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Posted: 13 years ago
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I am a little girl who loved my daddy,I believed he was my idol. When I woke up in the morning the first thing I wanted to see, was his face . When I ran back from school the first voice I wanted to hear was his. When I lulled into sleep I wanted his lap to be my bed, lulling me into deep peaceful slumber.But...Where are you Daddy? Why did you leave me alone? I feel so lonely? I hate you so much yet I wait for you to return...

I accepted all your responsibilities thinking they were mine. Never could fit into your shoes though I tried very hard. They all blamed me, called me Hitler...But did I have a choice daddy? I was frozen from within, I did so much for them yet they never listened, they never cared...they blamed me, bruised me with their words. The more they did it I tried even more, all failed they never loved me the way you did daddy, but I still try. I always will, cause they remind me of you daddy...

I fell in love, he was a careless guy. I still can not bring myself to believe I loved him. But I did. I guess somewhere down the line he just entered my heart from some nook and corner and alighted a candle of feeling I never thought I possessed. From feeling lifeless and dead I felt alive again. My dreams seem to be coming true. Of having a family who loves me...

But he lied to me the same way you did. You had promised to be by my side for ever. You did not remain. He lied to me about my only hope and took my trust for a ride...For my entire life I am burdened with the loss of hope that maybe one day someone else would take away my responsibilities and I can live like a normal girl again..

Can I forgive him daddy? can I let him hurt me again? can I be a normal girl again daddy? I hope one day I could...

Yours,
anonymous

do let me know what you think guys...

Rinky

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rajh thumbnail
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Posted: 13 years ago
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nice post--very well written.

i add some of my feelings when i came back in tonight.


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Posted: 13 years ago
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Rinky! Hugs to you for making this post. 🤗
Very beautifully described. I am all stunned to see your post. From now onwards I am fan of your writing skills. Really very well explained.
I hope people would try to understand Indira's situation now. She has lost all hopes from her life. She is not in a state believe someone else. She believes in facing reality rather than trust anyone blindly be it her beloved Because she is always cheated in her life her beloved even, disowned by her father, . Now how can she forgive anyone? Why should she trust unless she sees the reality. Loved the way you described her journey since her childhood. She is a fighter, she is strong, she is legend, she is an inspiration. She is ready to face all hurdles in her life.She is an inspiration to all girls.Any normal girl would have quitted or committed suicide if she was in place of this legend. But this girl was never a quitter. She is an epitome of courage. She needs no saviour. But love comes in everyone's life and Indira is no exception.somewhere In her heart of hearts she longs for love, that care which she didn't get from her family. She fell in love with a careless guy but he lied her about her only hope. She lost faith from him. Even if she wants, she can't forgive him. This is not because of her nature, the situations, the circumstaces that she has faced in her life has made her HITLER. She has always experimented with her life. She always tried to trust her father. She always given him a chance to prove himself as a father. But everytime she was ditched. Despite all this , she again trusted his beloved. But in the end same happened. How many more trials will she face? She even don't know whom should she trust and whom not. Now she is burdened by the accident of her only hope. I am not defending Indira. I am just saying cause it's human nature. She is also a human being.
Edited by -Yukti- - 13 years ago
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Posted: 13 years ago
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you read my thoughts today or what bcoz just after reading a few 'critical of indira 'posts , i felt exactly what uve written. really nice - every daddy girl s stuck with a daddy image for life for good or for bad.

it makes sense to me rinky - the insecurity which a failed relationship leaves u in is deep rooted and when it happens in teenage years or when it happens with ur parents its worse. for indira its both.

the part where u wrote hitler does stuff for her family bcoz they remind her of inder- never thought of it that way but yes, could be true. always thought that shes protecting them from further hurt or atleast trying to

but how i wish the last part comes true- she does become normal again
and tell me this- dont you also feel that now after yrs of seeing her dad, she has recognised him for what he is - a normal cowardly person- and if she can get over her scorn for his weakness, she would be much more happy maybe she would be able to get on / move on with life

