Next morning rudra woke up with a terrible headache and sat in bed cursing himself for getting drunk and for not controlling his emotions.emotions which take a troll over him and bring out the worst in him. this time that dominating emotion was jealousy and it might have brought out the worst in him, he swore. rudra's eyes somehow landed on the glass of fresh lime water kept on the side table, he drank it and thanked the one who kept it.
"good morning..."
rudra looked at Om and wished him the same and wondered the reason behind his intense gaze and serious face.
"we need to talk Rudra..."
"did I do anything last night...??" rudra asked unsure of what happened last night.
"apne aap se puchh..." om replied.
"what did I do O..?? shit.. who all saw it..??" rudra asked, still clueless.
"get out of the bed and come here..." Om demanded and crossed his arms against his chest.
rudra stood in front of Om, waiting for an answer or explanation but what he got stunned him.
Om SLAPPED him. (suggestion taken Sanavi đ)
"what was that for...??" rudra asked after recovering from the shock.
"for hurting my sister..."
"prinku is my sister too..." rudra reasoned.
"oh really... Im talking about Saumya..." om replied.
"Saumya... Is this some kind of a joke O..?? why will I hurt sumo...??" rudra asked.
"ask yourself this damn question... all I want to say is that I'm not proud of you and you dont deserve her... how could you accuse her of cheating rudra singh oberoi... how...???"
In that moment, Rudra was reminded of what happened the previous night and how he reacted to the whole situation. how he treated Saumya and how shamelessly he accused his wife of cheating on him. Rudra was disgusted of himself and his behaviour.
"shitt... what did I do O..?? maine saumya ko bahut hurt kar diya O... she will hate me now... how could I...?? I am such a disgusting man... how could I..?? I need to apologise... woh mujhe maaf kar degi na.. agar nahi kiya toh.."
"thats for you to find out... you should be ashamed and guilty... she didnt deserve to be insulted like that..."
"insulted...?? you think I will insult her... I love her O.."
Om left the room and rudra brushed his fingers into his hair, taking in a deep breath.
rudra politely knocked at saumya's bedroom door and waited for the response; but there came none. he knocked again and when there was again no response, he entered the room only to find it was empty. at that moment he occured to him that without her presence, his own bedroom didnt seem like his own. without her presence, nothing made sense. nothing at all.
"she cant leave me.. right...??" rudra whispered, his voice shaking with fear.
he cant even imagine what will happen if she ever leaves him and the thought makes shiver run down his spine. she cant abandon him, for she means the world to him. he might not show her, but she is his world. Infact she is the pivotal point around which his world revolves. a life without her would be like a world without air and water. her absence will be the start of his distruction. his ultimate end.
"no... you cant do this to me saumya..." he whispered.
"arrey Rudra... tum yahan ho aur mujhe lga ke ab mujhe billu ji ko phone karna padega... apne chele chapato ko bol kar woh do minute mein tumhara pta lga lete..."
rudra turned to face anika and faked a smile at her.
"kya hua hai..?? yeh chehra pe 12 kyun bje hue hai..?? bolo devarji.." anika questioned.
"Saumya ko dekha hai kya anika bhabhi...?? woh room mein nahi hai..." rudra asked.
"woh neeche hai... isi liye toh tumko bulane aayi hoon.. chalo jaldi.."
"neeche...?? kyun..??"
"chalo toh sahi..."
Anika dragged rudra downstairs and all of the eyes were on them while his only searching for one. soon his eyes were locked with saumya's until she looked away. this was not a good sign.
"she doesnt even wants to look at me.." rudra whispered under his breath.
"kya fusfusa rahe ho...?? thoda zor so bolo..." said anika.
"arrey main bol raha tha yeh mela kyun lga hua hai aaj ghar mein.." rudra asked anika.
"aao toh sahi dulhe raja..." anika winked at rudra.
