Anika...
I am having a disease. Yes it's a deadly disease. Very poisonous for me. I assume so. And this is not taking a name to leave me. It has captured my mind, body and soul. Crap!
This is getting worse. It's getting under my nerves. Its changing everything. Nd i am not being able to control what's happening within me.
My latest job was to run from my so called husband. Yes... my very own Husband, Mr. Shivaay Singh Oberoi. Nd it seems to be such a difficult task. I have never lost hope in whatever I do, but i feel I am gonna lose this one, that too the badest way possible. Nd the worsest thing about all this, is this bloddy nd stupid "Ghanti", that keeps on ringing when he's nearing me. I have tried my best to stop this thing from ringing, but it just doesn't. But yeah... it's fading off slowly.
I can clearly see that he is annoyed with me. He is been deliberately trying to catch a convo wid me. I felt bad and I too yearned to see him. My heart aches to see his Kanji eyes trying its best to see a glimpse of me. But I couldn't turn away from what i have decided. That I would stay away from him, cuz I felt that it's the best way to cure this disease i am suffering from.
"The Disease!" This takes me back to the moment I confessed my feelings for him in the confined area where only two souls where present... Me and My Husband. Those dreadly happenings are still fresh in my mind.
When I saw him lie lifeless, the whole world stopped for me. My heart too. I just couldn't see the Great Shivaay Singh Oberoi lying down like that. Immobile. With great difficulty i got him inside the house. I was going crazy as he didnt even move a bit whilst I tried to wake him in all ways possible.
All thanks to Rudra that i went in search of that medicine purse. I really had a tough time finding it. The thorns poked me. The Sharp braches of the tree scraped my skin. I was wounded but i didn't care at the least. All i wanted was, him awake. I yearned to see his kanji eyes that was now hidden in an unconscious state. I frantically searched for that purse nd finally i spotted it. I pulled it out wid all my force and ran back to him. I fed him the medicines nd was waiting for him to open his eyes nd see me once again.
When the response was taking too long i realized I was crying more fearing i am going to lose the man of my life. It was like someone was strangling me to death. Nd it was getting worse, I was choking nd heart felt so tight. I couldn't stand the sight before my eyes. I cannot see him like this anymore. I vigorously shook his body.
I realized that he meant something more than a person i know, with whom I was destined to get married in a helpless situation.
"I LOVE U"
These words escaped my lips without my knowing. I confessed that i couldnt couldn't live without him. I wanted to have my own story with him. I wanted to live a beautiful life with him just like "happily ever after". But seeing him lying stiff, I wondered whether my dreams will be crushed.
I placed my face on his nd tears rolled down nd i closed my eyes, feeling him against my skin. I held him close.
Suddenly I felt a movement. I pulled myself up and saw him stir. I felt like my world is now alive. It was lit with a thousand lights. I helped him up nd we stare.
"I thought I lost u" I told him. He looked at me with care and something more that i couldnt decipher that moment. The tears didnt stop nd i fell into his arms letting them flow. To feel him once again. To assure that he was alright nd he was wid me...wid me.
I held him tight nd clutched his shirt. He caressed my hairs. I pulled back nd still was staring at him. I couldn't express how happy I felt to see him alright. The whole world's happiness was filled in that moment.
Even in such a situation he was concerned about my wounds. "Oh how much i love this man!" My heart flodded with happiness.
He thanked me nd all I could do was love him more.
I assured him nd he did the same. He promised me, and something happened i never ever expected.
He dipped his head and placed his lips over mine. I was soo exhausted in every way that i closed my eyes nd let it happen. We kissed. It was the first kiss of my life.
A pure bliss.
A promise.
Emotions overflowed. I let him do. He parted nd i buried my head into his chest. I didn't need anything more..was what i thought.
Now i am standing nd realized that a tear had made its way down on my cheek. I quickly wiped it off. But soon i knew that it all just happened. Shivaay did that to calm me nd it meant nothing more. That man cared so much for me...just because I am his responsibility. Nd nothing more.
I kept myself far away from him as possible. But my mind wouldn't stop from thinking about him.
"Urrghh!! This wretched feeling is making me go nutss!!" I cursed.
Nd this disease is name as "LOVE"!!
"Holy Shitt!!" I muttered.
Nd Mr.SSO urf Bhagad Billa made it damn difficult for me.
"Argh!" I hate my fate for that fall. It stirred in those feelings that were supposed to be declining...to be shut nd never open. The closeness sent my heart in a rapid rate of speed.
His blue eyes bore into mine nd i couldn't resist them nd stared. I felt him leaning in nd my orbs started dilating.
"Is he gonna kiss me again? Pls God plss! Don't play the hell wid me" I prayed
But what he did almost made my eyes pop off the sockets. He nuzzled my cheek down till my neck. His lips brushed my skin nd butterflies burst in my belly. I pushed him with all my force and ran out of sight.
I know.. I hell know what he must be feeling.
Shit! Shitt! I cursed once again.
I was breathing hard. What on the earth does this man do to me? I wondered. He made my pulse race with just that intense gaze of his. I couldn't seem to control myself in front of him. He is driving me insane. To hell with him!!
I suddenly ran down my fingers where his nose and lips were some moments ago. I closed my eyes tight nd felt it. I felt a shudder run down my spine.
