sigh..finally what a beautiful episode..
First Khushi witnessing Arnav and the employee that gets her to think of her raj kumar and shetan both wrapped in to one illusive person..the person she has fallen in love with..the person she has married..the person who hurts her the most n the person who loves her the most...
she is baffled and thus starts the journey of self searching and a journey towards the truth..she is determined to get to the bottom of it, for she realzies the reason can't be something petty for him to walk away so far from his ideals..
and then the moment between mother and daughter..finally finally a vital scene...that was such a lacking until now..a heart to heart talk b/w mother and daughter..where the little daughter weaves a fairytale in her mother's eyes to keep her away from worrying..relaying all the dreams she had of a husband..all the dreams that have been broken in to pieces that can never be joined together..wishes she made all her life, that never got fulfilled and only ever will remain wishes...
and he listens on, while she paints a picture of love, innocence and dreams...everything he had broken..yet she is safeguarding him..safeguarding her mother..caring for both while pushing aside her pain, her tears, her despair...
and he sees another facet of the woman he fell in love with..the side that cares for the whole world at the peril of her happiness...the side which sacrifices..the side that brings a smile on anyone's faces..the side that is selfless.the side that will do anything to make others happy and relaxed..while she suffers in silence..her tears a testimony of it..of her pain..
and then the precap...he reminiscent...he can't sleep for he is guilty..his conscience will not let him sleep peacefully, while in her innocence she sleeps soundly..no demons to trouble her sleep for her conscience is clean..and he stays awake watching her..hearing her words...reverberating again and again saying , showing how much he has taken from her...
and certainly the doubts of how a woman he thinks to be a liar, a cheat a homebreaker, a god digger meshes with this selfless angel who gives everything without expecting a single thing in return..he is confused once again..
and then he sleeps holding her hand tightly clasped in his..
he wants to hurt her..but seeing just how much he has hurt her..how much he has taken away in this short span of time he regrets..he dearly regrets..for after all he loves her..loves her more than life itself..
what a paradox for both of them...
yet beautiful beyond measure...the gnawing pain..the sweet ache behind that underlying dignity..self respect..war b/w truth and lies..love and hate...
they brought the essence of IPKKND back today..
Nafrat paas ane na de...Mohobbar door jane na de..
I cried today..after a long time i wept watching IPKKND..the quiet pain so profound..so beautifully portrayed...the lost shattered dreams almost tangible..just beautiful..
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