chapter 12
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends
Arjun lay awake in his bed staring blank ahead.
He had kissed her again .What was happening to him ?
When he had kissed her for the first time . he had let his desire overpower him . but he had thought it would just for once . After that he had supported himself saying it would help him getting even with her.
Getting even ? was why he is here isn't he?
Or to fulfill the promise he had made to her father ?
Its so complicated . He doesn't understand himself anymore.
But whatever it may be. His duties towards her father doesn't include this running a muck emotions . this kissing . this was supposed to be a guidance and making her see , crave what she had lost . make her repent of her actions . make her pay back .
Pay backs a bitch geet raichanda ..!
I would make you stand right there you had me 9 years ago .
That's what I m doing ? don't I ?
He had asked himself the same question so many times. Each answer had been different .
He should hate her . he did . didn't he?
Then why being with her still now makes me feel complete ?
Why do I always end up teasing her endless until the shy smile crawls its way up to her rosy lips?
The pout drives me crazy . I crave mo much to taste them. what the hell is wrong with me?
How can I forgive her and kiss her like a lovesick puppy ?
Where would it lead?
Why cant I control myself?
Darn girl ..!
He took a deep breath .
its nothing .this kisses mean nothing . I have right on her . haven't I?
its just physical . she doesn't get to mess around with my head . I can kiss her as much as I want . It has nothing to do with love. I have the right on her . and Its not like I force myself on her.
I just oblige her wishes .. he smirked at his own joke.
then why the hell I cant remember that while I m with her ?
why do I want to be kissed by her ?
She was breaking the walls around him he had built for years . crawling her way into his heart again . He hadn't planned this . but when the first time it happened , they kissed . He had thought he would use it against her. Make her vulnerable . and then strike . He would bring down the past like a bolt from the blue . hurt her in way she did .
from now on '..i wouldn't let her affect me. then all my plan would fall into right places.
He thought determined.
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"We're always thinking of eternity as an idea that cannot be understood, something immense. But why must it be? What if, instead of all this, you suddenly find just a little room there, something like a village bath-house, grimy, and spiders in every corner, and that's all eternity is. Sometimes, you know, I can't help feeling that that's what it is."
"So what do you think of eternity guys ? let me know your view. Come on '.tell me." .plopped on a student's desk he prodded the students making a gesture of his hand .
Today the subject was Crime and punishment . by Fyodor Dostoevsky.The class regained composure from their utopia after the story he had just told them .
his rich baritone had taken them for a different tour to the novel. Arjun had exquisite style of narration that always had them gripped .there could be no one who could just stay there and be not interested on what he was saying .Geet thought with her chin resting on her palm .
There's that and he was the handsomest hunk on the block .too sexy to be the teacher .geet sighed as she watched lazily students to discuss with him about their confusions .
Oh she had some points herself .but she would rather discuss the points at evening over a cup of ginger tea with him alone in that tiny apartment she had become very comfortable with .
She wistfully thought about the coming evening as her mind drifted off to their little escapade at morning in the library .
They were there to help geet prepare her thesis .She didn't remember when their minds drifted off from the subject and they had found themselves in a banter.
So you telling me that you compared me as Rhett. Really geet ..!! he raised his brows at her .
No'I didn't say that.i mean..in some cases you behave like..I mean you are arrogant . and rhett is quite '
"You like arrogant ". arjun rasped taking step closer to her when she involuntarily took step back. "And by the way I m not arrogant .i m smart and confident ."
Really .. she battled her lashes with a pout that she knew would drive him crazy . her knew found knowledge was coming handy .
"Stop doing that ."
"Doing what ..?" she asked too innocently.
"Making me want to kiss you right here ."
she hadn't expected him to be that shameless there in the library of all places .Geet had gulped .all her confidence fading away ."You wouldn't ..this is library ! "
"Try me baby ! "
"So is that your dirty secret ? picturing me as rhett and imagine your ways with me?" He quirked his sensual lips in such a manner that geet couldn't help but stare .
she gulped flustered suddenly remembering the hot dreams that she had of him .
Arjun narrowed his eyes and observed the fleeting thoughts her eyes carried as her cheeks flushed crimson ,secretly swallowing a triumphant smile he had just smirked. the sexy hot smirk that made her stomach flutter and knees turned into jello.
"No, I don't think I will kiss you, although you need kissing, badly.That's what's wrong with you. You should be kissed and often, and by someone who knows how. " he rasped a quote from gone with the wind . making her more red if that was possible.
"shut up ..! i dont need .." she couldn't finish it.
you do, oh sweet lord.! you do so much ! he had rasped scrutinizing her face as she had turned away shielding herself from the burning gaze on her.
