Oh... ghoom phir ke we're back at the same place.
Omki please remember the straw that broke the camel's back the first time over. Apni galti mat dohraao.
Not everything is black and white... Life is pretty much made up of shades of grey and making the distinction between the different shades is where a person's emotional capabilities lie. For too long Omkara has been thinking in absolutes.
If someone as experienced as you couldn't control yourself, why have the expectation that your innocent wife will not be terribly confused and/or scared at the events?
Calling it a mistake might be a trigger but love and relationships can't be forced or brought to life at the insistence of one party. If you scare her off now, we're back to square one buddy.
I think this much of my incoherent rambling is enough for now.
Loved the update, can't wait for more.