Originally posted by: BrainEaterOwl
Ahhh Aditiii, you are hell bent on making me cry. This update was so emotional and intense. I really dont know for whom I cried the most. Geet or Maan? If last update was about Geet's pain, betrayal, trust, love for the brothers, hurt. Then this update belonged to Maan. It speak so much about his bond with his baby brother and the girl he loves so much. Though I did feel for Geet too, understood her situation n emotional turmoil but I couldnt help feel my heart breaking seeing Maan's condition. It was really painful to see him blaming himself for something which was not his doing and then begging for one chance to explain himself. Anyways, will talk about that later. First let me talk about Maan-Armaan phone conversation.
Past
Despite myself, I was having a smile on my face reading Maan-Armaan's conversation. The way Amy was cribbing to Maan n trying to convince him so that he could spend few hours with his big bro but he understood Maan's situation. Him immediately telling that its Maan who thought him to keep oneself in others shoes and see things from their pov, just said how much Amy respects Maan and look upto him. Maan was definitely Amy's idol.
I loved the bond these two brothers shared. It was for the first time Maan-Armaan part was shown, yet I could feel so connected to them as if I have been reading about them from long.
I was a bit surprised that Amy had hid about Geet being his GF from Maan as well like he hid about him being Khurana from Geet. And his reason to hid it from Geet, was that all? Just cos his family is happy and Geet's is a sore topic, he hide such a big fact about him being a Khurana? I understood he was being protective and dint wanted to hurt Geet in any ways but this reason was somewhere unconvincing to me. He could have at least shared about his surname or max to max from which family he belongs if not all the details. In his wish to protect her, he ended up hurting her more unknowingly. So somewhere I feel his reason is not justified enough. Or may be there is more to come? I dont know. I'm confused.
Then his talks about how much he loves Maan and what all he feels for him, respects and loves him, it was all so strange. As if, the nature was conspiring against them and making him say all that to Maan one last time just telling him what Maan means to him. Specially his lines on regret. And then the phone call from Yash and Maan's world turning upside down, gave me goosebumps literally. Amy was all he had in the name of his own family - literally, after their parents dead. And then even Amy was gone leaving him all alone in the pool of guilt and a belief that he killed his brother. Maan finally breaking down was heart wrenching. He stood strong only for Amy but then even the reason of his existence was gone. Such a worse situation to be in. My eyes were a bit wet here. I really loved as well hated this scene for all obvious reasons. First Maan-Amy scene we got and that too a happy and way too sad one. I hope we get more of happy ones in future Aditi please. To somewhere replace this one, I want few of Maan-Amy scenes cos I really want to read more on them. I have loved reading Armaan's scene with each and every character here. He shares a great bond with everyone.
And him having a diary as well was surprising. I assume Maan didnt read it else he would have known about Geet from the very start. Though I wonder where is the diary now? Is that diary going to make its presence felt in future? I would love to know whats written in there.
Coming to present one.
If Maan-Amy scene was painful. MG one was heart breaking. I really dont know for whom to feel more, whom to supporr, who is right or wrong. All I felt was immense pain seeing them hurting so much.
Just a chance was all Maan was asking from her and she couldnt even bring herself to give him that? I dont know if I should feel upset, angry or try to unserstand her feelings. She was hurt, felt betrayed, her trust was broken and she finally got a living person to blame onto for Armaan's dead; I understand everything. But still after all this dint Maan deserved at least one chance?
He was so desperate to explain his part. He was literally begging her to just listen to him once. But damn, she got some strength to will her heart and refuse him despite when one part of her just wanted to do the opposite and was feeling his pain, loss and love as well. She knew in the rational part of her brain blaming him for his brothers dead that too just by listening to half story was wrong yet she became selfish to lessen her own pain and inflicted new wounds on his already bruised heart and strengthened his belief all the more that he indeed has killed his brother. It was truly heart breaking to see him begging and pleading and her to be lost in her own grief and sorrow.
And then the promise she took from him followed by his last parting kiss, which spoke for me not only spoke of his love for her but also of his longing, yearning, his plea and desperation to just listen to him once, his last memory of her to hold onto till she returns; broke the dam of my emotions that I managed to hold and I cried. That one simple gesture of him kissing her with all his love and longing was like someone has poured ice cold water all the dreams, wishes, hopes he might have had till then from her. He still understood her so well and gave the time she asked for. Why he has to be selfless for? You know you will call me crazy, but I have started to hate selfless people now, all thanks to the stories I have been reading for past one and a half year. Selfless people end up hurting more which I dont like at all. I used to admire this quality before but now I dont.
Anyways, his words about Amy loving her futher adding he too loves her, and wishing hee to be happy even if its without him, brought fresh tears in my eyes and I so badly wanted Geet to turn and go running into his arms and give him the solace he needed. I guess, I'm being biased now but I cant help side with Maan despite knowing he was wrong in hiding the truth from her in his selfishness. Why cant he be selfish now and stop her? Why he choose to be selfless when she is going to god knows what place leaving her job behind. Will she inform her friends at least? They are all already blaming Maan and if she goes without informing any of them then all just going to pounce on him n blame him for everything. How much that poor guy has to suffer n see? Ab rehem karo iss bande pe. He has always been at the losing end. First his parents, then his painting, his only brother- only support, now the love of his life; every person comes in his life and leaves him alone to suffer all shattered and heart broken.
I dont know Aditi, what all you have planned for this story. May be leap or something, which I actually dont like to read it cos I feel it loses the touch n connectivity but then guess I also dont have in me to bear such saddening updates and see all hurting and crying. So I'm looking forward to see how you are going to take this story from here.
By the way, I hope my wish of seeing how MG used to bicker will get fulfilled now. May be now that they have separated, I hope to see some happy flashback in middle of this depressing updates. Please please.
-Sanjana!
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