Heartbreaking.

Today Sai really spoke her heart out. She let slip so much of what bothers her without falling "weak".

What bothers her is that this relationship is "dikhavati", that the foundation of this relationship is based on a compromise, a lie, a contract, a "zabardasti thopi hui zimmedari" with not even an ounce of "pyaar aur apnapan". Thats all she craved in life as an only child with only a single father. All she wanted and values is love and apnapan. And here she has it - yes she does but its with a price tag + conditions apply!

What bothers her is that she cannot afford to get too attached to virat when they have a "deal" . When she feels like he can never ever love her.

And after hearing that godforsaken yoga lady talk about the picture perfect jodi/chemistry n other rubbish with pp, Sai is shaken back to how this all started. Its the worst possible timing....

She also explained why she was SO pleased with her birthday surprise but SO upset about this anniversary surprise.

Virat made his point too- he said to her that our start may have been atypical, rocky, zimmedari based but we have journeyed a year together and reached thus far. Hes right. I wish he had countered her and said puaar hai. Apnapan hai. That nobody does all the things i do for you simply out of "responsibility". Its done out of love. It was the perfect opportunity to just say the ILU in the heat of emotions....

It didn't matter that sunny, mohit were in the audience because they both know everything anyway.

If anything they could vouch for Virats feelings being true if she was shocked by the confession.

Honestly while as audience i feel really really heartbroken for Virat who must be so hurt but i really cannot get myself to "blame" Sai. Virat is trying so hard to show his love, he cares SO much about Sai's chhoti seh chhoti khushi and he correctly pointed out how he had pleaded with her to stay with him. that's Not out of zimmedari but out of choice. He wanted her to stay with him. He wanted her to not leave his life.

hopefully Sai can reflect on that....i wish she heard that n registered it. But i think she has her mind closed righ now.

but i cant fault Sai. Because Sai is broken, lonely, hurt, confused, guilty. She has no idea what to do, how to feel. She loves Virat but cant admit it even to herself because that means acknowledging that she broke her promise to Virat Sir to never come in the way of his commitment. So first shr needs to confront her own feelings before she can understand virats. She feels guilty of being the roadblock in his love story with pp....as tragic and unfulfilled as it maybe but she is too idealistic. In her eyes Virat has loved and thats it. Theres no way he will ever love her so Sai has never even considered it. She would neither want to expect love and be heartbroken nor feel like she got "second place" in his life because that wounds her self respect too much. Infact i feel like this idea that shes not his"first love" and he "got over" somebody to love her will always bother her :( even 2 months later when confession has maybe happened....even then this will be an issue unless virar clarifies that theres a difference between like n love, between infatuation n love, between vaada n vachan....he gave pp a vaada, but he made Sai/KJ a vachan. There's s sanctity to a vachan. They are similar words but not synonymous....

I think Sai feels like he is now in addition to fulfilling her responsibility, and doing some sweet things out of good heartedness now he is also pitying her and maybe himself too and so is trying to make- do....and that thought must make her hurt and angry in equal measure. She already battles the feeling of being a forced zimmedari, pity love- that will make her feel small.

Ayesha has potrayed Sai's anguish so well that one cant help but feel heartbroken for her....

I truly wish there was someone in her corner who could explain things to her in a manner that Sunny does for virat....infact Sunny/mohit should try to speak to Sai when things calm down. When Sai hasnt closed off her mind. They both know the full truth and they know both povs too..

Precap has Sai telling Virat she found his jeeva n virat is super emotional!

I'll watch only once the kaand is resolved... this is so sad!

Thank you for the update Neerja ❤️

So beautifully written and explained by you. ❤️

Haven't watched the episode, but it does seem like a heart-breaking one 💔

Reading your update, while I can see how hurt Virat might have been, I can understand where Sai is coming from.

Both are going to be right and wrong in this track.

I really feel virat should step back .. he’s already done too much for Sai .. if she still feels it’s a deal .. then he should stop behaving like a real husband .. behave like a friend .. .. he should actually let her move on to hostel .. it will be good for both of them .. since Sai is adamant it can never be a real marriage..

Lovely update Neerja ❤️

My heart broke for both Sai and Virat today.

Virat remembers their wedding day as the occasion on which he gained the best thing that has ever happened to him... the occasion on which he was united with his life partner. But, Sai remembers that day as the occasion on which she lost her right to be able to love and cherish her husband...the pain was pouring out of her when she said that on their wedding day, this rishta became a forced zimidari with no love or belonging... and at this point, even if consciously or subconsciously, loving Virat is all she wants to do, she has convinced herself that she does not have the permission to be able to do so...

Virat is so overwhelmed in his own feelings and emotions towards Sai that he is unable to look at the marriage from her perspective. When people say that love is blind, they normally mean that a person looks past their loved ones faults... but love is also blind in this regard...it is all consuming and these feelings are so new and real for him, that he is unable to comprehend anything beyond them.

