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Hey guys...Im back with an OS...:)...do read it...
He had pleaded with her, he had begged for her forgiveness but all she would say was," I don't understand why you are apologizing.You are Arnav Singh Raizada. You could do no wrong. As a matter of fact,you have done nothing wrong. You just told me what you thought about me. I am actually grateful you told me. Now at least I know where I stand in your eyes and what you have thought about me after all the time we spent together." Saying this,she would walk away from there as if nothing had happened.
Its just something that I would love to see when Arnav realizes the truth and he is trying to win Khushi back...so this takes place after the kidnapping track(i hope the misunderstanding is cleared by then!!!)...so yeah...this is way ahead of the current track...hope you all like it...:)
PART 1:Below
PART 2:Page 6
PART 1:Below
PART 2:Page 6
SS:Hearbeats alien to me
Part 1
Part 1
Do listen to this song...its beautiful
[YOUTUBE]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IbxrH44Afko[/YOUTUBE]"I wish I could fall in love, though it only leads to trouble, oh I know it does. Still I'd fool myself and gladly just to feel I was in love, in love. I wish I could feel my heartbeat rise, and gaze into some gentle, warm, excited eyes. -Anonymous
How could Khushi Kumari Gupta Singh Raizada always be happy? Or at least, she did an excellent job of pretending to be happy. She would smile,laugh,joke around, take care of everyone so that at the end of the day everyone thought that her life was perfect and she wasn't troubled in the least. These were the very thoughts of Arnav Singh Raizada as he stared at the blank screen of his laptop seated on his recliner in the confines of "their" room listening to the tinkling laughter of his wife echo through the mansion.
But only Arnav Singh Raizada knew that she was anything but happy. Everyone was as far as from the real Khushi as he was even though he was married to her and shared the same room with her. Why wouldn't he be? After all, he was the one who had shattered her with his grossly misjudged venomous words and his vocalized thoughts about her character every time he had gotten a chance, the most recent one being when he revealed to her what he had thought was the truth about her and Shyam. He closed his eyes as pain coursed through his heart remembering about that dark day when he had wronged the woman who he claimed to love just because he didn't trust her enough.
He knew no number of apologies would work this time. This time was different because he had not just humiliated her. He had wound her soul,her heart and the virtue that she valued the most, her self-respect. He had called her a woman without any morals,he had doubted her up-bringing and what was more, he had thought her to be desperate enough to make a married man fall in love with her.
He was ashamed, no, he felt disgusted with himself, with his thoughts. He couldn't even apologize to her. It was not that he had not apologized to her.
His thoughts were interrupted as the very object of his thoughts entered the room. He observed her carefully and saw that she was tired. She had dark circles under her eyes and her face wouldn't give anyone the idea that it was the same woman who was laughing downstairs a few minutes ago. Her skin was pale as if she was being deprived of nutrition. There was no spark or the twinkle of mischief in her eyes. Her eyes held nothing but wearisome as if being happy was a tiresome job that she had to do everyday. Seeing her like this guilt rose in him once again.
She exhaled deeply and closing her eyes,sighed. Another day over, another day of pretense has ended, she thought. She opened her eyes to meet a pair of guilty brown eyes looking at her keenly. Some other day when things were better,those same eyes would make her heartbeats race and make her blush. But not today. Today,the holder of those eyes made her angry and hate him even more. She had all the reasons to hate him'her life was a living hell because of him, she no longer wanted to smile and laugh because of him, she cried herself to sleep every night because of him, she was forced to tolerate a cheap man's moves on her everyday because she was in a forced marriage with him.
And yet, her treacherous heart beat only for him and despite of everything he had done to her, her heart couldn't stop loving him and caring for him. But Khushi Kumari Gupta Singh Raizada had vowed against the protests of her heart on the day he had called her a characterless woman that she would never let the man in front of her know how badly he had hurt her and how he had shattered her from inside. How his accusations had killed her a thousand times. How she had felt when the arrogant man she had so foolishly fallen in love with had broken her and she would never be the same again.
And so, she straightened herself, and walked over to the bathroom to refresh herself and retire for the night. She came out to see her husband in the same position but his eyed closed in defeat. She hated to see him in such a vulnerable position but then she remembered all that had happened and hardened her heart and walked away to the poolside to spend some time alone with the only people who understood her, her parents.
He stood up from the recliner and went outside to where she was sitting staring at the sky, searching for her parents in the infinite stars spread out in the sky. Her back stiffened as she sensed his presence behind herbut she didn't turn around.
He went and sat next to her to join her in her star gazing. Without moving her eyes off stars, she asked him,"Do you need anything, Arnavji?"
Arnav shook his head in response and returned back to the search for the stars. Khushi feeling uncomfortable with the awkward silence, stood up and was about to walk back into the room when she felt a tug at her wrist. She looked back to see Arnav standing and holding her wrist.
She looked at him with questioning eyes, and in answer he came closer to her till he was standing right in front of her,the distance between them
less than a feet. He then let go of her wrist and bringing his hands up to her face,cupped her face gently and said,
"Khushi, I wanted to ask you a question. And its very important for me to know its answer."
Khushi was confused. She had answered all his questions and as far as she knew all his doubts about her and Shyam had been cleared. What more could this man want to know from her? Hadn't she proven her innocence yet?
Her heart was beating against her chest, she had not learned to tame it around him yet and she doubted she would ever be able to.
But all her doubts and thoughts flew out of her mind when the next moment, Arnav left her face, enclosed his hand in one of hers and brought it up to his chest, where his heart was beating. She felt his heart pounding against his chest and she raised her eyes to meet his and she saw something that had yearned to see in those chocolate brown eyes'love,warmth and tenderness.
He spoke, his voice choked up with emotion," I have thought about this ever since I met you but I failed to find the answer to it. I was hoping you could answer it. Why does my heart beat start racing whenever I am close to you? Why do I feeling like its going to burst out of my chest whenever you touch me or smile at me? I tried to stop it,forget it and stay away from you but I just can't fight it. Please, tell me, I need to know the answer to it."
Khushi stared with eyes wide with realization as the man in front of him whom she loved and hated at the same time uttered the exact words that she had spoken to him under the influence of Bhaang before she had fainted in those very arms on Holi. She drew in a breath and looked into his eyes to see only warmth and pain mingled with guilt, a lot of guilt.
So how was it??Is it worth a second part or should i just end it here?
Do tell me...!Comment and like!!appreciation and criticism equally welcome!!!worked really hard for it and trust me it took a lot of time to write...!!!i know it was all sad but hey...its not my fault the current track just made me all gloomy!!
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DEVANSHI
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