Badly Arranged- Last part -- pg 88 - Page 42

Wow Nice part!..Just caught up with your fic..lolz..enjoying thr rage they have ..perfect match! 😳 😆

that was cool.........i totally loved it.....uumm...is something burning Angad? 😆 ..........continue soon...

wow nice part.....i think in dis one kripa was definitely mean......n nt angad......

The next part is coming up in a few minute--half an hour at most.

Kripa's Past...

This part is selfishly dedicated to me, and the reason that its soo depressing is because I am depressed at the moment today is the last day of my freedom. School starts tommorow.😭😭😭 I want to DIE!!!😭

Part 16

Many people keep a scrap book, so that years later when they are older and their memories fader they can look back to the times that they were happy. My intention then, to keep a scrap book, was so that I could remember the face of my angel even years later. The intention now is my unwillingness to let go of my past, I never want to forget the reason that I do what I do; the reason that I chose to live my future the way that I do.

I don't know why today I had the urge to pull out my scrap book after so many years. I think it is because I feel guilty once again for playing with yet another innocent heart, or because the innocent one that I am playing with now is named Sahil. Maybe looking back at the 13 year old Kripa Sharma, will allow the 23 year old Kripa Khanna forgive herself once again.

I run my fingers over the front cover which holds the picture of my angel, my Sahil. Looking at it even years after my heart beat does not fail to skip a beat. I turn the page to find myself in gym shorts looking absolutely furious, I laughed thinking that that was the day that I meet him. He had hit me over the head with a basket ball; even then my temper was atrocious. He had apologized so many times.

Below it was a group picture of us at a picnic it was then that he had first asked my name, I had said "Kripa" so quickly that I had to repeat it again for him to hear. He had also asked me whether or not I was the girl that he had hit with the basketball. I had first said "no" and then "yes"; he had smiled so angelically at my confusion. I had blushed a lot that day and when I had gone to bed I had found him once again in my dreams.

The next picture was me on my 14^th birthday. I had been so happy then, with my one arm around my best friend, she had been so beautiful even then, with her dark skin, big green eyes and a perfection that I could never master. I passed through the next few pictures quickly most of them were with my best friend. This had been the time period of unspoken crush. I stopped at one of the pictures the only one with Sahil in it. We had all gone to a restaurant that day, my friends and his. I had been dragged into all of that and didn't really want to go. Sahil had looked so cute that day with a bit of the milk shake on his nose…

I got so lost in my memories that I didn't even hear the footsteps coming towards the door. It took me by shock; I didn't know what to do. This was something that was private, I had never involved anyone and I was unwilling to do so now. So I quickly closed it and shoved it under the bed, and scrambled to get off the floor and sit in a somewhat normal position on the bed.

Angad Khanna walked in; he gave me a weird look. One of astonishment, and then of mocking amusement, "wow Kripa Khanna in tears, I thought I would never see the day." It was then that I realized to my horror that my cheeks had a wet streak running down it.

I quickly whipped it off, "I wasn't crying" I quickly lied, but even to my own ears this sounded lame.

Angad ignored that, "What happened did your boyfriend dump you?" He asked sneeringly. I looked up at him surprised as to how he knew, and he replied seeing the look that I was giving him, "It's not exactly a secret you know. You might as well have been snogging him in the middle of a street."

I glared at him angrily with my arms crossed across my chest, "That's none of your business; I don't keep a record of how many girls you take to bed every night." I said coldly now pulling out a mirror to check my makeup. Why couldn't he just back off, it was so annoying the way he tried to act like a husband all the time. He was jealous it was so clear now.

"Of course you don't, and nor do I care. But seriously woman, find a room." Angad retorted, his face transformed into disgust.

That got me really mad, I didn't allow people to look down on me, so I answered back angrily, "Maybe next time I will."

"Fine, so much better for me," he said in an uncaring tone.

"And just so it's clear I don't give damn about you." That was totally random, but I just had to say it. Angad glared at me for a while.

"Likewise" he said, then his voice became business like, "I just came to tell you that we will be reaching Hawaii in 20 minutes." His eyes clearly showed that I had crossed the line. So I simply nodded, watching as he took his bag and went outside.

I sighed pulling out my scrapbook from under the bed. Flipping quickly to where I had left off. The picture after the restaurant was that of my 15^th birthday. Blowing the candles, I had only one wish on my lips, that Sahil would love me the way I love him. My friend was there next to me with me like she had always been before, that was day I told her about how I liked Sahil.

I flipped through a couple of more pictures some with my parents, but most of them with Sahil. We had become good friends then, or so I had thought. I could feel my wish coming true; with every passing day I fell more and more in love with him.

