Okay my take...
Its just a phase... In their relationship... You can't make permanent tags to anything...
You call Shivaay's love selfish... When he literally gave his life for her..?
Nahi...Its just that the situations make u think so..
Shivaay is way different..!
The real him inside is the most confused person...
As a result we get... Sau Rangi Shivaay like Anika calls him..!
Thats exactly what tgis story is about...
How will this ever confused soul who is sau rangee realise the shade of love in his life.
He is now in the shade in which obsession and guroor(ego) dominate.
He wants her to be affected because he is affected..!
He wants her to say it, cause she questioned his ehsaas..
Asked him to say it out... But he has never beem the one to obey, and give in..
There u go his head takes it as a challenge to make her say it..!
His ego was hurt.. When she said ki I have no ehsaas no memory...
Now he is making her realise that EHSAAS HAIN...!
EHSAAS will always be there..!
He cant accept the fact that THOSE EHSAAS... Should be forgotten by her...
He himself might not know the reason why,..
But his heart knows... Its the only possession his heart treasures... Those ehsaas...
Which even his heart has to realise is love.!
In short... His lack of understanding of love is making him explore different emotions he can... You know associate between them...
He will try all emotions...
Be it hate... Compassion...
Be it being a friend to being wirse than enemy...
Its going to be a long ride..!
The process in him finally finding out its love and then staying in peace will be like the journey of a river.
Melting from the cold.
Up the mountains..
Down into the valley..
Facing the rocks.
Going up n down the plateau.
Being stagnant in the plains..
Finally meeting the ocean n finding peace.
The above is my take on it..
Views n opinions may differ.