I entered the room with a smile on my face coz now I knew
that maan wanted to start fresh and for me nothing mattered than that one note
he had given to me.
I went around the house searching for him and found him in
the balcony standing all alone even on this day..it was supposed to be a
festival and everybody is supposed to enjoy but my husband MSK will never change'neither
could he tell me what he wanted to say nor enjoy a festival.
I sighed and went ahead to talk to him
I was happy..very happy..after days it felt like life was
back in my arms, and I wanted to thank him for that.
He looked at me once and then turned back again..i knew he
was thinking why I was smiling like an idiot but didn't he know he was the only
who could make me smile. I shook my head at his innocence.
"Aap yahi soch rahein hain na ki main itni khush kyon hoon..main
has kyun rahi hoon..uski wajah hai dev..usne.."
I turned to look at him bt he had walked away. I went and
found him in the drawing room standing near the stairs when dev came from the
door. His presence didn't make a difference to me. I walked towards maan.."aap.."
"Jiske wajah se khush ho usko jaako bataoo" and he shot a
glare at dev. I couldn't understand what this meant.
"Main kuch samjhi nahi.."
"Haan ab toh tumhe meri baatein bhi samajh nahi aayengi na..".
I shook my head to make sense of what he was saying.
"Maan aap.."
'Geet.." he raised his voice and I took a step back
involuntarily due to fear.
"Meri baat toh.."
"geet jo tumhe samajhta hai, jo tumhare chehre pe muskaan la
sakta hai..aur jiske saath tum apne gam baant sakti ho usiki paas jao na.."and he
turned his face towards dev.
"Bro aap.." dev interjected..
I shot a glare at him to keep quiet..
"Maan aap kya kehna chahte hai..mera dev se kya lena dena
hai.."
"Kya tum dev ke saath farm house par nahi thi.."
"haan par.."
"Kya tumhari khushi wajah ke dev nahi hai.."
"haan par aap.."
"dekha Geet jo kaam main nahi kar paaya who dev ne kar
diya..toh tumhara uske saath rehna chahiye jo tumhe samjhe aur jiski saath tum
khush raho he theek hai na.."
I just stood there dumbfounded. Did he really mean what he
said right now. Did he think that I was happy with dev'the man who had ruined
my life, the man who had made me sever
all the ties of my family..the man who gave me nothing but pain .
"bro aap yeh kya.."
"nahi Dev jab inhe mujh pe vishwaas nahi hai toh inhe koi
safaayi dene ka koi fayadaa nahi hai.."
And then I turned to my husband.."Maan yaad hai ek baar apne
kaha tha ki aapke liye pyaar ka matlab vishvaas aur bharosa hai..maine toh aap
par who bharosa kiya tha aur apni zindagi ki sabse badi saccahi aapke saamne
rakh di thi..par shayad main aapka who bharosa kabhi jeet nahi paayi.."
I said that and walked out of my house. The house that had
given me love, care the house that had returned my all relationships but I think
my fate always wanted me to be alone ..and here I was alone again at the
crossroads of life with no -where to go..
INDEX
Part 1 pg 1
Part 2 Pg 3
Part 3 pg 5part 4 pg 9part 5 pg 11
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