CHAPTER 16
Sidharth paced back and forth, brushing his hands through his hair
"Kya karu Kya karu..I know Roshni forgave Me, but still, how could I say such a horrible thing to her. I made her cry.. I need to do something to make up for all the tears she shed today" he sighed
"Hey Sid what's up?" Asked Misha as she hugged him
He simply shrugged his shoulders and sighed
"Koi problem hai kya? Share with me nah...maybe I can help"
"Yaar I hurt Roshni today... I just ..." he stopped as he mentally cursed himself again "I want to do something special for her...to make her smile"
"I see" she replied, through gritted teeth "Need any help?" to which Sidharth shrugged his shoulders "I need all the help I can get"
After a long moment of pondering over different possibilities, Sidharth finally smiled and told Misha his plan, to which she faked her happiness.
Suddenly her gaze turned to Roshni who was approaching them and smirked
"That's a fantastic plan Sid...can't wait to see the look on Roshni face"
Hearing her comment Roshni stopped in her tracks and continued to listen
"Me too..can't wait to see her face" smiled Sidharth...as Roshni wandered what plan they were talking about but smiled thinking Sidharth was planning something special for her
A WHILE LATER
It was the end of the day, and Roshni cheerfully made her way to her locker, looking down at her bracelet. She couldn't help smiling.
She opened it, but it suddenly shoved back closed, giving a glimse of brightly manicured finger nails
Tilting her head to a slight degree, Roshni soon realised they belonged to none other than Misha. She had an icy glare, sending shivers down her spine.
Burrowing her nails into Roshni arms, she dragged her to a slightly darker corridor, shoving her hard against the wall...as two of her minions took over holding each of her arms
"What the Hell Misha..Let go of me!" She tried to free herself, but it was no use.
"Now listen hear you little bi**ch. Who do you think you are? You think you can just come along, and take my place in Sidharth life? Well your dead wrong" she spat, her words dripping with venom.
Roshni could literally see the hatred in her eyes.
"Misha...what are you talking about"
She ignored her question and pierced every part of Roshni face...just with her glare
"If Sidharth finds out he will be mad...so let go go me" she yelled
"Keep quiet or else" threatened Misha "Bring her" she ordered her side kicks and they followed behind, dragging Roshni with them forcefully
Roshni could feel the tears well up in her eyes as she was dragged to a isolated corner of the college
A few more people gather and she recognised them all. They were all Sidharth friends
"Welcome Nerdy Patel...Welcome" snarled Misha, as the others laughed
Roshni looked around for Sidharth but he was no where around. She refused to shed a tear...She stood there trying to look strong . Her eyes searching...searching for Sidharth. .
One of the gang members pushed her, and she fell on the ground hard
"Ooch" she shrieked as she opened her eyes, and saw Misha and two of her side kicks, looking down at her
"Awww. Poor Nerdi Patel fell.." Mishia teased
"What should we do guys...should we help her up or..." teased Misha as one of the goons grabbed her hand and made her stand.
After a moments pause, and tapping her index finger on her chin
"Should we..um. .dump her, somewhere. Hmm like the a dark store room..
Roshni eyes widened
She tried to get up and run...but the grip of the goon was too strong
She looked around frantically, but there was no one there to help her...
"If Sidharth finds out what you are doing then!" Shouted Roshni
"Then What..." interupped Misha
"He won't be happy! " retorted Roshni
"Tch tch tch tch" sighed Misha
"I hate to burst that friendship bubble of yours, but we are only obeying Sid orders" smirked Misha
Roshni swallowed hard. Her words baffled her
"Sid. ..Sid. ..Sidharth orders! Matlab " she stammered slightly
"But...but..."
"But what Nerd? He is the one who has instructed us to do all this..." she smirked
"Huh" she mumbled "No. You're lying! I don't believe you.. he's my friend!"
"Friend seriously!! Hahaha. You really think Sidharth would befriend a girl like you. It was just a prank. Everything was just a prank.."
Roshni listened trying to absorb her words. Whatever she was saying didn't make sense, at least not to her. ..
"Prank. What prank" but then immediately shook her head "No..No. I trust Sidhsrth and i believe in our friendship." she replied confidently, although somewhere in her heart she felt a pinch
"Then you trusted the wrong guy honey" laughed Misha
Roshni blinked her eyes slowly...still trying to register her thoughts
"He only used your 'So Called Friendship' to get close to you...get to know you a little better" She winked
"No...Sidharth..no he wouldn't . .." she felt anger, rage and sorrow at the same time
"Your so called friendship was just part of Sid plan..."
Roshni eyes shot up as she heard the word "plan" As much as she tried, she couldn't stop the tears from escaping...