"aa gya mera sabse pyaara pota.. rudra yahan aa kar baitho..." said daadi.
rudra sat beside daadi, his eyes never leaving saumya for a second - desperately wishing she would look at him or atleast pass a smile.
"Pandit ji ne tum dono ki shadi ke liye dates nikali hai... fatafat ab tum dono date chunn lo..." said daadi.
"jo saumya decide kare..." rudra replied, his eyes still on saumya.
"lo abhi se joru ka ghulam... dekho jethani ji..." pinky teased and everyone laughed except rumya.
"i want to talk to saumya.. alone.." rudra said and saumya looked at him this time.
"actually I have to rush to college... I have an important lecture..." saumya said and excused herself, making her way to the room upstairs.
rudra followed saumya as a lost puppy and everybody smiled thinking they both need privacy to decide the date and share happiness.
saumya was standing near the window looking outside and rudra bolted the door as he walked in. he needed to talk to her, things needed to be sorted. there n then.
"saumya I'm sorry for last night..." said rudra standing beside saumya.
"dont be sorry rudra.. I must have failed.. you dont trust me enough... I might have done something..."
"no.. its not you... its me.." rudra said.
"No Mr. rudra singh oberoi... Its not you... Its me.. Me.."
saumya said and left the room, carrying her handbag and books.
Rudra stood there by the window shocked and hurt. he couldn't understand why a simple statement like this sounded nothing but rejection.
did she reject him...?? didnt she want him now..?? were they over..??
zillion of questions were arising in his head but he knew answer to none.
it was frustrating but above that it was heart breaking.
were they drifting apart..?? what about their love..?? their marriage...??
In the evening when saumya returned from work, she found every member of oberoi family sitting in the lobby with their eyes on her and on rudra, who was standing in front of them.
"what is happening..??" saumya asked.
"why dont you ask this crack head over here about it...??" om replied.
If saumya was worried when she entered the mansion, she was hundred times more scared and worried now after facing rudra.
"rudra kya hua...??"
Rudra looked at saumya with red moist eyes and an unreadable expression on his face.
something was wrong... again... did he again drink..?? what was that emotion in his eyes...?? was he crying..??
"I cant marry you..."
"what does that mean..?? what do you mean when you say you cant marry me..?? we are married Rudra.." saumya asked with her voice shaking and eyes turning moist.
"Saumya and I are over... we dont deserve each other... And Im even ready to divorce her..."
"what the hell Rudra...??" shivaay exclaimed as he entered the mansion.
he was out for some business trip and returning home, he finds rudra uttering this stuff.
every pair of eyes shifted to Shivaay while his alternating between rudra and saumya, who looked equally heartbroken and sad.
"billu tu dekh na yeh rudra kya bol rha hai... isko bol yeh majaak ab band kare... yeh koi cheez hai majaak karne wali.." daadi told shivaay.
Anika made her way to where saumya stood and wrapped her arm around saumya, who was clearly falling apart. as saumya felt anika's hand around, she broke into tears and she swore she even heard her heart breaking. poor girl she could feel her insides sink; along with her knees. if it wasnt for Anika supporting her, she would have collapsed on the floor by now. there was this pain in her chest an the ache behind her eyes; and she knew for the first time what a heartbreak felt like. it was nothing she thought would be. this was nothing like the pain or disappointment she felt when rehaan pushed her away form his life like a nobody.
"guys in my room NOW..." shivaay ordered his brothers and they followed.
saumya looked at rudra's form and losed her eyes, tears continuously rolling down her cheeks.
"he loves you saumya... cant you see he himself seems devastated...?? billu ji sab theek kar denge.." anika consoled saumya and hoped shivaay would sort the chaos.
"Fill me in guys..." shivaay said.
