal with it, to live with it.
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