Clutching her dupatta, she spoke
"P...Plan? W. ..What plan" Asked Roshni trying her best not to show her hurt...then she remembered the morning discussion
"You dont remember. Tch Tch Tch. Let me remind you. You dared to humiliate Sid in front of the whole college. You insulted him in front of the newcomers. Sidharth never Forgives or Forgets anything. And now you are going to pay for it."
Roshni felt as if her world had come crashing down...
"That was the plan?" She mumbled to herself. "But...why did he pretend to be friends..why did.he..." she asked her mind clouded
"He wanted to break you..The best way he could. First friendship...then Trust then REVENGE! " she giggled. "Mission teach Nerdy Patel a lesson Accomplished " she giggled
"And what Sid wants. He gets! Sidharth Khurana doesn't forgive or forget EVER " she hissed
Roshni eyes were brimming with tears...
"I...I...don't believe you. Sidharth no...no...I don't believe you!" She tried very hard to convince herself
"As if we care what you believe!" Hissed Misha again "Sid told us how innocently you confessed all your phobias to him...haha. How can you be so naive Nerd!"
Roshni closed her eyes...feeling like a fool
"He laughed how easily you confessed everything..."
Her feelings, their friendship was just a mission for him. "Just to insult me he played with my feelings" She stood frozen. The only movement was that of her tears that fell in abundance down her cheek..
She wiped the tears that were constantly streaming down her face. She couldn't be weak. After taking a deep breath and calming herself down "
"You don't scare me Misha...do you get that. Losers like you don't scare me!" Yelled Roshni
Misha smirked "Bapre I'm scared" she mocked
"But that's not the plan for us to scare YOU...so relax"
Roshni cringed her eyebrows..waiting for her to complete, then she whispered "Sid told us you are scared of the darkness?" smirked Misha, as Roshni looked at her
"Don't look at me like that. And no I'm not phsyic. Sid told us" she winked again "Shouldn't trust people so easily my dear"
Roshni couldn't believe her ears and was continuously shaking her head and saying "No...No...why Sidharth...why"
She felt a lump forming in her throat and then smiled slightly at herself
"Shame on me for trusting a low life, like Sidharth. Maybe I deserve what's coming to me" she cursed herself
Roshni stood quiet...her trust had been completely broken. Her mind kept playing back those times she had spent with Sidharth. No matter how hard she tried she couldn't believe that she had allowed a scumbag like Sidharth become her friend. .
She glared back at Misha
"Where is he. Does he not have the nerve to face me! Asked Roshni roughly wiping away her tears
"Sidharth Khurana is nothing but a coward" she insulted as blood rushed to her temples and felt as if it would burst...
"He's no coward. He's just tired acting like your friend. He's already wasted enough time on you..but don't worry NERD, It will be over soon..." smiled Misha
One of the goons grabbed her arm tightly
"You shouldn't have messed with Sid. Now you have to pay for it.." Misha said holding her face tightly in her fist, before she pushed her into a small room, closing the door from outside
Misha smiled evilly at her plan.
"Roshni eyes wondered around the small room, but she could see nothing but darkness.
It took her a few minutes to register what had happened.
She quickly got up and rused towards the door and started to ban on it furiously
"Please open the door. Please open the door." she repeated over and over as her phobia kicked in...
Her voice stumbled down, not getting any response
"It's suffo. ..ca. ...ting. ..Please. ..I..I..can't breathe!"
She fell down with crashed hopes
"Why Sidharth. ...why. I trusted you aur tumne kya kiya" she cried softly
"Kis baat ki saaza mil rahi hai mujhe God?" She looked around with tears streaming down her face
"I trusted you Sidharth...I trusted you!"
Slowly the air seemed to thin out and she felt herself become breathless.
Darkness started suffocating her. Her breath was getting heavy with each passing second. Drops of sweat fell over her face, as she shivered with fear.
She tried once again to twist the knob, but it was locked. Helplessly she sat down in a corner holding her knees close and cried thinking about Sidharth betrayal
She sat quietly, trying to comprehend everything that happened, she couldn't believe it. She prayed for all this to be a bad dream, but the throbbing session of her fear confirmed it was real.
Slowly her whole body begins to hurt...as she struggled for dear life. But it's no good...its getting darker...and darker...Was this her end.
Soon her mind became heavy. ..and blackness surrounded her and within seconds the darkness consumed he and she fell unconscious. .
Sidharth felt a sudden jerk. He closed his eyes but an uneasiness captured his heart
The name "Roshni" escaped his lips as his eyes began to search for her around the campus. .
"What's happening to me. Why am I feeling like this. Roshni where are you?".
