HII GUYS,THANX FOR UR COMMENTS.....REALLY LUVED THEM...WELL,B4 I START THE 8TH PART...I WUD LIKE TO SAY THAT IM MORE COMFORTABLE WRITING THE EMOTIONS OR DIALOGUES IN ENGLISH THAN IN HINDI....SO,IN THIS PART IF THERE IS A LOTT OF ENGLISH..PLZZZ DON'T MIND....AND I WUD BE REALLY GRATEFUL IF U ALL CUD IMAGINE THAT IN HINDI....I'LL TRY MY LEVEL BEST TO WRITE IN HINDI...BUT THE PROB IS THE WRITING FLOW DOESN'T COME EASILY.....
LOTS OF LUV,
TIA
RECAP:-ARMAAN AND RIDZ KISSED EACH OTHER....RIDZ FEELS GUILTY...ARMAAN TRIES TO CONSOLE HER....BOTH HUG INTIMATELY...
PART 8
Both were locked in each other's arms....Ridz cudn't hold back her feeling,she felt she wud explode if she didn't tell them to armaan....so she decided ki it's better she vents all her feelings to him and END it once for and all....
Ridz:-(still crying unconsolably...)Armaan,im really very sorry...plzzz mujhe maaf kar do....pata nahin mujhe kya ho gaya tha...main khud ko rok nahin paayi...main jaanti hoon ki tum mujhe bilkul pasand nahin karte ho....in fact u hate me...par main..mujhe kya ho raha hai,mujhe kuch samajh mein nahin aa raha...i know hum sirf 2-3 mahine pehle hi mile hai...and humare beech jo bhi hai,uski shuruat bahut kharab tareeke se hui thi.....par....par ab meri feelings tumhare liye din-badin badti hi jaa rahi hai...main nahin jaanti kis anjaani cheez ne mujhe tumse baandh diya hai....mujhe kuch nahin pata...maine kabhi nahin socha tha ki tum mere liye itne important ban jaaoge...im confused totally...main nahin samjh paa rahi ki mujhe kya chahiye...main apne dil ki sunoon ya dimag ki....tumne mujhe badal diya hai...lekin in sab ke bavjood im scared....kyunki jo feelings mere dil mein hain...i can't explain them....bas jaise woh tumhara hi intezaar kar rahin hain.....Armaan, sirf tumhari wajah se aaj mujhe aisa lag raha hai......ki jaise mere dil mein jo khaalipan tha,woh bhar gaya hai......zindagi mein jo soonapan tha,woh poora ho gaya hai.........main jaanti hoon,ki mujhe tumse yeh sab nahin kehna chahiye tha....YEH SAHIN NAHIN HAI.....isiliye main chahti hoon,ki tum mujhse keh do ki u HATE me,jo main jaanti hoon ki sach hai.....One word from you, aur main hamesha ke liye apni feelings ko khamosh kar doongi....plzzz say na Armaan,ki u HATE ME,plzzz armaan keh do...taaki,main jald se jald isse bhool jaoon...plzz Armaan..plzzz
Armaan was stunned beyond imagination to hear all this....he had never expected even in his wildest dreams to hear all this from Riddhima....He had always thought from her behaviour that She DTESTED AND HATED him....he cudn't say anything.....Both of them sat there,still in each other's arms...Neither Armaan nor Riddhima had let go of each other....
Plzz Armaan,say tht u hate me!!!!.....Ridz voice trailed in Armaan's thoughts......There was silence between them and then..........Armaan whispered in Riddhima's ears.."I LOVE U"...........
Ridz was shocked...slowly she withdrew her face from Armaan's chest and looked into his eyes with surprise,wonder,disbelief as if her ears had misled her...
Ridz:-"Kya...!!"
Armaan:-(tenderly and still in tht whispering tone)..."I LOVE U......Tumne sahi kaha ki humein mile sirf 2-3 mahine hi hue hain...par is 2-3 mahine ki mulaqat ne meri poori zindagi badal ke rakh di hai.....mujhe har waqt khushi ka ehsaas hota hai..jaise ki main iss duniya ka sabse khushnasib insaan hoon.....jab main tumse baat karta hoon,toh meri dil ki dhadkane tez ho jaati hain.....aur kai ankahe jazbaat panapne lagte hain....mujhe har jagah tumhara ehsaas hota hai.......tumhari khushboo hamesha mere saath rehti hai....tumhari hansii hamesha mere kaano mein goonjti rehti hai.....tumhari baatein mujhe yeh ehsaas karati hai,ki tum sach mein ho aur mere paas ho........maine kabhi SOCHA YA PLAN nahin kiya tha..lekin mujhe tumse pyaar BAS ho gaya.......Iss duniya mein bahut si khoobsurat cheezein hain lekin unmein se kissi bhi cheez ne kabhi mujhe apni taraf nahin kheencha.....Lekin tumhari innocent si smile....tumhari aankhen aur....tumne mere dilon-dimaag ko jhinjhorkar rakh diya hai.....tumhe dekhkar ab aisa lagta hai...maano aasman se bhagwan ne kissi FARISHTE ko mere liye bhej diya hai.....Sirf tum aur iss pyaar ke liye.....AAj yeh Armaan badal gaya hai......Maine kabhi pyaar ko nahin jaana ,na samjha....aur main aaj bhi nahin jaanta ki pyaar exactly kya hota hai....par itna zaroor jaan gaya hoon ki main jo bhi tumhare liye mehsoos karta hoon,uska ehsaas seedha dil tak jaata hai......main tumhe poore dilojan se chahta hoon...tumne meri rooh ko chhoa hai aur ab tum meri duniya ho...IM INCOMPLTE WITHOUT U....Armaan's voice trailed off and tears fell from his eyes.....how cud he ever explain to riddhima,what she means to him....