"Why? Why?..."
"Its Love!" A voice said from the back of my mind.
"No it's not!" I said firmly.
"Its just addiction nd a hell lot of attraction" I screamed.
"Deny...how much ever u want... you cant run away from the truth, can u??" It said
"Shut up! Shut the hell up!"
But the voice danced around...
"Its Love my dear...its pure love... " nd it repeated. I shut my ears nd splashed cold water on my face.
I should stay away from this guy. He is so damn dangerous. With that i left the washroom. Vowing to not see him again.
I was a bit happy cuz i stayed away from that man for a whole day.
"The man of ur heart!" That voice came again.
"No" i said...
For a moment all the moments spent with him flashed in my mind. Those moments that i have never shared in my life with anyone.
My mind was flooded with his memories. Nd Blast! It made me smile.
"Damn!"
No Anika...u should stay away...nd he is not the man of ur heart! Understood.
It was time nd i knew he must have left for office. Nd i entered my room nd got the shock of my life. My heart started beating fast. Before I could leave he caught sight of me.
"Stop" he said. I stood but thought to ignore.
"Stop right there, now!" He roared and i froze.
He took long strides nd i backed. Within a fraction of a second he caught my wrist nd i dashed into his toned chest.
My heart was thudding wildly against his. To my utter surprise...his wasnt less anyway. His eyes bore into my soul. I saw anger, frustration nd pain in them.
"Pain?!"
Before I could think anymore he questioned me.
"Why?"
"What Why?" I said.
"Don't play games with me Anika. I am in no mood for them. Why?"
"I am too in mood for games."
He closed his eyes.
"Why- are - ignoring - me? W-H-Y?" He asked patiently but his voice was deep and cold as his eyes.
"I am not..."
"Don't u dare Anika. Don't u dare tell me that u aren't doing it." His cold voice cut in.
He pulled me closer till I we were pressed into each other.
"I don't find it important to answer u." I said coolly.
Suddenly I felt myself being dragged until my body hit the cold walls. His arm still around me nd his hard muscular body flushed into my soft one.
"You should Anika. Nd u have to." He demanded coldly.
"Nd why on the earth should I?"
"Cuz it's ur right."
"Of..."
"Of being my wife Dammit! Nd i have the right to question u being ur Husband!" He said cutting my wrds off. His orbs piercing like Ice.
I stood there dumbfound.
"Did he just tell that i am his wife...nd he accepted that he is my husband?!" I couldn't digest it.
"Still... I don't want to."
"Why this indifference? U seem to be alright with the others. You are really behaving so weird after the night we came back from that jungle? What is bothering you please tell me Anika. Please."
I stood there watching the man trying to be as patient as he can. His eyes reflected pain. I just stood there and stared.
"Pls.. have I done something wrong?"
I shook my head in a no.
"Then...is...is it about the ki...kiss that we shared?" He asked. I didn't breathe a word
"Tell me Anika. Do u think what i did was wrong. Was it a mistake. Was i being to rough...or Did...did I hurt u. I can never Anika... I cant hurt u..nd I didn't mean to... it...it..." nd i shusshed him with my finger on his lips. I looked into his eyes.
"I know Shivaay... you can never hurt me intentionally. And its not about the kiss. Nd its not a mistake. Instead...it was a beautiful moment of my life Shivaay. Something that made me feel good. It was never a mistake Shivaay... never." I assured him as I cupped his cheeks nd tried to calm him.
My tongue was not in my control. Words just rolled off like that. I saw his facial muscles relax. He heaved a sigh of relief.
"Indeed... it was a moment for a lifetime." He said sofly placing his forehead on mine nd closing his eyes as a smile tugged at his lips. I was surprised.
"Kissing me was a moment for lifetime for him? Seriously?!" But all these thoughts were slowly pushed back. All i could see, think nd breathe was Shivaay, standing so close to me.
Damn! He had that effect on me.
My eyes roamed over his beautiful carved face. My thumb caressed his cheek.
I slowly withdrawed my hands.
"Then y? What is the problem that u r avoiding me? Why aren't u speaking to me? Why r u going away from me? Why Anika? Why?"
"Why? U never wanted me to be around u right. I am just being an guest. Who is staying here... cuz i am married to u. U were the one who told me right... that i am being your wife... so i am just being myself. Nd why is it bothering u now?"
I felt his hold tighten on me. His eyes pierced into mine.
"It does bother me Anika. Ur silence does bother me...ur ignorance bothers me Anika. Everything u do does bother me. Do you even know, how i felt without talking to you. How i I felt without seeing u. What went through when ur presence was not beside me? Do u know?" He almost shouted.
He pulled me more close, our noses getting half squashed, his forehead burying into mine.
"You are my wife... nd what ever u do, does bother me do u get that!" He said, his voice cold and deep sending shivers down my body.
His dark blue eyes were like the wide sea with roaring waves. Pain and anger flowing in them. I couldn't belive that i effected the Great Shivaay Singh Oberoi so much. I was shocked to the core. Did he really mean them? Or was he just addicted to me?
"Now tell me... u still haven't answered me. Y Anika? Just tell me y?" He screamed losing all his temper.
"Because I Love You Shivaay. I love u. I love u..."
Edited by lucky_princess - 8 years ago
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