The Difference That Being In Love Makes: Edited

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Yes Arnav was mean to her. Yes he made fun of her.

Yes Shyam was nice to her. Yes he complimented her.

The difference is not the mannerisms and behaviour of the two men. Its the undercurrent and Khushi's heart.

With Arnav, she wants to please him and take care of him. She wants to be the centre of his universe, the way he is hers. She wants to feed him good things and things they both love. She wants to look beautiful for him. She wants him. She... she is herself. She is her crazy, wonderful, scatter-brained self...

With Shyam... she doesn't give a damn. Not an atom. The only thing smaller is nothingness. And that's what she feels for him. Don't throw shoes at me, but if she had ended up being married to him, he would have actually given her everything she wanted. Someone to share jalebis with, someone who complimented her, someone who looked after her and got along with her family. And yet... She did not love him. She held back. She was reserved and detached. She did not smile. She was not "Khushi." Why? Because she knew it was a facade. Her heart knew.

Instead she loved the man who was a beast to her.

Some can argue that Shyam too fought of goons for her. He was wonderful to her family. He looked out for her.

She fell for the prince in disguise, and not the devil. She loved the devil for who he was. She looked beyond the hell he flaunted and discovered paradise he had hidden. She found a place where she belonged. A place which was crafted for her, and her alone. It was a place where she would be happy, a place where she would be safe, a place where she would be cherished beyond compare. A place where she could be who she was

She knew she belonged there. She knew she had rights over him which no one else had and she consciously dreamed of exercising those rights. Look where she placed him. On one side Amma and Buaji want me to get engaged to Shyamji. Babuji is ill. And on the other side, thoughts of that Laad Governor is plaguing my heart. It's her family on one side, and him on the other. She knew her family was in deep *hit. She knew about their suffering. Yet, she stalled because of him. She let her family suffer and be mad at her, even if only for a short while.

She gave in, we all know. But only after she lost her rights on him. She lost her reason for holding back. She was stalling. She was waiting for him to confess. She did not want to tie herself to another man, when she she knew the man she loved, loved her back. She wanted to marry him.

Then fate blew up in her innocent face and forced her to grow up, yet again. Watch this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lKjV7nuQs70&feature=plcp

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She goes to him. She kneels at his feet, placing him above her. Giving him the pedestal on which she placed him with her entire being. She opens up to him. She shares with him everything. She feelings, her pain, her anger, her lost love, her broken dreams, every. single. thing. She hid nothing. Who says she didn't have a suhaag raat? Is it not the purpose of a suhaag raat to lay yourself bare to your significant other? Did she not do that? She did. She joined herself in a way she couldn't have with someone else.

She did not need to defend him. She did not need to keep silent. She did not need to get abused. She did not need to get orphaned again. If she revealed everything, she would have had it all. The only thing she would have lost, is him. She would have lost him and she couldn't bear that. Not that. Anything but that.

Notice what she said. "My actions made me an orphan again." She does not blame him because she trusts that he had a compelling catalyst which made him do it. She shared his burden because she loved him. She was free of guilt at that stage. She did not need to put herself through that. But she did.

She complied for her sister yes. But would she have done so if Shyam made that proposition to her? Hell no! She would have whacked him on his slimy head with her sparkly heels. In the ME, she proved that she would not do anything that Shyam said, even if he put her in a very tight situation. She fought her way out and turned the table on him with ruthlessness she picked up from the original ice king, her lord and love, Arnav Singh Raizada. The man for whom she would do anything. Why? Because she loves him.

I won't include a link for the suicide terrace scene as it is fresh in everyone's minds. She looked at her fallen stars.

Watch this. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QQqGwAY24ZA&feature=plcp

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You know why those stars are so special to her? Because she saw the real Arnav under their presence. She saw the Arnav that wanted to apologize for her pain. The one that understood her, no matter how painful it was. The one who wanted to make it all go away from her life, making her whole again. The one in front of whom she could be herself without any inhibitions. The one who would move heaven and hell for her. She practically stood naked in front of him. All the hurt, the pain, the longing, the loneliness, the fears, the dreams, the facade, she showed him everything. She held nothing back. She revealed the significance of those stars underneath the sky. She told him everything of her own choice. She wanted him to know everything about her, the way she wanted to know about him. She wanted to share her pain with him and wants him to share his with hers. By vocalising the importance of those stars, she lifted him on a pedestal equal to her parents, her stars.

