ShivIka OS - Need You

Shivaay Singh Oberoi sat in the rain, his eyes bloodshot, his hair a mess. The natural storm didn't matter. Why need Mother Nature when his own mother is capable of creating such powerful, nasty storms?

How much ever did he try, the evening's events just wouldn't stop playing themselves in front of him.

He closed his eyes tightly, hoping against hope, that everything would just vanish, the reality would evaporate, or maybe hide beneath a foggy mask of a happy situation.

His face in his hands, bent like he ws defeated, he sat. His body shook violently in the rain. His anger, pain and the coldness around doing no good. A few moments later, he felt her around. He knew she would find him but he was in no mood to talk to anyone.

She took small steps towards him and stopped only when she was in front of him. The picture that he had painted around himself, the gloomy aura, the haunting air bit at Anika. Taking a deep breath, she pushed the umbrella away from himself, over his head.

Shivaay breathed. Now that the water wasn't reaching his body, the cold cut through his drenched clothes, his shivering growing by the second. Anika looked at him, alarmed at his condition. Before she could think of a way to keep him warm, Shivaay stood and pulled her close, hands wrapping around her, he pulled her close.

Anika wrapped her free hand around him, stroking his back. "Shivaay..."

"Anika, I am sorry. I am really really sorry. Whatever you had to face today, the humiliation, the pain, the gnawing at you, what you are, I am sorry that it had to happen. All of it is my fault. I can't apologize enough, it won't do any good but I really am sorry. Sorry that my mom could stoop so low, in the name of what she calls love and looking out for me."

Anika silenced him by placing her hand on his lips. "Shivaay, don't take quick decisions. Pinky aunty was actually blinded by her love for you. She is a mother Shivaay, and if she feels that I am snatching you from her, maybe she is..."

"Don't speak a word." Shivaay spoke through gritted teeth. Anika's eyes widened as he pushed himself away from her. "Shivaay..."

"Anika, why do you have to side her even now? Even when she was about to ruin your life, snatch the foundations of what you have made yourself. Stop saying that her being my mom justifies everything. It might, but it does no good to me. Ever since we married, she has grown so obsessive of me, so ambitious of having me for herself. I took it as her naivity all along but her recent actions cannot be justified. Doing everything to humiliate you, each barb thrown at you. Why can't she just accept that you are very important to me? The way she loves me..." He stopped. Anika looked at him, her breath hitched.

It took a lot for Shivaay to grasp this in him. Of course a tiny part of him knew all along. But the abrupt situation, the sword of misunderstandings hanging at their necks did no good.

The strong winds shook the umbrella out of Anika's hands. Water touched Shivaay's skin again, doing a great job with cooling himself. Anika shivered and Shivaay immediately wrapped his arms around her. Anika crumbled into his arms, the cold water doing no good.

"Anika, I know that I am Shivaay Singh Oberoi, but just because of this, why am I not given a chance to live? Why am I suppressed under this burden? Honestly, I have no problem. I can and will always do anything and everything for my family. But then, can I not expect someone to hold me up when I am about to fall. No doubt Om, Rudra and even mom do everything they can to help me. But doesn't mom always pull me down? Ever since Daksh fed her lies, why does she not want to accept that you are my wife. Why does she get jealous? Jealous that my wife is distancing me from my mom. Why isn't she happy that I found someone who is my equal, someone with whom I have a completely different shade? Okay fine, the mother in her is protective, but doesn't the same mother let her see how happy I am? I am her heera-jaisa beta but when has she believed in me. When I said Tia cannot be pregnant with my child, she opposed me. Even when she knows me. She didn't trust me. Now when I say that you are perfect for me, she is adamant that she knows better. Heck, she doesn't even know me for that matter. Why should I let it go Anika? Am I not human? And if even you think that I cannot stop being the Great Wall of Shivaay Singh Oberoi for a few moments, I don't know you. I am ready to take my family burdens, I am happy to do that. But do I not deserve someone who doesn't let me be her wall. Who insists on being the wall's shield? As Rudra calls you, do I not deserve an Angel? I can't take this Anika. I will break under this. Mom thinks she is being my shield but why can't she understand that I love you! Main tumse pyaar karta hun Anika, I can't live without you." Shivaay hand been crying but as he finished speaking, his voice lowered. "Why can't she find happiness in my happiness?"

"Shivaay..."

"Anika, it would be better you talk about me loving you rather than giving justification for Mom's actions." He smiled slightly.

Anika stopped for no longer than a second, "I love you too Shivaay, I really do."

Shivaay rested his forehead against hers. "These words do no justification to what we share, they cannot. But Anika, today, this is just Shivaay, being selfish and asking you for somethings. Would you care to listen?"

Anika nodded positively, her eyes closed as she lived in the moment.

"I want you to stand by me Anika. Om, Rudra always say that they are with me but I cannot let that happen. It isn't that they cannot handle themselves or that I do not care for you. It's just that being with you, you being by my side gives me a different assurance. They are my life, but they are something I might want to care for like delicate pieces. Whenever I deal with problems, you are with me, I want you with me. I might not ever be able to explain it to anyone but I want to be with you Anika. The trust, understanding, the equation and the tadi we share..." Shivaay smiled through his words just like Anika whose smile wasn't bugging a bit "... Is something so beautifully unexplainable, I do not want to lose it."

"Neither do I Shivaay..." Anika smiled. And just like that, Shivaay leaned in, pressing his lips against hers pulling her closer. Anika's body had gone stiff and Shivaay had wondered if he had done something wrong but Anika pushed herself on her toes and kissed him back. They stood there, the storm hiding their bond from the world. What they have, is for them only. Absolutely no one has the rights to break into their personal haven.

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