It was now riddhima's turn to look stunned......She wanted to be in armaan's arms for ever.....she kissed away armaan's tears and was going to kiss huim on the lips....WHEN........... her past memories came to the forefront and she suddenly withdrew herself from armaan's arms...she ran to a nearby tree.stood with her back towards armaan..
Ridz:-"nahin,armaan yeh galat hai.....im sorry i strted all this....shayad is mahoul mein hum behak gaye hain......Main aur tum kabhi saath nahin ho sakte....yaaad karo,hamare beech kya kya nahin guzri hai....aur mujhe bhi ab apne feelings par bharosa nahin raha,bachpan ki ek galti ne...mujhe boori tarah tod diya tha...aur ab main wahin galti dobara nahin kar sakti.....main itni jaldbazi nahin kar sakti...aur phir shaayd hum ek doosre ke liye naa bane ho!!!"
Armaan:-"riddhima,yeh kya keh rahi ho.....jab main apni feelings se nahin bhaag raha toh tum kyun bhaag rahi ho????Sachai yahin hai,ki humare beech kuch toh hai...jisne aaj tak humein ek-doosre ke saath kissi na kissi roop mein jode rakha hai...aur woh "KUCH" pyaar hai....."
Ridz:-"Nahin armaan,mujhe apni dil par bharosa karne se darr lagta hai.....usne kabhi muje sahin raah nahin dikhaayi.....plzz armaan....humein yeh sab bhool jaana chahiye...."
Armaan:-(his voice is a bit stronger now)"riddhima,jab main tumhare saath hota hoon,toh jaise mujhe nayi zindagi mil jaati hai...main har pal jee uthta hoon..tumhara sirf mere paas hona,mujhe itni khushiyan deta hai...jitni aaj tak kissi ne mujhe nahin dii
hain....jo main tumhare liye feel karta hoon,woh aaj tak kissi ke liye nahin kiya....ab main apni zindagi tumhare bina soch bhi nahin sakta....main apni poori zindagi tumhare saath bitana chahta hoon...ab tum batao,ki kya mera aisa sochna galat hai...maine tumse thodi der pehle bhi kaha..ki main abhi bhi nahin jaanta ki pyaar exactly kya hai,lekin agar iska matlab yeh hai ki mujhe tumhari parwah hai,i respect u a lott,i believe in you aur main tumhari khushi ko apni zindagi se bhi upar rakhta hoon TOH HAAN,I LOVE U...Yeh koi crush ya attraction nahin hai...aur mujhe bas yahin kehna hai ki I LOVE U.....
At that moment even ridz wanted to confess to armaan that Even she loved him dearly and more than her life.....but before that she felt she needed to confess it to herself....
Ridz:-"armaan,maine pehle bhi kaha hai,ki main kuch nahin samjh paa rahi hoon,mujhe waqt ki zaroorat hai..apni feelings ko samjhne ke lye...plzz understand...."
Armaan:-( realizing that Riddhima's fears were justifiable...how cud she trust a person like him...when he had tried every possible way to make her life hell,so he said in a very matured voice....)"theek hai,riddhima ab main aur kuch nahin kahoonga,maine apna dil nikalkar tumhare saamne rakh diya hai....ab aage tumhari marzi....ab raat bahut zyaada ho gayi hai...tum so jaon,kal jaldi hi yahan se nikalna hoga..."
Ridz nodded and went to her place...They closed their eyes but none cud sleep that night...both were lost in each other's thought....Riddhima was still trying to curb her feelings....while armaan made a resolution within him that he wud try every possible way to win her trust ibn him and make her confess her feelings...and luv.....
When daylight seeped thru the canopy of the trees,they opened their eyes....
Armaan:-"riddhima,yahan se jaldi hi nikal chaltein hain...(he decided to act as if nothing had passed between them the night before)"
Ridz also decided to do the same.....
Ridz:-"haan theek hai"
Both ultimately found their way out after 1 hr of walking with the help of the local woodcutters who came early morning in the woods to cut wood and collect the branches for their livlihood.....
Soon,they came to the road from where they cud easily reach the village....There was an awkward silence between them.....they didn't know wt to say to each other so that everything wud be normal.....
They easily found a four-wheeler very small bus,going in the direction of their village and boarded it...On reaching their destination......riddhima thanked armaan for his help the last night and went for searching her frnds.....Armaan kept on standing there looking at her and thought that he'll overcome the distance between them,love her endlessly and also wait for her till infinity....coz it was the only way by which he cud redeem himself from the guilt of hurting her several times...........
PRECAP:-****The camp is coming to an end...on the last day,there is a bonfire...and Armaan sings for riddhima......"
So,guys tht was the 8th part...i have really put a lot of hard work and i need ur love and appreciation....plzz plzzz plzzz,this is a request to all the raders ,just leave a comment,even a small smiley is encouragging..........
Loads of luv,
TIA
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