Arjun had taken a step towards her back and cornered her with his own body ..as his breaths fanned on her nape. she had shivered .he had smirked witnessing at the goose bumps on her arm that he had given .
He had bent on her and brushed his nose on her nape.
He had intended to just touch her nerves .. make her feel what was she missing .but her naivety and the way her body responded to him she always managed to loose his control.he had given in the allure of the dangerous curves of her body .
the string on her back was beckoning him to tug on it.Disregarding his minds endless shout he had lifted his hand to it ..
A small pull.
The pearly smooth back lay open bare to his eyes. Hypnotized he had bent on her . brushing lips into a feathery kiss .
she had leaned automatically giving him access..his hands had snaked her petite form from behind and crashed into her chest before swooping down to give long trail of wet kisses on her neck making her a quavering pool of liquid heat.
She had moaned out his name hoarsely .. that turned him into a fervent teenager who hadn't thought a single moment about making out with her in college library before turning her around and crashing his mouth against hers.
that soon turned into a passionate hungry kiss behind the tall dusty racks of books . They hadn't noticed until after they had reached the furthest corner .
People do things in love ! he had thought in his mind before adjusting cloths after their little make out session .
Love '?
He had helplessly sighed . the heart failing him miserably . he needed to do something before it all starts spinning out of control . he thought it would never affect him ever again . he thought he had shut them forever successfully .
As his eyes fall on her he was stunned to find. a hickey , plain simple hickey stared at him blatantly. she was trying to catch her breath unaware of what effect that had on arjun .
What enchantment she speaks ?
He had planned revenge for her.
But now a days he started seeing a question mark after it.
She had opened her eyes and gave him a shy smile that had simply stopped his heart. taking in the moment for a second he had leaned in and planted a chaste kiss on her forehead. She had snuggled to him hiding her face in the crook of his neck as his hands draped around her.
"Miss geet ..may I know what is so funny you are thinking about .." the monster asked waking her up from her trance.
She looked as him slightly puzzled..The slightly dilated pupils , the flushed cheeks had given away her secret .She saw his eyes dancing with mirth . but his face held no emotion whatsoever . she knew that he knew.
She had no answer to that .she had quietly bent her head making the whole class looking at her agape .
No glare ..no snarky retort .Geet had changed for sure.
***
Geet walked absently to her dorm room from the dinner hall when she found a couple of her friends standing in a group a few meters away , chatting excitedly over some matter.
She tried escaping not wanting to be disturbed by the mindless chatters of them .given her frenzy state of mind she had kept a comfortable distance from her friends. she didn't want to slip out anything regarding her and arjun's relationship . she caressed the word relationship as she thought about it.
She could name it right ?
A relationship ?
The topic hasn't been brought up yet.They hadn't talked about it. actually they haven't talked anything about themselves when they met . its either they are studying or its teasing flirting which eventually leads to heavy make out sessions that switched off their ability to think altogether.
She tried hard not to let the smile erupt as she thought about her heart throb . Lost in her own world geet didn't even notice all from the group looking at her strangely .
Stopped by a girl suddenly she composed herself , trying best to bring back the nonchalance as she asked "What ?"
"That's what we are asking .! What's wrong with you "..asked sunanda standing with hands on her hips
"Nothing ..why do you think anything would be wrong ." geet replied shifting her gaze. the scrupulous glare of her friends made her uncomfortable.
Payel came forward and tilted her chin and said knotting her brows together since when geet raichanda averts her gaze ?
"Oh please .dont you have anything better to do" geet retorted brushing her hand off ..
"I am going to call it a night . have loads of classes tomorrow."
She made her way but the girls didn't leave her alone. They followed her to her dorm room . before she could protest she found them sitting comfortably in her tiny bed .
Geet sighed exasperated .knowing they wouldn't leave her alone.
"What happened geet ..you don't talk to us now a days .i don't even get to see you around" zaria complained.
"You haven't gone home in this vacation . Everything alright sweetie" asked sunanda concerned.
"Are you in love ! oh my god ! that explains !" payel jumped to the conclusion as medha another girl commented . "its signs of love .told ya. But you are the one objected so surely ..no it cant be" she mimicked sunanda's voice at the end.
What nonsense..!! geet gaped them incredulously .!
"I m fine and nothings wrong ..but by the way ..sunanda why do you think I cant be in love ?" she eyed her suspiciously.
"No . I didn't say like that .." sunanda glared at medha who was more than happy to dig her grave.
"Its just ..given the attitude of your dadaji it would be ..you know its unlikely for you to ..umm' she left her sentence unfinished knowing fully well how this conversation could change geet's mood .
