The heart wants what it wants - Page 2

Originally posted by: silky_harshad

Everyday we ask questions, not about us but about others..why she did that...why he did this...but is there really an explanation for this...how many times we think, we calculate and we response...especially when we are vulnerable...in the times when we are being accused or being questions or going through a phase when something which used to be a part of us is haunting us, our heart our impulse speak for us not our well structured mind... in scientific terms we call it subconscious response... believe it or not but these are most honest feelings of a person..and this is what happens to our SaAz most of the time...

they want something which they can't acknowledge or admit. They are not even aware of these feelings but these needs do exist. Some where within them and expresses itself in the very moment of impulse..

Sahir, an artist, a poet and full of life fella , this used to be his personality which was trampled brutally by a person he trusted, loved and almost worshipped...that turned him into a ruthless, heartless moneymaking machine built on the grounds of pain, anger and hurt...but that didn't kill the guy he was, so he decided to lock his real self and put on a mask , the mask he hates the most...but guess what the sweet guy locked within haven't learn his lesson yet.. he still fights with this mask everyday ..he still wants to come out and breathe fresh air, he still wants to look at this naive girl who is just like him...and this is what happened, the guy behind the mask got attached to this girl. And then the realisation hit him. This girl doesn't belong to this world with him. He is nothing but a wounded body that can't even stand on his two feet...he tried this best to push her away..he punished himself for being near to her but the damage was done..the girl has already made her way beyond that mask..she became someone special, someone he looked up to when he wanted to relive his old self...he had seen the worst of life so a part of him hated her rash impulsive stupidity but another part of him adored her for that..she was fierce, she was crazy she was his daringbaaz who never took wrong as her fate...but what happened today.. she was accused for something he knew she will not do..he thought she is THE DARINGBAAZ she will deal with it.. but no..she stood there with her mouth shut and took all the accusations with tears in her eyes, he wanted her to scream to yell to tell everyone to wrap this crap but she didn't...he thought may be she is scared..after all she is such a child at heart..he looked at her..to tell her that he will take stand for her ..all she have to do is to give a sign and he will burn the world who tries to harm her..but she gave him no sign...his mind was full of doubt..did he made the same mistake twice...no her eyes looked innocent and this is where he lost his cool..the same innocenrt pretty eyes were the one of his betrayer..he can't trust them ...not again... he thought she never trusted him enough to ask for his help so he will ask her...but with what right? no he can't question her...he has no right to do so..but he wanted to...he wanted to shield her from everything..he wanted to be her protector without even realising why..because this is what his heart wanted..

then there is arzoo, a ordinary girl with extra ordinary guts. who learnt at a very young age that nobody is going to protect her so she got to stand for herself..she never gave up on life because it was harsh..she looked into its eyes and fought with it...she wanted to fly high in the sky and she needed was a pair of wings..then she got once in a lifetime opportunity...she came to a new world..here she met a man whom she hated for being so rude..he was her boss so she knew that keeping mum is better option but that just wasn't a part of her nature..she spoke what came to her mouth, she did whatever came to her mind..she was a clueless bumbling nave girl in the well organised space of Gabbar Chaudhary..she always expected punishments but what she got from PSHYCHO CHAUDHARY was appreciation, indirect most of the time but yeah she got...that made her pause for a second and ask "what's wrong with this guy"... she was intrigued just for the heck of it...then he did something nobody ever did for a her...a girl who was never her dad's little angel, who never knew how it feels to be protected , he shielded her from harm...he made a new image for himself in her heart..THE ULTIMATE SAVIOUR.. she never knew how it felt to have someone to run to after doing a blunder... she never knew how it feels to have someone who takes care of everything even if u make a mess...he did these little things for her and she was grateful and confused...this wasn't enough so that guy casted himself between her and the entire world...touching all the strings of her heart and make them sing the tune of love...yes this was the first time she saw a rage on a man's face when some goons were making derogatory remarks on her, someone who hit a goon because he tried to touch her... the first man beside whom she slept like a baby in a jungle without any fear... she wanted to be by his side forever... but then she saw him punishing himself for no reason..she realised that he is in pain and she wanted to ease it because it was hurting her SAHIR SIR... her protector..her saviour her love..then the circumstances changed, she made a wrong decision which she still thinks is right, she tried to cover for a friend and got accused badly in process...she wanted to save her friend so she thought of sacrificing herself... after everything she went to his room like nothing happened because she wanted believe that even if he says that he wants her to stay away from her he will be there for her...he did what nobody did for her..he is her guardian angel and off course she doesn't have to explain to him..but then he asked her to leave..she never liked that but she was tired to fight so she decided to leave and he fired back..he asked her a question..why she kept mum and all she wanted to say was do i really need to explain..she felt it again that she is the only one who feels differently ..he is not even close to that feeling so she tried to dismiss him by telling that's none of your business but he kept questioning her, wanting to hear just a no from her... and then all the feelings came rushing out of her heart..she forgot rationalty and reasoning cuz all she could think of was "you too"..A part of her knew she was wrong and she expected too much but the damage is done..all she wanted was to crash in his arms and his words that no matter what i trust you..I love you even when you are at your worst but she couldn't ask for it..