"I saw saumya with a guy and before I knew In was way too jealous and insecure... I got drunk and I misbehaved with her. I even accused her of cheating on me. O witnessed it and he knows how I unintentionally humiliated and insulted saumya... today morning I wanted to apologize to sumo but before I could there was panditji downstairs. when I went to sumo, it seemed like she doesn't even know me.. and she doesnt wants me.. then all I could think about were O's words. he was right when he said I dont deserve sumo... and when I dont deserve her shivaay bhaiya... its better I let her go... she deserves someone way too better.. someone who loves her with all her heart... someone who will trust her enough to never doubt on her and someone who will never make her cry... someone who isnt me..." rudra told shivaay, his pain increasing with every word he said.
"so you will let her go... just like that... wow rudra.." shivaay exclaimed.
"but I cant do anything to make her look at me the way she used to before last night.. she isnt even looking at me... she clearly hates me..."
"love is a verb.. not a noun. it is active. it not just a feeling of passion and romance. it is behavior. but you know what... sometimes we hurt the ones we love the most... life is complicated, so is love... Rudra you love her.. your actions have always showed this. yes last night also, you behaved that way because you love her way too much... And now when you are apologetic, you have to show it to her that you are sorry.. make it visible in your actions... letting her go would only mean one thing... that you dont love her enough... not enough to show her how sorry you are and how you would never do such a blunder..." said om.
"O is right rudra... Go and talk to her... you have hurted her more with that impulsive childish decision of yours... you should have tried mending things but you unknowingly have caused more damage... you have hurted that innocent girl.. be man enough to tell her how sorry you are and how she would see a change in your behavior... make her believe that you would never ever doubt her or be insecure.. its only only you who loves her, she also loves you.. yeh pyaar tum dono ka hai... sirf tera akele ka nahi.." shivaay told rudra keeping his hand on his shoulder, telling him that his brothers are there for him. One for all. All for one.
rudra nodded his head in positive and hugged his brothers.
ob bros came downstairs and rudra made his way to where saumya was sitting. anika was about to get up from the sofa when saumya held her hand in hers, and looked at rudra.
"Its not you.. its me... Its me between us, who is still immature and unreliable.. I might have become a businessman now but Im still not man enough... not man enough to let control my own emotions... i got drunk on jealousy last night when I saw a guy hugging you.. I know he might be a friend or a colleague... I was insecure saumya... I'm scared that someone better than me will walk right into your life one day and snatch you away from me... someone perfect would make you realise how imperfect I am... Im scared thinking what if you fall out of love one day... i would be devastated and would have no purpose of living. all this what I have doing for you.. for us... from last two years would go futile... Im sorry... Im really sorry for hurting you baby... I promised to always love and support you.. and this time I myself hurted you immensely and made you shed tears... Im sorry for humiliating and insulting you.. Im sorry for thinking you might not want me or love me any longer.. Im sorry for thinking you might not wangt our marriage now.. Im sorry for doubting on you.. Im sorry for saying we shouldnt get married... Im sorry for doubting you saumya... Im sorry for everything I said or did.."
by now saumya was again in tears and her throat was badly choked with all the emotions she was feeling. she wiped the tears rolling down rudra's cheeks and cupped his face with her hands.
"I would not say its ok Rudra... because its not.. but Im happy you voiced out your insecurity and apology here in front of all... I forgive you and I hope nothing of this sort would ever happen now... I want you to trust me and whenever you have anything against me or even a doubt, please come to me straightaway and we will clear it there and then... be a cry baby if you want and please dont come drunk... because if that happens again, I will make sure Bade bhaiya and Bade baal wale bhaiya throw you out of the mansion... "
rudra couldnt help but giggle and said "I'm never coming home drunk after this... I promise...".
"good.." said saumya smiling at him.
"saumya I dont deserve to be with an angel like you but what to do I'm never letting you go... So will you marry me...?? Please..." rudra asked.
"yes.. yes I will marry you.. because I cant let you go... You are mine rudy boy..."
"I love you Saumya..." said rudra and hugged the love of his life.
"I love you too..."
