Sai’s turmoil and her failed attempts - Page 2

Originally posted by: nethraa_99

Pooja, I read the your reply on the discussion we had that day. I have understood that the overriding factors which contribute to Sai's insecurity are the ones you have outlined. 👍🏼

I'm struggling to maintain a balanced perspective in the issue....because I simply don't understand Virat's jalebis. I watched post Ladakh fight yesterday and for the first time, I actually understand it...I've never really understood Virat's POV in that fight until now. And boy, that was pretty complex stuff to decipher (for me). I may write a post on the post-Ladakh fight just to verify if I got it right.

I watched SaiRat confrontations following the pool encounter. But I'm again clueless about Virat's POV except the part where he looses his cool - due to his own guilt about Samrat. So looks like I have a long way to go as far as Virat is concerned...

Nethraa,

Looking forward to reading your take on Virat! From our interactions, it seems that you have a really deep understanding of him 😊 I personally feel that most of his issues can be traced back to his tendency of suppressing his own emotions and therefore getting completely lost in them... I even attribute him making all of the vaadas to this...

He is a man who's heart has always overpowered his mind...and who loves blindly...

Couple that up with growing up in a toxic household, a lack of self-confidence, and an inability to express himself... and you have Virat 🤣

I think the pool fight was when I finally understood Sai, but for some reason, Virat has always been the open book to me...

Perhaps what makes him harder to understand is that he truly does have 2 sides to him that are constantly at odds with each other...

Originally posted by: tptwi

Nethraa,

Looking forward to reading your take on Virat! I personally feel that most of his issues can be traced back to his tendency of suppressing his own emotions and therefore getting completely lost in them... I even attribute him making all of the vaadas to this...

He is a man who's heart has always overpowered his mind...and who loves blindly...

Couple that up with growing up in a toxic household, a lack of self-confidence, and an inability to express himself... and you have Virat 🤣

I think the pool fight was when I finally understood Sai, but for some reason, Virat has always been the open book to me...

@bold You know I understand how these factors contribute in his relationship with Sai ....I get him there

The problem I have relates specifically to his reluctance in clearing his past...because whichever way I look at it, it seems the most logical thing to do. Imagine if you liked a guy but he thought you were in a relationship with someone else. You may not be able to express your feelings to him, you may believe that he doesn't like you back. You may fail to see his POV. But the fact that the guy has a MU that you are committed somwhere else will send your alarm bells ringing. You will try to clear that MU asap and give a signal that you are available ....even if via jalebis. This is the point I'm stuck....

@red Really? Wow! Be prepared for my zombie avatar then...all ready to eat your brain in this track 🤣😆

Awesome analysis of Sai Joshi.

I agree..like Pooja said Sai does realise to some extent that he is drawing closer to her and distancing himself to Pakhi but his reluctance to come out clean on his past and Pakhi’s continuous attempts to show herself as victim forced her to think herself as the third person.

laksh

Please write on Virat now...

I agree with your points .. somewhere along the year .. Sai stops herself thinking herself as virat’s wife .. it is gradual abd not noticeable but it’s there ..

virat is becoming more and more attached to her but Sai is distancing herself .

That’s why she was not happy with ruby gift or diamond ring ..

during her birthday celebrations her guard was down .. she has started thinking of virat as her guardian .. it has become more significant after the pool incident ..,

Originally posted by: nethraa_99

@bold You know I understand how these factors contribute in his relationship with Sai ....I get him there.

The problem I have relates specifically to his reluctance in clearing his past...because whichever way I look at it, it seems the most logical thing to do. Imagine if you liked a guy but he thought you were in a relationship with someone else. You may not be able to express your feelings to him, you may believe that he doesn't like you back. You may fail to see his POV. But the fact that the guy has a MU that you are committed somwhere else will send your alarm bells ringing. You will try to clear that MU asap and give a signal that you are available ....even if via jalebis. This is the point I'm stuck....

@red Really? Wow! Be prepared for my zombie avatar then...all ready to eat your brain in this track 🤣😆

Hmm... I think to understand this, we have to look at his perspective from the very start of the marriage and how he has gotten to the point where he is today. But, just one quick thing- in his mind, he has cleared this up to Sai (which in fact he explicitly did in the bedroom after stopping Sai from leaving the house post-Harini bday drama). I honestly believe that even Sai knows that he is not committed to Pakhi anymore, and this is where her guilt starts to come in, because she believes that she is the reason that he has wavered in his commitment. What she is unsure about is that even if he is not committed to Pakhi anymore, does he still love her? Does he still have the same spot in his heart for her? This was evident to me in her monologue walking away from the anniversary fight, in which she questioned why Virat has never told Pakhi that he doesn't feel for her.