Geet on the other hand didn't react .she wondered on her words as a blank expression plastered on her face.which sunanda did the mistake to read as anger .
"You of course you can fall in love with your fiance..the guy would be picked by your dadaji ." sunanda hurriedly spoke trying to do the damage control .but it was already done ! The words gnawed on her as payal changed the topic .
"Have congratulated zaria yet ?"
"Why ..? I mean .." geet tried to remain interested looking at a enthusiastic payal .
"Oh god ..! which world do you live in these days?"
"Anybody cares to tell me whats going on exactly ?" geet asked exasperated watching zaria blushing furiously and the girls giggling around her.
"Zaria finally got her prince charming !! vikas had proposed her and after that they are going steady .going on dates and all that ..!" sunanda exclaimed.
"What ? when ?" geet looked anything but pleased . but recovered quick seeing the expression on other's face "I mean that's amazing zaria .congrats dear !" geet said touching her cheek .
It had been 14 days zaria said shyly .
It hadn't been a secret zaria had been pining for vikas since they had known each other, the very first day of their college . But vikas never showed interest in her despite he hung with the group . He was not a guy to go steady with any girl . even he had showed his interest in geet a number of times .and now this ? after what was exchanged between them last time ? seriously a lot has changed since she stopped hanging with her group . geet thought .14 days ! it's the same for her . since they had the first kiss in that fateful evening .
She looked at zaria who was gushing with love talking animatedly about vikas. she wished she could do that . share about arjun and her new found feelings she thought wistfully . but knowing fully well she cant. This was not socialy acceptable . she didn't know the rules very well but it would be pretty stringent she knew that much .
Authorities might suspend her for having an affair with the teacher . god knows what they would do with arjun !
her friends who are gushing over zaria's affair would look at her like she had dirt on her face. Arjun was much older than her , out of her league . she swallowed thickly as the sudden need to be near him surged through her.
"Girls .. its really a good news . I m sorry could not get to catch up with you guys for a while . but I will compensate for it . a party in honour of zaria and vikas ! "
"Yayyy!!.".. girls cheered and geet watched them fondly .
"Okay guys ..i m going study now .see you tomorrow ..now shoo'" .geet pushed payal to the door '
The girls whined but left her anyways .
"Off ho yaar ..you and your odd study hours .catch some sleep dear .you look like you could use it .more over dia's gonna top .we have dropped the idea of competing with her."
"It doesn't have to be like that .if you would study you can do well too.." geet objected at roshni's comment
"And take dia's place .not possible !! the girl is already intelligent and moreover she has contacts at high places ." zaria winked at payal who just shrugged .
"Wait .what ? what do you mean by that." geet asked noticing the exchange .
"Don't you know . arjun khuarna is private tutoring her " payal enlightened her
"Only tutoring ..god knows what else he is teaching her." Zaria winked suggestively .
"Geet felt her stomach churn .! "
"What ..? dont tell me you don't have the winds of it ."
"Our Prof Mr Khurana have taken her in his wings . rumour has it they share quite a bond " zaria further added without having the faintest idea what her words doing to geet.
"Its rumour right ..! you shouldn't be talking about a girl like that .reputation of a girl is all that matters in a society ." geet spoke firmly .
"But the girl should keep it in her mind in the first place .don't you think ? whatever ! you were right from the beginning . something is fishy about that hunk of a teacher of ours."
"What's his fault anyway ?"
"He is getting the attention and enjoying it" sunanda commented literally pissed at dia .
"middle class girl's are like that only geet .they would do whatever they need to do to achieve the success in the first place." Payal commented checking her manicured nails .
Geet knew it better not to comment .as far as she knew this happens .everybody is jealous of success . she shouldn't get bothered by rumours and keep her trust on arjun .she knew it very well how clingy dia can become when its needed.
"Fine ...let it be.! But we have to try .isnt it .go to your rooms and do something useful .." geet pushed them out from her room .
'
She was going to arjun .. she would not spoil the moment by talking about dia she decided.
***
"Aren't you afraid somebody might find us like this " geet asked as she sat there on the bench beside Arjun .
"Like what ? arjun asked looking at her incredulously . " there's quite a gap between us ..as far I can see ".
"I mean so late at night , just we , together."
Arjun didn't reply to that .
He was worried .about a lot things .one of them was what if anybody finds out about him and geet . how would he explain . He cant tell the truth .
Hell he didn't even tell the truth to her .
He knew any moment the topic is going to come .knowing geet he wondered why hadn't she brought up the topic yet . the topic he was dreading for two weeks now . what is it between them ?
He was bit surprised at the girl who never beats around the bush hadn't yet asked him about his intentions .