I couldn't live without seeing him everyday. When he would not come to school even one day I would worry about what might have happened to him. After flipping a few more pages I came on my 16^th birthday, I was celebrating with Sahil this time.

I remembered that he had given me the best birthday gift that day; he had kissed me so sweetly on the lips, my first kiss, the only one with true meaning in it. Few more tears fell down my cheek, and my hand slightly shook as flipped pages, 6 months later there was a picture of me alone, this was a school picture that my parents had insisted on buying.

The day that the picture was taken was when Sahil had broken up with me, and the gaunt sunken expression was clear on my face. He had told me that he was in love with my best friend; the last 6 months, had meant nothing, it had been just an attempt to make her jealous.

And he told me it had worked she had agreed to finally go out with him. He had told me in the exact words, the words that I would never forget, "I love you Kripa because of you she loves me." He had used me but that did not matter we could still be friends right? I would be happy just to be able to see a smile on his face every day.

I flipped through a few more pictures most of them with me pushed to a side, looking at Sahil and my dearest friend hugging or kissing, with a forced plastered smile on my face. I was almost towards the end of the book now. I had only one page remaining now, I was in another place a new home, a new city with all that I loved and hated left behind. But I didn't need pictures to cover or remember the time between the two pictures. Those were the pictures that I had ripped out unable to endure the vivid description that it portrayed.

I remembered me standing—on my 17^th birthday at my birthday party—behind the cover of a wall hearing my Sahil, my angel talking. No not talking, laughing. Laughing at my stupidity, gloating to his friends how he had used me to get to my friend. How he had to endure me and my ugliness for 6 whole months. I remembered how my tears had burned coming out of my eyes. How when I had blown my 17 candles, I had had only one wish to never be used by anyone again.

I had moved only a month after; I had left the old Kripa behind in the city. I was forever changed. I had gotten my wish though; I was never used thereafter because I was the user. Somewhere far away the engine screamed; time to get off, Hawaii was here.

WELL... this explains a lot!... omg i think this is the same sahil.. i m thinkin along the lines of angad finding out bout old sahil and then new sahil.. and tehn i dont kno.. protecting kripa from the evil sahil.. lol i dont make ne sense.. too many sahil's.. 🤣 ... aww i feel soo bad for kripa.. but still she shudnt just use people like aht.. i m having a feeling that the big twist is gonna be concerining the word USER.. lol... i m on the prediction mood rite now.. it was a great part.. i cud feel the pain.. almost cried for her.. lets c wat happens in hawaii..

luv mansi! 😃

Originally posted by: mansi1219

WELL... this explains a lot!... omg i think this is the same sahil.. i m thinkin along the lines of angad finding out bout old sahil and then new sahil.. and tehn i dont kno.. protecting kripa from the evil sahil.. lol i dont make ne sense.. too many sahil's.. 🤣 ... aww i feel soo bad for kripa.. but still she shudnt just use people like aht.. i m having a feeling that the big twist is gonna be concerining the word USER.. lol... i m on the prediction mood rite now.. it was a great part.. i cud feel the pain.. almost cried for her.. lets c wat happens in hawaii..

luv mansi! 😃

See i knew it!! arent you feeling sorry for her now. But what if angad already knows about sahil *hint* *hint*.

Great i just gave like half the story away now. I cant even keep my mouth shut for even a second. And umm if you read that part carefully you guys might just find something else out😉 i ll shut up now i think i have blurt out enough secrets.

that is soooo sad!!! omg i hope its not the same sahil...wait actually i do because then krips is using him aswell which is the ultimate revenge cuz eventually krips will be with angad and who will sahil be with...THATS RIGHT NO ONE!!!!!!!!!! lol continue soon!

Originally posted by: munizaaa

See i knew it!! arent you feeling sorry for her now. But what if angad already knows about sahil *hint* *hint*.

Great i just gave like half the story away now. I cant even keep my mouth shut for even a second. And umm if you read that part carefully you guys might just find something else out😉 i ll shut up now i think i have blurt out enough secrets.

😲 ... that was my mouth till i found the rite face.. lol.. omg me so going back and readin it.. angad already knos? na ah.. how come.. from the tears? was he spying on her.. ? wat else can there be.. i dont kno wat i m missing.. great now i m soo... ughh cant find the word... oo o o got it.. restless.. lol

Originally posted by: Numera*

that is soooo sad!!! omg i hope its not the same sahil...wait actually i do because then krips is using him aswell which is the ultimate revenge cuz eventually krips will be with angad and who will sahil be with...THATS RIGHT NO ONE!!!!!!!!!! lol continue soon!

i like the way ur thinkin.. lol.. so tru.. it wud be the ultimate revenge..