I am getting ready to blab on and on about his entire journey since their marriage but I'm unsure if you want to read that 🤣

Originally posted by: tptwi

Hmm... I think to understand this, we have to look at his perspective from the very start of the marriage and how he has gotten to the point where he is today. But, just one quick thing- in his mind, he has cleared this up to Sai (which in fact he explicitly did in the bedroom after stopping Sai from leaving the house post-Harini bday drama). I honestly believe that even Sai knows that he is not committed to Pakhi anymore, and this is where her guilt starts to come in, because she believes that she is the reason that he has wavered in his commitment. What she is unsure about is that even if he is not committed to Pakhi anymore, does he still love her? Does he still have the same spot in his heart for her? This was evident to me in her monologue walking away from the anniversary fight, in which she questioned why Virat has never told Pakhi that he doesn't feel for her.

I am getting ready to blab on and on about his entire journey since their marriage but I'm unsure if you want to read that 🤣

Hmm...I'll try to think again.

@bold Ofcourse I'm interested..looking forward to it actually

Lovely Laksh! I understand Sai completely. And your perspective is so clear. You have gone beyond ..she doesn't acknowledge Virat's efforts.

I too need Virat's perspective...why is he so reluctant to tell Sai that Pakhi doesn't mean anything. He has spoken about the deal, vaada. Not specifically about Pakhi. It's not leftover feeling..that is known. It was a passing infatuation..they didn't even know each other's full names!!

He has said it to Pakhi in private. But not to Sai.

Wow, such a beautiful and lovely post❤️

And you have actually captured the natural human emotions very well. Cuz, I totally can get what you are saying cuz I have gone through this 🙈🙈

I actually had a blend of feelings , cuz my other friend came in between me and my bestie back then, and then both gave me the feeling that I am getting in between them.

And it's definitely not easy. Cuz, you feel helpless and guilty, but, seeing it how i felt, you also feel disgusted about yourself as well, maybe Sai would be or wouldn't be feeling so. But, at one point, you feel you are acting possessive, obsessive over someone. You also feel that maybe you are not worthy, you did a mistake, self guilt burns you when you see them giggling off and you can't move over there. And when you gain a bit confidence, you also feel that the other person never deserved you, cuz they never valued you. It they did, they would have carried you along, carried everyone along with each other. Then, it's a natural way, that you begin distancing from them.

Amd literally, something or the other in Sairat's relation catalyses all these reactions out from Sai. One, the primary reason being that, initially, it sort of got stamped into Sai's mind, you will have Virat, he himself had said in the context, that she will have him. But she won't have any right over it. Toh isn't this confusing now. A thing is handed over to you, you are asked to take care of it, like sometimes somethings are meant to be followed by Sai as wife and being his wife in the family or in the society, like the recent trip, she felt she has to go cuz this comes as a part of the society she lives in, this is how she is supposed to behave, but she is reminded she doesn't havw right over them.

It's like you take care of a plant so well but it is ordered the flower doesn't belong to you. How would anyone feel at that point. Sad, guilty, betrayed, etc. As you said, Sai will be protective of that flower, she has the plant, she is taking care of it, toh flower kisi aur ka kaise.That is how she feels. She is the wife, it is her relation, her marriage, but not her husband? .And what is the only way that Sai can say, console not others ,but herself, how can she console herself that she is not a person who doesnt care of others happiness, simple, that deal. I now feel Sai wants to take solace in those words now, her turmoil are sort of standardised due to those words.

Cuz, when she doesn't have the right to interfere in this thing at all, when Virat hasn't given her the right , how can she be responsible for snatching someone's happiness. So sad haina.

How beautifully you have described these things. ❤️

Sai is flawed that why she is real..

Her world revolved around Aaba but fate played really dirty games with her. He earth bellow shattered losing the only person who was her rock..Still she tried to accept the reality post her marriage with Virat.. But she knows everything with Virat only for namesake..

She was born losing her mother then in her hardly adulthood lost her father too.. Another lose would be too much to carry. She wouldn't be able bear it because she may not be able to recollect herself. That's why she is protecting herself from any heartbreak. She has reserved that feelings with a fear of ending everything.. Her brashness is not just insecurity but it's part of immense love for the person..

Originally posted by: Shaome

Sai is flawed that why she is real..

Her world revolved around Aaba but fate played really dirty games with her. He earth bellow shattered losing the only person who was her rock..Still she tried to accept the reality post her marriage with Virat.. But she knows everything with Virat only for namesake..

She was born losing her mother then in her hardly adulthood lost her father too.. Another lose would be too much to carry. She wouldn't be able bear it because she may not be able to recollect herself. That's why she is protecting herself from any heartbreak. She has reserved that feelings with a fear of ending everything.. Her brashness is not just insecurity but it's part of immense love for the person..

The relationship was not a real one when they got married and it came with an expiry date for her. Going away from him is very painful to her because she has actually got attached to him after her Aaba unknowingly. She had developed this in GC itself and was visible when she called him when he was about to leave her room after her Dad’s death.

I agree that she is protecting herself from heartbreak. She has not realised that she is already in pain and will be in pain even if they part ways now, after all her facade and brashness.

@bold beautifully put ❤️.