A sudden shriek of a boy bought Sidharth out if his thoughts as the boy shouted aloud of what he had just witnessed to Chubby
Sidharth heart sank. "No. ..No. Roshni" and he ran frantically like a mad man towards the direction
"ROSHNIII!!!" he felt as if his own life was slipping away from him
Sidarth came running and grabbed Misha harshly
"Where is She!" He screamed startling her
"WHERE IS SHE!!" He screamed louder. His eyesblood shot...full of rage
A frightened Misha pointed her finger towards a small door
He ran and tried to open the door, but it was jammed
"Roshni. .Roshni" he called but there was no reply.
He turned to look at Misha. .His eyes red with fury
"If anything hapoens to her i swear i'll kill you" screamed Sid outraged, as he grabbed her by the shoulders again "So you better start praying that's she's fine!"
"Sid...Sid...I...I.. " Misha gulped, but he r3fused to listen and bashed on the door a few times. It wouldn't budge.
Taking a deep breath, he pushed it with all the power he had in him
"URGGGHH! and the door opened
He entered the room frantically, his whole body shivering and then his eyes rested on HER...lying lifeless
"R. ..Roshni" he whipped
He ran towards her and held her in his arms..shaking her. But no response
"Roshni..." he whispered as he kissed her forehead "I'm here. Kuch nahin hone dunga tumhe"
He scooped her into his arms and carried her outside and lay her down gently
He tapped her face several times "Open your eyes please Roshni. Look I'm here.." he sobbed
"Come on Roshni...say something. Please Roshni. You're killing me!" His voice broke in the middle.
He had no idea why he was being so emotional...a certain longing in his voice
Roshni, felt a pull..her eyes opened slightly, but barely breathing
"Breathe" a soft voice come "please be okay"
Roshni could hear and struggled to open her eyes...Her vision blurred..
"Aaa" she mumbled softly
Chubby sat down and held her hand "Rosh"
"Tum teek ho nah" Sidharth whispered, as he rubbed her hands...tears refusing to stop.
Roshni blinked her eyes trying to focus. She couldn't see clearly. Who was it ..
Suddenly the hand let go..And she heard sounds...but everything was muffled...
"What the Hell Misha. ..What sort of Bloody joke was that?" He said gripping her harshly and shaking her.
"Oh come on Sid..we were just playing with her"
"Playing. You call that playing! She could have died..."
"Sid come on, why are you over reacting. And that too for a loser like Nerdy Patel"
"Her name is Roshni! Do you get that!" Hissed Sidharth angrily
"I warned you to stay away from her...and I'm warning you now for the last time. Roshni Patel is off limits to you all! ".
Roshni tried to make out what was going on around her...but her mind was too cloggy...The voices were muffled...
Slowly her eyes opened fully, and she looked towards Sidharth and Misha
Misha saw Roshni opening her eyes and quickly hugged Sidharth...smiling...and before he could react she placed her lips on his...shocking Sidharth
The damage was done
Sidharth pushed her way...but before he could react to her Chubby shouted "Roshni are you okay" and Sidharth turned towards her and smiled seeing her fully awake, thanking God she was okay
She wiped away the tears, and slowly got up...taking steady steps towards Sidharth.
Seeing her approach..Misha quickly made her exit
Sidharth let go of a breath he didn't no he was holding and smiled at Roshni. He allowed his tears to fall...
Controlling his emotions, he walked to her and stood in front of her
"Roshni Are you O. .."
SLAP
Sidharth palmed the cheek she had slapped, as he looked at her confused
"Happy? Mil gaya tasali. Got what you wanted" she looked at him, with so much hate
"Roshni..." he whispered
"You did all this! " she screamed louder
"Huh? Did what?"
"I know your game Mr Sidharth Khurana" she screamed even louder
"Roshni" he tried to take hold of her hand
YOU disgust me! I humiliated you in front of the whole college...and YOU made friends with me, so that when the time was right you would take revenge! Chee!!" she yelled
Sidharth throat constricted at her harsh words
"You knew I was claustrophobic and you took advantage of that, of my weak point! " she said in utter disgust
"No...No...No..Roshni...listen to me. I .I..."
"How could I be so stupid. I should have known...I should have known. I trusted you!"
"Listen to me. .." Sidharth said trying to hold her, but she jerked him away
"Why Sidharth. .why...All this just for revenge. You played with my feelings. I hurt your ego. ."
That was it for Sidharth
"Shut up Roshni! Not another word. What are you talking about Huh???
What the Hell..You just cant accuse me.." but before he could say anything...she slapped him again before running away
Sidharth tried to ran after her, but Chubby held his hand
'Haven't you done enough. Let her be! " hissed Chubby as he ran after her...
