There were so many things that I liked about today's episode but mostly I loved Shivvay's Introspection - I wanted it and I got it at last!!!
Today, again we saw 'Mere Shivvay' and he was out in full form and dressed in all his glory.
Mere Shivvay hugged me in relief in order to comfort himself that I was behind his 'Great Wall' now and nothing could harm me anymore, fed me without worrying about me gaining weight and being anything but the perfect hour glass figure that he thought was the right thing for me to be, cried for my loneliness as an orphan and the sadness that came with it, lamented over my childhood or rather the lack of it, felt self-loathing at the monster he had turned into the day he married me and actually made a vow to try and kill that monster inside him so that he would never resurface again.
Sigh!!! Mere Shivvay ❤️ (As in Annik'a Shivvay)
My pet peeve after ShivIka married had always been that they always gave us Annika's introspection but never Shivvay's, till I realized one day that his could not clash with hers as his would be in a far greater depth (because of his redemption) than hers. Annika's introspection was examining her feelings and her fears but Shivvay's is examining his whole identity as to who he is.
Is he Shivvay Singh Oberoi, the hollow and empty man obsessed with the false glitter that the 'Foolsgold' Naam, Khoon and Khandaan brought with it OR was he 'Annika's Shivvay' who recognized true and solid 24 carat gold when he saw it even though it was hidden under a layer of humility and simplicity.
Shivvay's inner thoughts, turmoil, flashbacks, realization, regret, silent and verbal confession, mental and physical rage aimed at himself and most of all, his acknowledgement that there were 2 Shivvays inside him was so amazing to watch.
There was 'Mere Shivvay' and 'Shivvay Singh Oberoi' battling for control. Just like there is 'Sirf Annika' and 'Annika Shivvay Singh Oberoi' but here there is no conflict whatsoever.
This is what I was waiting for. For him to acknowledge that there were 2 Shivvay's, not just Shivvay Singh Oberoi. Everyone knew, thanks to dear Rudy, that there was a Shivvay version 2 but it was never acknowledged by Shivvay himself till today. Today he came to terms with the fact that there was a battle waging within himself and it had nothing whatsoever to do with his 'Perfect Annika'. It was he who was the imperfect one - not her.
She was like the monk who had journeyed, toiled and experienced life for what it was and had already attained enlightenment that one was oneself - not what the world labelled them to be. The world labelled her as an orphan but she never labelled herself as one. She was Annika and she belonged to Sahil then and now to Shivvay as well. She was no orphan no matter what the world said.
That is what he had to work towards and he was already beginning to see that his road towards 'Sirf Shivvay' was going to be an arduous and emotionally exhausting journey. He did not have the advantage of the rough and difficult life that Annika had led.
She had already walked through the intense burning fire since she was a little child, had come out unscathed leaving the darkness behind her and had in the process purified her soul and spirit to shine with the aura she so proudly enveloped herself with today. 'Sirf Annika' was the magic mantle that she wrapped around herself that protected her from anyone judging her to be otherwise. She had toiled to weave that mantle with her blood, sweat and tears and there was no way she was going to lose that ever. It was her crown and her aura.
In comparison he admitted that he was the pampered and sheltered one since birth, surrounded constantly by people who loved, cared and adored him not matter what he did. She too had recently joined that group of people and that did not help in bringing down his false pride but it sure showed him a mirror to examine himself. Standing with her, sharing that mirror, made him realize how dull his false outward shine was compared to her inner beauty.
And to think she, the Goddess', loved him inspite of his shortcomings and sins was enough to make him feel like the lowlife he knew he was. It made him cringe to see the man he had been all his life.
How did one wean oneself from such luxury of love and adoration, decide to renounce such worship and adulation that came with the name and live the life of a hermit as a nobody'? Was he less brave than she was? She did it every single day without blinking an eyelid. She rejected his Naam, Khandaan and the privileges that came with it without a second thought. What was this woman he had married made of??
My thoughts on Shivvay's stowaway Pinky
REPOSTED FROM ANISA'S POST AND EDITED:
While everyone is focused on ShivIka, somehow, for some weird reason, I am more focused on Shivvay-Pinky rather than Shivvay-Annika.
I know... I know ... this is supposed to be about Annika and her past while Shivvay's journey's towards understanding 'Sirf Annia' but I keep getting attracted towards the 'stowaway' that he has accompanying him on this quest of self realization.
I know she is just the catalyst here and there is going to be a major change in the ShivIka relationship because of her but I cannot shake off the feeling that it is not Shivvay but she who is going to stumble upon something that is going to turn her world upside down.
She is egging Shivvay on, hoping that Annika's past is going to generate enough disgust from Shivvay to loathe even being in the same room with her but somehow I feel it is Pinky who is going to experience the self-loathing, in the end, for an act she might have done in her past.
This uncovering of Annika's past is going to cost Pinky her mother-son relationship
How you ask???!!!
Well!!! Either in the usual clich way (if the writer wants to stick to the same old overused plot) where Shivvay finds out that Pinky was behind all this and was tampering with evidence to separate Shivika, and completely loses his cool with his devious mother. But then that would be the usual mother-son clash where blameless Annika would be blamed as the reason for her losing her son and again she is part of the collateral damage as usual.
Sigh!!! More tears, more sacrifice and higher TRP's from the sobbing and cursing TRP aunties who will be beating their chest in pride and woe at (their version of- not ours) the Perfect Bahu'.
This scene, if it plays out has room for Pinky to win her son back because we know Annika would never let a mother lose her child. It will be put down to the many insecurities of a mother with an only child and all will be forgotten and forgiven in 2-3 episodes. So, nope, not the way I would like it to play out. It would be too dull to watch.
OR INSTEAD ( I hope - fingers crossed)
It will come about in a rather unusual way, and that in my opinion (as a humble writer) would be so fantastic and creative to experience. Imagine Pinky the stowaway uncovers something from her past sins that is completely unrelated to Shakti but directly related to her securing Shivvay's future.
Just Imagine This Plot:
Imagine that she was the person who disconnected the call that Dadi heard ringing in the house the day Ashok burned himself. We all know how much Shivvay was affected by that death and the promise he made his Dadi that night.
Imagine that the chemical factory incident is related to Annika's parents (indirectly) and that was the secret that Ashok had uncovered. Imagine for one minute that she was the person who unknowingly, was the cause of Annika and Gauri being orphans. We all know that in this journey Shivvay is going to come to loathe the people from Annika's nightmare and the people who were the cause of those nightmares. What will this man do when he discovers that it was his very own mother who was the culprit behind what happened.
Imagine what a state she would be in when she finds out (towards the end) that she had set the wheels in motion for her own son to discover the secret that she had and will kill to keep buried. Would she at that point risk silencing her own son for the sake of that NKK or will she sacrifice and risk losing her son.
Imagine now, she stands at the crossroads where she now has to choose between her son's life and her son's hatred for the rest of her life.
Imagine!!!
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