ollo guys.. i've written a random OS .. its kinda bore.. but i tried writing something and bits of it are inspired from my favourite novel .. do share your views.. and omit the mistakes. i'm too lazy to proof-read it..
OS.. Alone..
Since the final year got over, our group of six friends hung out before everyone had to go home. It was less than a week's time and we spent alot of time toggether. My friends were everything to me after my parents passed and since then I've been living with my grand parents but mostly I used to spend most of my days in the apartment as my my uncle lived with them and seeing my younger cousins being loved by their parents made me feel jealous. I avoided going to that place.
Three years ago I met Maan. He was one of my dearest friends but gradually i started to fall for him. and one day he proposed me and we started our relationship. He was not a student when we met but the son of a known businessman and he had just started to work with his father and a little accident was the cause they met. and yes I would certainly call it an accident as it never did any of us any good. Maan used to be out of station most of the time when his dad handed the business over to him. It was like my Maan was gone and some unknown person was wearing my Maan's mask. It was never the same again. At times I used to feel lonely when my friends didnt have time to talk to me because they were either out with their families or with their boyfriends but i just thought of it as my idle minds products from the devil's factory. But later my mind used to be occupied with assignments and fun with friends.
After my friends left to either go back to their homes or went out with family for vacaions, i fell ill. The morning Maan came to meet me and said that he'd be going out for a couple of days on a business trip and would be back my next week . After maan went the feeling of loneliness evaded me and by night my fever got worse. I made myself a cup of green tea but after taking the first couple of sips i threw up. i just wentto sleep taking the medicines thinking the fever will subside till morning. But in the morning I couldn't even get up. i hadnt had any thing to eat since breakfast the day before. I just couldn't get out of my bed and I just rested my head on the pillow and drifted to sleep.
It was night when I woke up and felt alot better than before. i got out of my bed and went into the kitchen to get some food for my growling tummy. After stuffing food i went to check my voice mails and what surprised me the most was the date. The date was of five days later than when i was ill with fever. i then checked the news channels for confirmation and was quit shocked at the revelation that i had passed out for five days. I checked my voice mailbox but i was horified to see that no one alled me even once and no one cared if I was alive or dead. There was just a message from Maan that he's be arriving today. It hurt me and that too very badly. My existance didnt matter to any one. No one cared for me and thats what made me sad and I ended up in the park at midnight.
The life after my parents' deat hhad been just like a dream and a horrible dream. I never thought that i'd be left out so alone. It is true that loneliness teaches a person many things and from my experiece I've realised that everyone has come alone in this world and he has to go alone. No one'll be there for him. Near death eperience taught me a big lesson that I should never trust the world. Only God is the one who can be trusted with all things and even the deepest secrets.
It had been quite long since I had been in the park, having the flashback of my life. As i got up to leave I saw Maan coming in my direction and before he could say any thing i told him that it was all over. That didnt shock him infact he told me that he about to say the same and that he loved someone else. This bit of news pinched me but the world is filled with lies. Without saying any thing I went back to my apartment and saw my grandparents. It shocked me but i hugged them and cried my heart out. I apologized to them for my misbehaviour and after finishing paking the next day, I left with them to go away from the momentary happiness to my grandparents' house where i could be with my family; my grands, uncle, aunt and my cousins who seemed to love me despite of my past behaviour.
Udne Ki Aasha
Pushpa Impossible
