#*Devil's Den #3*#tum sirf meri ho - New Link P. 1 - Page 43

I was at the station..

I heard him calling my name "geet..ruk jao.."

NO..he can't be here..nobody knew where I was going..Or where I was headed to..Yes even myself..

I knew I had walked into the railway station but what ticket had I purchased from the counter I knew not. I knew I was going away from this town, that was the only thought that mattered to me right now. Nothing else did..OR it did..i don't know..i knew I had to go away from him..I loved him..that was the only thing I was sure about. He loved me..I knew not.. I had seen it in his eyes .. I had seen it everyday but there was something else in them when I told him the truth. The past of my life. He didn't believe me..

Funny..life had again brought me to the place from where I had started few months back,Yes at the railway station. But then I was alone and today I was not there.. MY body was there but my soul, I had left it behind. I had left it at the outhouse. I had left myself at the office I had left myself with the ring that I placed on the table.

But I knew the only right thing to do was to go away..To go away from him so that he has no more pain in his life coz of me. I had told him that he will not be able to live the burden of my truth but he was sure that he will stand by me. That confidence had made me confess my life's bitterest truth to him.And I won..he could not take it.I wanted to lose..but life made me win. Once when I wanted to lose life gave me success.. How bitter this success was ..I wish he had been furious I wish he had shouted..but all he said was" mujhe laga tha tum sirf meri ho geet"..those words were still ringing in my ears.He thought that someone else in my life had the place I had given to him. No he didn't understand. That man, my husband never had a place in my heart. He was to be my life partner but he never touched my heart the way he did.

I saw him running into the station looking frantically for me..A part of me told me geet he will find u..he always knows where u are.. u cant deny that..he feels ur presence..U saw it today in the office..he walked towards the pillar where u were hiding as if he knew that he will be able to find u there.. and my brain agreed to that notion.. but no I could not let him find me not now. I had to go away. I knew if he will find me he will take me back .. How I don't know he always found a way. He was stronger than me.. he could even just drag me to the car.. but no he would not do that.. he will never do that.. whatever may happen he would not hurt me.. he could hurt himself, physically, mentally, morally..But even a tear in my eye drove him insane.. he had told me" main tumhari aankon mein aansoon nahi dekh sakta geet..I hate u geet"..But even then I had seen love for myself in those eyes.. behind the pain he was going through, behind the anger I could see the love.. But today in the office when I had told him everything all I could see was distrust and hatred. I could not stand that and I walked away from him.

I had walked away and even when he had come to me in the outhouse I didn't wanna see him. I knew he would make me weak by dadi's health or something.. but no I could not live not now , not after I had seen distrust in his eyes.Not after the hatred that I had seen..

I saw him running towards and I ran as fast my legs could carry me. No I didn't want to face him again. I paused to look behind and saw he was not there.. I breathed a sigh of relief. He had gone back.But..

I looked at my ticket and saw that it was some train to AHMEDABAD . I saw the train in front of me and I noticed it was the same train . I kept my foot on the first stair and someone pulled me aside..

I knew who that someone was. I knew that touch. I didn't have to look at him to tell who it was.He was looking at me..or rather analyzing me like I was some runaway kid and he had just caught me red handed in that. I didn't understand what was going in that eyes. He looked happy, his eyes seem to be relaxed as if he had a found a lost treasure and his touch told me that he is not gonna let me go. His grip was strong but he made sure it didn't hurt me. I was staring at me transfixed when his hand came to my cheek and came down wet. I didn't know when I had started crying, I didn't know why I was crying but I knew that I was happy seeing him there holding me to him..

But no I can't be with him I can't give him more pain and I knew that being with me he will get nothing but pain and hurt and according to him I had deceived him .. But if he believed that then why was he here.. why was he holding me to him why could I see love in his eyes again.. there were too many questions in my head and I could not come with the answer to any.. not till he was holding me. My brain always seem to stop working when he was around, so I needed to move.

I moved but his hold was so strong that I couldn't move a inch. But he saw that I wanted to move." Kaahan jaa rahi ho geet" he asked me.. I looked into his eyes and there was a smile in his eyes that I had never seen before. "who main..aapse door" I closed my eyes and said that.

"mujhse door..par kahaan tak jaoogi geet main toh hamesha tumhare saath rahoonga..saaya banke maine waada kiya hai tumse ki main zindagi ke har mod par tumhara saath doonga.."

I was shocked. He was going to be with me but then at the office..

"ghar chalein geet"..

No..i shook my head..he smiled to me..Maan and smiling I had rarely seen him doing that ..

"Kyun geet aaj hum yahin rahenge"..he looked around.." geet yeh jagah bahut unhygeinc hai..wahhan dekho kitni makhiyaan hai.."

I was staring at him..was he ok..i mean I was telling him that I am leaving and he in talking about flies..how could he come up with something like that..

"Nahin hum yaahan nahi rehne waale hai..aap apne ghar waapis jaa rahein aur main yahaan se door.."

"nahin geet hum ghar ja rahein hai.." his jaw was set as if he knew what he wanted and was not gonna give up.. he was sure I will go with him..BUT today no I was not gonna give it to him..

"Nahin.." he was still holding me and I couldn't move but I turned my face away..

He closed his eyes..i noticed that from the corner of my eye..

"accha ghar mat chalo yaahan se chalo..meri baat sun lo ek baar uske baad tumhara jo faisla ho who he hum karenge..agar tum jaana chaho toh main khud tumhe yaahan chodne aaonga"

"aapne meri baat suni thi.." I retorted back at him..

Oh god what had I said. I shouldn't have said tht..i didn't mean to but it was so instantaneous