Sai doesn't want to celebrate, because how can you celebrate something that isn't real? When she compared the reality of her birthday to the forced nature of this marriage, it really showed what she is going through internally. How can they be celebrating something that doesn't exist? As many times as Virat as told her that he does not want her to leave, he has still never told her the the reality of his relationship with Pakhi nor the fact that he deeply regrets making the vaada nor the fact that there is nothing else more real to him than this relationship. These are the things that Sai wants to and needs to hear. Today, Virat said that he agrees that the time and circumstances of their marriage were not normal, but that today things are different. This is THEM and their own journey. But, Sai says that people should not change with time and reminds him that she will fulfill her end of the vaadas. She says that he should have never made himself part of his pain. This is her guilt pouring out of her. With the yoga teacher being her latest trigger, she is back in full force to her reality of being the reason for Virat and Pakhi's separation. Again, her emphasis on the words spoken on their wedding day is evidence of the value she places on what Virat SAYS to her. This is how she communicates. But, Virat communicates through his actions, and those actions are just making Sai even more confused. It spoke volumes how Sai said that there will come a day when she will HAVE to leave... she does not want to, but she thinks that their relationship is time constrained.

Ayesha stole the show today, but Neil brilliantly portrayed Virat's emotions too. This man is trying to prove his love for his wife in every single way he can. He is placing her happiness above his own... literally all he wants is for her to be able to understand his love. But, today, before he could confess, Sai erupted. At this point, he will never try to confess again the near future. This will cause him to put his own walls back up... and rightfully so.

In the precap, they are back to normal. Sai knows how much Samrat means to Virat, and she will do anything and everything to unite them. These two can fight all they want, say whatever they want to each other in the heat of the moment, but the truth will never change- they cannot bear to be separated and they cannot bear to see each other in pain. What is so real about their relationship is that the "married traditional husband wife" part is just one small piece of it and the only piece of it that is missing. Beyond that, they are family...they are friends...they are each other's rocks...they are bound together in love, respect, loyalty.... everything is there. And in the moments when they are letting themselves follow their hearts, the husband wife piece is there too. All that is missing here is the label. Were it to be any other set of circumstances, the label wouldn't matter. But, due to how their relationship started, this missing, messy, confusing label is the cause for all of their sorrow and inabilities to fully and finally unite....

Niraja your post as usual sums up trauma of both without bias.

Breaking hearts is very apt title.

Only thing I always get confused and want you to answer please.. How could Sai think of uniting Pakhi with Virat ? As much as I know Sai Joshi values marriage as a sacred institution. She herself is committed to her marriage bond and follows all her duties with honesty.Even if she thinks of moving out from her marriage,

How could she assume that if she is not there in Virat’s life he and Pakhi can tie the knot? Did she forget that still there is chance for Samrat to return? She herself is hopeful I think.

If Pakhi is unmarried or if Samrat died,yes..she can think in those lines but not at present .,

I always wonder what made her oversimplify such complicated situation and wish to unite Virat with Pakhi..

Paku's scenes and dialogues were so off! especially Kaku's dialogues to PP today were funny to say the least! Lol!

Also I feel the CVs are making sai come across as dumb! virat has told her so many times that he wants the marriage to be real, but she hardly pays attention to what he is saying! I really want to see virat ignore her a little and sai putting in a little effort to make him happy! that would also make for a funny and light track!

Originally posted by: ppnn7191

Paku's scenes and dialogues were so off! especially Kaku's dialogues to PP today were funny to say the least! Lol!

The PaKu ship has officially sailed 🤣

Your analysis on Varada and Vachan was amazing..👏🏼

Very well written

Originally posted by: ltelidevara

Niraja your post as usual sums up trauma of both without bias.

Breaking hearts is very apt title.

Only thing I always get confused and want you to answer please.. How could Sai think of uniting Pakhi with Virat ? As much as I know Sai Joshi values marriage as a sacred institution. She herself is committed to her marriage bond and follows all her duties with honesty.Even if she thinks of moving out from her marriage,

How could she assume that if she is not there in Virat’s life he and Pakhi can tie the knot? Did she forget that still there is chance for Samrat to return? She herself is hopeful I think.

If Pakhi is unmarried or if Samrat died,yes..she can think in those lines but not at present .,

I always wonder what made her oversimplify such complicated situation and wish to unite Virat with Pakhi..

She thinks like this because Pakhi every btime till date make and feel her like this obvious thing that if sai is not there virat and she would be together. In initial days both virat and pakhi make her feel that because of her they missed togetherness. Like virat said because of you I lost most precious thing in my life. But before sai came into his life pakhi was already married so how he said it don't know.

Pakhi still thinks all her misery because of Sai came in there life. Still she thinks sai is beggest kata in her life and vurat not corrected it.

So sai thinks may be they have chance . Marriage is Sai's moral and she can't force it on others. How much marriage matter to pakhi she knows it very well. Initially sai tried say pakhi about marriage like don't do things which are wronged morally but time to time pakhi proveed her samrat and marriage with him doesn't exist for pakhi. Same she must feel if any man can keep married women in his dil then he also don't value marriage that much . She mentioned once in harini bday drama pakhi thinks she still have chance with virat because smarat is not here and therefore she is trying to torcher sai.