That is what she knows about Arnav. Her Arnav is not always visible. More often than not, he is trapped behind ASR. But she knows he is there. Always. That's what makes the difference.

She did not lie to her mother. She knows, he tries to make her smile if she is upset. She knows he knows what she likes and dislikes. She knows he would move heaven and hell for her, even get the sun, the stars and the moon for her. She knows he feels her pain more than she does. Then why does she cry? Because she wants to know why he's holding himself back. Why he is in pain? Why isn't he sharing it with her? Why did he make her a stranger, whereas she is th eother part of his soul? Why wants to know where they went wrong? She does not lie, and she knows it. Arnav knows it. They cried for their lost love because of the lack of trust.

She loves the Guptas dearly. Yet, she never shares her pain with anyone. Is she really that different from Arnav? She too doesn't share her pain. She pushes it aside, not wanting to face it till she has to. She hides behind a carefully crafted mask.

The only person she shares it with, is Arnav. And the only person he shares it with, without fear, is Khushi. Yes, he opens up to Anjali and why wouldn't he? But he lets it all out in front of her because he knows he can be the man he is, he can show her his darkest colours, knowing that she is bright enough to overpower them, leaving only the white behind.

Then the airport scene.

Why does it matter? It's because it's you that matter! If it was someone else, than it would not have mattered! I won't be able to breathe if you leave!"

It is only him that matters. Only him. No one else. For him she would willingly jump off the edge. For him she would crush her spirit. For him, anything. Absolutely anything. She has faith. A faith so strong that it can withstand anything. Faith given to her by Arnav himself, when he hoped and vocalised under Ranjha's disguise: Yaha na sahi, shayad kahi aur koyi duniya hogi jahan tum aur main kabhi alaag nahi honge. He promised her, if not in the realm of the living, they will forever be together in the land of the death, where they will never be separated. With each other forever. In togetherness, happiness, love and faith.

It is this promise of his that gives her strength. This is because she was able to take that leap of faith. He saved her yes. But she did take that leap. She made the ultimate sacrifice. She was going to die for him and she embraced that knowledge, ecstatic that she was able to give him that ultimate joy. The joy of being happy with the one he loved the most. Can she love him any more?

Then at the airport, she tried to hold on to him. She tried to stop him. She did everything she possibly could. And she succeeded. She made him love her for who she is. Her love prevailed. Her innocence shone through.

Now all that's left is fate to give them that one opportunity. Just one moment to be together. Just one second would be enough. Even if they are separated after that, it wouldn't matter. Because they would know they had each other. Because they knew that in the end, they would be together. If not alive, then in death.

At this stage, they are looking forward to their deaths. Because it would mean that they would be together. For them, it's a mean to the end. Their death would be their heaven.

You still want prove of how much Khushi loves Arnav? She wrote his name in a jalebi! That, my friends, is a true testament of how much she loved him. Don't believe me? Watch the video again.

Thanks,

Nazifa

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you brought out all the points well.

how she lets him touch her.

how she gave in only when he threw her out of his life and she herself stalled the engagement

the way she runs behind him even now

the way the stars meant so much to her because she saw the real arnav

beautifully and accurately analyzed.

let us see when arnav understand this side of her and worships her for what she is and puts her in the pedestral she puts him

whenever I feel down I'm sure going to be reading this again... it put a BIG smile on my face 😃

TFS, much appreciated

Khushi deserves 100% of his love. We know that their moment will happen, because Ranjha can NEVER exist without Heer. Instead he would die WITH her.

Your words are very emotional and provoking! and I agree, she fell for the devil, and notice that she does not regret A SINGLE SECOND of it because she has been able to make that special place in Arnav's heart.

BEAUTIFUL POST, very thoughtful, thorough, and touching! :)

The way you described Khusi's POV it was just amazing and it is indeed right that Arnav no matter how ruthless he is he is the ONLY one for her. I mean trying to prove herself infront of arnav even after behaving so badly that anyone will shatter proves that how much she loves him.

I won't say much because if i start on Arnav and Khushi, i'll probably write a whole essay. Would just like to state the fact that if you look at the video (25th Oct 2011), you'll also notice that with Arnav, she's happy. She's vibrant and wants him. With Shyam, she just looks bored. Trust me, i thought she looked extremely bored with the way he was complimenting her.

And that's the whole game in the story. She loves Arnav. Simple as that. And she will obviously want to fulfill every desire of her loved one. With Shyam, that is not the case, lest the difference of attitudes in the comparison between Khushi's married life with Arnav and Shyam.