like rishi said- gussa thook deejiye and u ll feel better

nice post im smiling
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Posted: 13 years ago
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very beautifully written dear,
indira believes in action not in words,a very strong person n had always control on her emotions,she did evrythng fr her family even though dey dnt care fr her,she is jst so selfless n caring,a family oriented person who never expect anythng frm any1.!!she wants to live her life n be happy n wanna enjoy al d happiness of world n she had nly 1 hope who was vidit bhaiya,wo b lost ho gai and the person whoz responsible fr loss of her last hope is d same person whom she loved,hw cn she forgive dat person jisne uski last hope b cheen li,jis vidit bhaiya ka intejar wo saalon se kr rai ti use koi idea nai tha k wo vidit bhaiya se is halat pe milegi n d person whom she love is responsible fr dis n fooling her frm past years,hw cn she forgive him.?
shez also a human being,everytime she trust n ditched again n again yet shez so strong..indira is jst so courageous..
she gave her dad a chance bt again proved to be wrong..
itne dhoke k baad i dnt think any human being cn trust a person again..,
p.s:~sory 4 going off d topic
will write more afterwards
Edited by ShreyuArTi4eva - 13 years ago
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Posted: 13 years ago
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awesome post rinky👏
wow ur post just describes wat indira is all abt, wat she was,wat she was made 2 become n wat r her fears deep within...
i esp loved these lines of urs...
' I was frozen from within, I did so much for them yet they never listened, they never cared...they blamed me, bruised me with their words. The more they did it I tried even more, all failed they never loved me the way you did daddy, but I still try.'
i think dis scenario will nvr evr change in her life...her family will nvr b able 2 appreciate her as they dnt hv d required emotional n intelligence quotient 2 understand her value in their lives...dis saying completely goes wid her situation...'neki kar or dariya mein daal'...
she was frozen bt she had 2 forget her ownself n her fears n worries n turn into a completely different cold personality...d hitler dat we all knw...
'But he lied to me the same way you did. You had promised to be by my side for ever. You did not remain. He lied to me about my only hope and took my trust for a ride...For my entire life I am burdened with the loss of hope that maybe one day someone else would take away my responsibilities and I can live like a normal girl again...'
her dad was her idol bt he left no stone unturned 2 make her believe dat her beliefs n hopes wer wrong...she had learnt 2 live life d hard way...bt then again someone came, showed her d lighter side of life...she dared 2 trust a man again bt in d end she was again left hurt...d hope which had once rekindled her spirits was again left shattered...
its very easy 4 us 2 say or point out dat indira shudnt b 2 harsh or she shud trust him/her...bt its a case of a wounded heart which was pierced twice at d same spot n by d ppl whom she trusted blindly n had hopes on...so i wud nvr blame her if she is always cautious or suspicious henceforth abt being in relationships...
bt just as u ended her plea wid a hope, i wud also hope dat she gets 2 live a normal life again as she also doesnt being enjoy being a hitler or evn called one...
lovely post rinky...dnt hv lovely words like u 2 express indira's state bt dis is wat i felt aftr reading ur post...i really enjoyed reading dis 1...do write more...😃
Edited by arti_17 - 13 years ago
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Posted: 13 years ago
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Very nice post Rinky!
I had wrote a post on Indras point of view last week and touched one similar issue..
You are right, Indra is deeply affected by what her father whom she idolized and loved did,
he had shattered the image she had of her father and that had made her who she is today,
though that is not her real nature...
She tried to do good by her family but they never cared...Then she falls in love with someone who actually cares for her and he too hurts her trust n hope of a new life... it is not easy for someone in this state to forgive...
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Posted: 13 years ago
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Thank you Rinky 😳 and everyone who added and will be adding more on to this Post

It is beautifully written and I ❤️ed every word about Indira 😳. I am not much of a writer I will add more if I can 😃

⭐️ Excellent Post 👏

Keep writing 😃

Mehnaaz 😳
Edited by -Mehnaaz- - 13 years ago
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Posted: 13 years ago
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aww *hugs* for this post.
Its really sad when your whole world comes crashing down;
Someone who you thought was your hero, ends up destroying your world and cheating you.
They say that we come in this world alone, and go alone. That's why we must be strong & hold on to ourselves; not let anyone hurt us or weaken us so bad that it gets difficult to stand up again.
Indira represents that. She is truly a COURAGEOUS woman who I look up to. She took control of the circumstances at such a young age. She could have been easily led astray, but NO, she got up and faced the reality for herself and for her family.
Such people truly have the ability to inspire & change the world.
Hats off to Ms Indira Sharma :)

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Posted: 13 years ago
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Mindblowing update Rinky... so true feelings 👏

Dad will be the real ideal for any girl... she believes - in this whole world one person is there for sure who can never hurt her and that is her Dad.

When Dad gives so much pain her whole trust on men will break. She can never trust anyone with an unknown fear that they may again hurt her... she masks her fear of getting hurt with her roughness and sharp tongue but inside she dies to be loved...

When hope comes in the way of some one(here Rishi).. it will sure takes a lot of time, trust and struggle with her inner feelings to believe the person and to fall in love is like a miracle...
and if once again she gets hurted due to that one person, her trust will broken in pieces which is really not possible to gather again.

She cannot believe or love another person now... giving a chance to him is really hard for her because she will be in dilemma, uncertainty and fear - what if he again hurts her.. can she bare if this happens again - these unanswered questions will raise...

I will suggest her to wait and give some time for herself so that these unsettled questions get answers.. then she can take the right decision whether to give her love a chance or not...

Edited by preethimadhavg - 13 years ago

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