And sorry for the lapse yesterday!! but could not post it...and am so glad could not! !! Boy am still reeling under the slap!! and today am reeling under Talli attack...The Girl has bricks inside her antsized brain!!! Kesuda so clearly told her that the Chunar was not for her but nnaaa!! she had to wear it!!! 'Mein kaisi lag rahi hoon!!😡...Bandariya jaisi!! aur kaisi!!! Jungle Jungle baat chali hai pata chala hai, Talli naam ka ek Fool khila hai Fool khila hai...
So after giving some virtual slaps to Talli Rani in my mind and then hanging her on the clothes line in the sun by her fingertips safely pined up 🤢 we can start Kesuda Analysis...
So I am starting with yesterday when Kesuda went back to his room, hounded by the demons of jealousy, doubts, insecurity ...I really feel sorry and feel that somebody has written his fate in a real foul mood...his good luck never seems to prevail..his goodness is so ready to outshine, but somehow the circumstantial clouds come and the guy is doomed...
And in that mood he wants to go out and vent himself, and you can see his desperation to go outside ...away from these walls where he is tormented by everyone, everything, every memory, every talk, every person, every thought, every belief...
And ofcourse, Motabha stops him, and asks him about his whereabouts... I think that the whole timing was so wrong, in both ways that this show down was inevitable...Both of them had their own problems to deal with...and the whole footing was wrong..the whole start was wrong...and Motabha had to bring Vasant in it...Vasant reigns so supreme in their minds, that they have forgotten that there people who are NOT Vasant, and I think, that Vasant does have a control on Kesar's mind..and so he had calmed down a bit...but then Motabha took Dushyant's name and the whole hell went loose...
Ye to hona hi tha...the way the things went, the whole house had to come in between and Dushyant had to speak up ...though I won't completely justify the slap...I would say the slap was coming since days, but the timing was mega wrong...
But what I loved, loved was that what the whole house couldnot do, Gulaal did..I know it was a COMPLETELY idiotic action ...and even she knows it...But I am not going to analyze Gulaal over here...what I am trying to say that I just loved Kesar when he left that place without a word, reminded me of the same Kesar...who had been slapped by Gulaal years ago...still completely under her control...his anger, his pain, his torment can never go beyond Gulaal !! ever!!!!
3rd May...
Apart from Gulaal's guilt trip and a completely wrong place to say sorry and Talli's la la land trip and kleptomaniac tactics we had so less of Kesar that I just was not in mood to do!!! But kya kare...cant do without Kesuda...😳
I loved the ball on the wall scene...That was not a violent Kesuda, but a thinking Kesuda...he was not crying today...Somehow, I felt that he saw the logic in that slap and was doing the calculations, as to what brought that...his taking care of Gulaal, and the look he saw in her eyes as against her words to make Dushyant Sarpanch...he was weighing both and wondering which way did she go...and like us...he could not reach a decision because he saw her rejecting his gift in his mind, he saw what he didnot want to see and finally gave up and hence decides to leave ...I swear I can't see him defeated like this,,,the bacha is such a born warrior , he can fight the whole world, but how can he fight the essence of his being, how can he fight her,...He cannot!!!
Precap: Well I was taken by surprise...not because of the fact that the bus was completely empty except Dushy and Kesuda😆 but the fact that when Dushyant insisted on taking Kesu home, he looked vulnerable, I thought he would be angry and defiant and spiteful...but he looked as if he would look at Vasant, had the same thing happened...what is changing him??😕 There is something more to what is seen...
By the way, he looked such a baby while sleeping na😳