April 6th
Alright, I'll admit it.. I can't stop thinking about her. Ever since yesterday, I've been a bit lost about her. When our marriage was finalised, I couldn't stop staring at her.. Bhabi had to call me out on it. I'm normally so composed about my feelings.. why have I become like this? It's only been one day!
Anyway, we got invited back to her place for Lodi. I haven't celebrated Lodi like this in awhile, so it was definitely a good experience.. although when we got there, this woman was screaming for her daughter. She was accusing Geet's brother.. I wonder..
Geet.. she looked so beautiful. I don't think I can wait for her to become mine. Every time I see her, all I want to do is take her far away from her family and take care of her. She's so innocent, and so vulnerable. It seems her grandfather runs the show, and her brother doesn't make it easy either. I need to erase her fears of living overseas.. I promised her we'd celebrate Lodi in Canada the way she celebrates it here. Anything for her.. anything.. I trust myself enough to do that.. at least I hope so.
I wanted to take a photo of her.. no one has ever refused me the way she did.. blushing and running away. But I caught a glimpse of that smile.. there's something about that smile.. there's a lot of fear.. as if someone will tell her off if she's caught smiling.. but at least I know she smiles. And one day, soon I hope, she'll smile.. just for me.
As for that photo, well, I managed to get a photo of the whole family.. and I was about to take another.. just of her.. until I got that call..
That confounded call.. I don't want to hurt Geet.. but I'm compromised. And I'm reminded of what waits back for me in Canada. Can I still take Geet knowing what's back there?