OS- a wait that was not worth it...... Update tomoro..anyone waiting f - Page 4

Originally posted by: khwaishfan

do conclude this!!

Originally posted by: Desipunjaban

I have had really no plans of putting on dis update ... since m more of a diary person ... bt babe ur wait has compelled me to do it just for you ... m having my final exams till d 23rd of dec ... I will put up d update on 25 as ur Christmas gift ... I promise ... there actully r two parts ... I will put one on 25th n other on new year... if u can do give me reminder at my inbox ... excuse my forgetfulness. .. lots of lv n best wishes...

Dear diary,

Well life has been awsmm... you were forgotten into the the piles the life has left over me... although initially I have thought these piles would not let me have a breath under their burden ... but these piles now if I wonder upon have swept me away with them to a world I still think is a dream.. such happiness is something I did not think I would be ever be blessed with again .. and that too for forever like he always tells me... and I have started believing on him ... the reason of my happiness .. my Abhimaan...

Yes abhimaan ... the love of my life... my son...

The news of his arrival has left me into shabbles... after divorcing dev I thought it would be easy to move on and do something better in life.. but the way my own family reacted on my divorce took the little strength I have gathered away...

It is easy thought then done... I have my entire life lived with either my parents and then with dev... never I have I ever tried or had a chance of living alone .. after moving out of my house after giving the divorce papers to dev I have lived with a friend of mine but later I had to change places ... I had fallen so many times and picked myself up again and again .. but I could never forget the day I got the news that I was pregnant.

Flashback ... "the day

Like my other not so normal days I was working in my office when I suddenly fainted ... I was rushed to the hospital... there after some initial tests I was told to go home and receive my reports the next day... next day in the morning I was still not really feeling well so I called up in office and took leave for the day... I went to the hospital to get my reports and check with the doctor...

In the doctor's room I felt like a bomb being dropped on me when I was told "Ms. Geet you are pregnant.. the fetus is about 7 weeks " ... I was just too numb to process anything after that ... I was not over with my past... there was no stability into my life .. new job .. no support ...and what not ... I was feeling so very suffocated.. how would I deal with this child ... and that too when I had no connection with the father anymore .,.. when I myself left him freeing him of any strings...

The doctor shook me from my moment when she found me in my own world lost ... she asked me to relax and think through since ... I was low on body vitals and only had a week to make the decision in case I wanted to have my abortion...

I took my reports and left from the hospital ... I had all kind of thoughts onto my mind... I started walking in which direction I had no sense of... but I kept on walking may be for 20 or 30 minutes... and then bumped into a lady that I got back into my senses... I came back to my senses... then I went to the near by cafe and ordered for a cup of coffee and sandwich ... and tried to distract myself by looking around at the people... there two tables away from me sat down a lady with two kids... one in her lap ... hardly looked to be a year old and the other one around three on the chair next to her... she was feeding both the kids.. hardly putting anything into her mouth... she was so engrossed into her own world... this moved something inside geet ... she wanted to have someone to love... only hers.. all though ,all her way here she had somewhere decided to abort the baby but ... now her decision looked so wrong to her own self... she kept watching the kids... when their father came... may be in his lunch time to join his family ... the three year old by jumped to his father and sat on his lap animatedly telling him things...

This made geet sad...

Geet(st)

Will I be able to take care of my baby alone...

Ofcourse I can

...but does not he has the right to know about his child...

Should I tell him...

Or should I not...

What if he rejects me and the baby...

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Good if he rejects both of us... I would have less complications that way...

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I would be able to tell my baby who his dad is...

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or may be I can convince him to meet the baby once in a while ... and show him his love and care...

I don't want my baby to feel any different than the others kids his age.. and face unnecessary questions...

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... and so on..

After thinking so many things through... geet took out her mobile from her handbag... forgetting the food placed in front of her,,, she just realised was served...

She scrolled through her contacts... after staring at the phone for 5 long minutes... she finally pressed call... the phone kept ringing for long but no one picked up the call...

This upset geet ...but then she sighed...

It was her decision nobody else's...

She ate her food ... contemplating her thoughts ...

Paid and then left for her apartment...

PRECAP: I wonder where is maan in the OS...

people throwing chappals over me... was i dead for so long... i kind of was...

everyone's demand... where is maan,,, we want him...

i m not into incest so abhimaan is not maan .. and maan is a different person... if he ever exists into this os at all...

and d most imprtant qestion... can geet be happy without a man... in real life she can be... but since we all are sick people and hopelessly in love with geet and maan as a couple... geet would need maan some way or the other... so let your minds run... for as long as you want... to think how would maan enter the scene... bcoj i don't believe in step dad scenarios and i m not going to kill the baby... now let your thoughts run wild...

i will update last part on coming sunday ... whether or not i get any likes or response... this was just a promise i fullfilled by posting this part ... and now enjoy ... see u all