DIL, DOSTI.. HUM!!#2 ch 43: pg 141/thread #3 added - Page 29

Chapter 33

Geet

"maan.."

I whispered!!

Maan is DD!! It was never dev!!

I sat der.. blank!!

Shock wasn't my first reaction..

I felt numb!!

All dis meant.. tht obviously he knew evrythng..

N

Yet he dint tell me!!

Why?

"geet.."

"hmm.."

"r u ok?"

"hmm.. I just need sm tym alone.."

"yes.. bt.."

"plz.."

Dev walked out..

Bt meer came n hugged me..

"I m sorry di.. its all coz of me.. I wish I hadn't rushed into tellin maa abt u n.."

"meera plz.. I need 2 b alone"

She nodded n left too!!

I was in a big mess!!

It was beyond me to understand why wud maan do dis..

All dese yrs he was DD to me

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I dint even doubt it for a sec!!

Not once in so many yrs did he tell me it was him!!

N nt evn after we met..

Worse still nt even after talks of dev n my engagement..

Did all dis mean nothing to him!!

Did my feelings mean nothing to him?

I hated DD ryt nw..

For making me so dependent on him..

He had alwaz been der for me thru thick n thin

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Nw whn I needed him d most to stand by me..

He had run away!!

Just hw was I supposed to interpret dis?

That he had no feelings for me, tht dis frndship we had shared ovr d yrs was a farce..

N wht abt wht we had shared after coming to india?

Did it not mean anything 2 him?

Obviously he was aware of d way I felt for him?

So basically he does nt reciprocate my feelings..

N hard as it may be to accept it

He shud have been man enuf to face d situation rather than run away, leaving me stranded in d middle of no whr!!

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Yet my heart refused to hate him!!

Refused to believe he wud go to such an extent..!!

Was it possible der was more to it?

For a moment I allowed myself 2 think of d possibility..

If wht I was thinking was true,

It wud possibly explain evrythng I felt for him since we had met!!

Dat inexplicable attraction, dat comfort n safety he exuded..

Everything!!

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Yet nw I refused to accept nythng until I knew wht he thot of it!!

It was almost 2 in d mrng..

Bt sleep was d last thng in my mind!!

I was mentally n physically exhausted!!

N yet..

I cudnt relax until I knew of d truth!!

I picked up d phone wanting 2 call him..

Bt it was switched off!!

Whr r u maan?

I was getting more n more restless by d minute!!

I needed my answers.. now!

Hw was I to survive wid all dis mess?

Unknowingly my feet carried me towards his room!!

I remembered d last tym I had walked in,

N lost myself first drooling ovr him n den in his arms as he saved me from d fall!!

Der was no guilt though nw I cud relate to it..

He was my DD?

Bt again d fear of whthr or not he reciprocated my feelings came back to me!!

I walked to his cupboard n opened it on an instinct..

D first thng which caught my sight was his crumpled black shirt he had worn on our 'date' ystrdy..

I ran my fingers ovr it..

N it gave a strange sense of peace of mind to me..

Knowing der was still tym b4 I cud get in touch wid him, I took d shirt out..

Bt as I dragged it, a bag fell along wid it!!

N two diaries fell out of it!!

In normal circumstances, I wud hv considered it wrong to intrude into nybdy's pvt space bt nw wid maan's absence n d endless questions in my mind,

Probably dis cud help!!