so after analysing the scene and writing this essay what i have concluded is that nobody is at fault , they just got carried away by their heart 😊

Originally posted by: Soaps1

Yes the heart wants what it wants ... If her heart can want and do all that she does so can sahir's ... He is as much human as she is ... But when it comes to his heart a lot of negatives are brought in where as in her case all is fair in love and war theory is projected and my disconnect starts

Nice post and very thoughtful ... I agree with ecri if they show arzoo doing self analysis just like sahir, her character would become more real and easy to understand



But i dont agree with ego part, we have too many examples of sahir putting his ego aside to do the right thing ... I dont think ego is the issue with him ... His issue is his past, the demons he is fighting within himself, deep down he know he is falling for her but he can't let himself admit that because of his past! He has been cheated in life before yet he has shown unshakeable trust in her many times and now even seeing certain things with his own eyes he is still not ready to believe she can do this! He wanted to know why she lied not why she did this!

@sun let it be lets not make it an issue people are free to have whatever opinion they want to have, what differmece does it make?

sahir has trust issues..bas...ego issues tabhi aate hy when his weak nerve is pressed..and yet he trusted arzoo and from his pov this is the same mistake and he made it twice..hence the anger and regret is killing him..you know meko lgta hy since arzoo reminds sahir of his old self, he respects her a lot and for him she is at a very high level so more than hurt he was disappointed in her that why are you kneeling before wrong...I had none but you have me..it's like seeing himself getting trampled by circumstances again..so my sahir baby is so hurt 😭

Originally posted by: .HarshRutu.

Nice post silky!!👏

I agree that they got carried away by their heart...

I don't think anyone is at fault..neither Arzoo nor Sahir...

They both have set of expectations from each other but don't want to tell...they want the other to realise it in some way 😕

Originally posted by: -Sush-

Love your post...silky!! 👏

Originally posted by: harshadbaaz

silky very well expressed ...I didnt realise many thing in their characters but you post clear many doubts running in my mind..awesome post 👏

Originally posted by: silky_harshad

komal? 😲😲😲 harshadbaaz 🤣 seriously 🤣 thankyou for liking my post 😳

Originally posted by: prettypri

The way Sahir is proactive about making up for any wrongs caused by him...directly..indirectly...knowingly..unknowingly...he definitely isn't driven by ego.

After that design fiasco an egoistic person would have made it look like it was some favour he was doing by proving the design was hers but Sahir wanted to apologize...it's a different matter that he got sidetracked by her wisecracks😆.

Same with his thinking when she was avoiding him...he wasn't thinking he dare she avoid ME but have I done anything to make her avoid me? And when he concluded on a reason he actually immediately made up his mind to apologise and what an earnest and sincere apology it was too!

I think whatever is troubling him needs to be handled with care by Arzoo...with some more patience and sensitivity...she has managed to break the hard shell he had built around him..some gentle handling would help her understand him better..that's where introspection by her would help...she used to do a bit of it earlier...like when he ate burnt toast...when she stayed back to understand why he was so lonely in his own house...we knew what she was thinking...more of that round help relate better!