He was more wary about geet than the authorities . but mostly they shouldn't meet like this .if they keep on meeting like this things are gonna be difficult for them , for him . he would start to get soft on her. Hadn't he already ?
He often wondered what would he say to geet if she asks "the question"
She didn't even know who he is ?
was he cheating her ? he had asked himself.
But hadn't it been his right to be with geet in the first place. It ate through him not able to tell her about himself .her maan . ask her the questions that was keeping him awake at night for so many years.What was he doing there?
Scouring through the dusts of the past . if he was here to take revenge then why was he having THIS with her. this in the middle of the night in their secret hide out .
he keeps meeting her secretly,like it had been a drug to him ..each time thinking it would be the last .
It seems like he cant keep his hands off her. He was behaving like a teenager on sugar rush.
Has he forgiven her ?
Hell no ..!
He wished his mentor could be there today and guide him . on other thought none of this would have happened if he would have been here .
Uday raichanda was not only missed by his daughter geet , but the way his godson Maan missed him had no bound. Not a day has passed he hadn't had remorse about his untimely demise . when he had passed away arjun was studying abroad . he wanted the very best for his daughter . but he hadn't had the faintest idea that events will turn like this for geet and maan . If he was seeing this from far above he would have understood arjun , his plea's , his dilemma .
he was here for her father .But he needed her to feel what he has gone through .wasnt he ?
Arjun couldn't decide on his own feelings as he stared at geet .the his fate was entangled with her from the beginning of the decade .
A part of him was mad at her being such cruel to him , his family . a part wanted to protect her from all the evils .a part wanted to get lost in that warm doe eyes and not think about any of this complicated things . their past .
Poor girl seemed to be falling for him . when she didn't have any faintest idea that they shared a important past .
Was it fair to geet ?
Ofcourse it was .
Hadnt she damaged him for good.
he had lost his family , only family over this girl .he shouldn't be so besotted with her .
She deserved a lot more than this cheating she was getting .
But he wondered what would happen to him at the end ?
Would he be able to watch her suffer ?
But was it fair to the doe eyed girl sitting in front him looking at him eyes filled with immense trust . the girl belonging from a orthodox family like raichanda hadn't even asked him about love .
Was it fair to this girl ..?
He didn't know . he only knew one thing .
Again this woman was awakening strange emotions in him knowing another heartbreak is knocking on his door.
What should he do ?
Hate her or love her ?
He noticed she was saying something to him .he couldn't hear it gazing her intently. her face was epitome of innocence
Could he be wrong ?
sometimes secretly he wished if he could start a fresh .but hell .the past would always be there to come between them .
Why don't I say her everything ? he had started mulling over the thought recently.
what if she changes her mind finding out who arjun really is ? what if she denies him like she had done in past ? what if she leaves him again? what if..
No 'not now ..a little more.. he let himself have the time to know her more. Look into her soul. know what exactly had happened made her wipe out maan singh khurana from her mind .
Moreover she had not finished her college yet . if she breaths a word about maan to her dadaji .he would take her away for good.
What would he do then?
He didn't know ..he didn't want to know .
"Sir '.? I m talking to you 'hello ..?"
"Huh?"
"What are you thinking ?"
"Nothing ..how many times I have called you not to call me that ?"
"Once actually ..but you even .."
"Shut up geet .. I don't want to talk now .."He snapped .
Geet had gone quiet instantly .arjun looked at her noting her silence .a glisening drop waited on her lashes threatening to fall ..
The sight stabbed his gut .
He sighed and lay down on the bench to rest his head on her lap .
"Why are you crying ?"
A surprised geet looked at him when he comfortably settled himself in her lap .
"I meant I want to be kissed now by my girl .." he said as he nuzzled in her tummy .
"But You are bad ..very bad" ' geet managed to utter as she tried to push him away .
Arjun didn't budge . he picked up her hand and placed in his hair .
"I know ..But you like bad ."
Geet smiled through her tears as arjun gazed her face bathed in moonlight .
The very moment she felt like de ja vu .
Hadn't she lived this moment before ..
Like there was maan lay on her lap . they are laughing crazily over some trifling matter .
Hadn't her lap was the most favourite place of maan's ..
She shivered and hugged him tight ..
Arjun wouldn't go away right ? arjun wouldn't leave her like maan '
Please god don't snatch him away too .
Are you cold ..? arjun asked concerned.
"I m fine ."
i will be fine .
wont I ?
Arjun sighed contented as he closed his eyes .
Tomorrow, i would think tomorrow . today I would be with my geet .
okay ...so here it is . let me know what u think of it . and reply quick so that i can read . critics are welcomed !
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