Sidharth stood lifeless wandering what the hell just happened
NEXT DAY
His eyes wandered around the college, eyeing carefully every single corner of it. He was desperately searching for Roshni, but she was no where to be seen. He was literally worried about her.
He had not seen or talked to her since yesterday's incident...but he needed answers. He wanted to know exactly what had happened. Why she was mad
After a while Sheena entered the cafeteria,
"Hey Sheena" called out Sidharth as he walked over to him
"Shit! Looks like it's my turn to be picked on! She mumbled under his breath as she turned to lookat him
"Ah Where's Roshni?" He asked politely
Sheena scrunched up her eyebrows, But before he could answer
"SIDHARTH KHURANA " someone shouted as Sidharth turned to the source
Without caring Chubby grabbed his collars "YOU ASSHOLE " He yelled.. "How could you do that to her. She trusted you"
Sidharth looked at him angrily, and jerked his hands away "How dare you Chubby. HOW DARE YOU! Consider yourself lucky, that you are Roshni friend otherwise I would have dug your grave right here and buried you alive" hissed Sidharth ad he straightened his collar
Taking a deep breath, and a few moments to calm his nerves, he looked at Chubby
"Look Chubby...I'm sorry I didn't mean to blast at you like that...but...anyways forget that. Where's Roshni. I really need to speak to her right now..."
"She's gone!"
Sidharth shot his head up, and he could see some sort of disgust in Chubby's eyes, but he couldn't understand, as his confusion was over powering his senses
"G...G...Gone...gone where" a sudden fear melting into his bones
"Why do you care Mr Sidharth Khurana" replied Chubby as he went closer to him
"She trusted you...and what did you do!"
Sidharth rubbed the back of his neck, as tears brimmed in his eyes..nothing was making sence...all he could remember was the word gone
"G...Gone..." was all he kept mumbling
"That's right...Gone. Far Far Away, where you and your ugly shadow cannot reach her!"
Sidharth looked at him with a horrified expression. He was afraid. But afraid of what?
"She left India"
Suddenly Sidharth started rubbing his heart,
"She left" he kept mumbling
He kept rubbing his chest, unable to breathe properly. He felt as if his heart had stopped for a few seconds
At that moment Karan came and saw his condition
"Hey Buddy you okay" calming him down by rubbing his back "Kya hua Sid?"
Sidharth stammered "I . I...I can't bre...breathe"
Karan ran and grabbed a bottle of water and made Sidharth drink it. He drank the water in one go, whilst Karan rubbed his back.
Sidharth painted for a while and then turned to Chubby
"When's her flight!"
"She's gone.. I received a message from her this morning.." he replied angrily
Sidharth quickly took out his mobile..searching for her message ...His heart beat erratic
There was no message
"She...she..didn't. .send. me a message. why..why didn't she say anything to me, no bye nothing"
He covered his face in his palm and felt as if his life had been sucked out of him
"She's gone...without a word. Without any explanation, without even saying a good bye...:"
Chubby pulled out the bracelet and handed it to Sidharth
"She said that this was a friendship gift from you. But since there is no friendship.." he left his sentence incomplete as he walked away
He stood rooted in his place, as he looked down at the bracelet.In a state of shock.
Losing his calm, Sidharth dialed her number
There was no reply. He continued to radial over and over and over again ...but nothing
"PICK UP THE DAMN PHONE Urggghhh!"
He felt as if his world was coming to an End.
"What the HELL do you think of yourself Roshni Patel. Kab se phone kiye ja raha hoon...ek baar phone receive nahin kar sakte Kya!!! No message nothing. Bas chalegii!!"
Karan tried to calm him down
"WHY THE F**K DID I DO KARAN? WHY WHY WHY. SHE JUST LEFT ME" He fell to his knees..desperately trying to control the explosion of feelings that were on the verge of exploding
He angrily brushed his hand through his fingers and gritted it teeth
He was shattered. Everything happened so fast, that He didn't even get a chance to register what was going on ..
Yesterday he felt like the happiest person on earth...and the next he felt as if his world had come crashing down
Wasn't the decision of breaking their friendship supposed to be between the two of them? She hadn't considered him important enough to take that decision. She just left without a word! She didn't think about him. How could she be so selfish.
"Tumhe koi farq nahin parta mein jeeyu ja maru. Our friendship was just a joke for you! You were just playing with my feelings. Natak dosti kar rahi ti...And what happened to our SO CALLED TRUST for each other"
With a pained expression
"I cant believe she just ended everything, without a word. Our friendship meant nothing to her. NOTHING AT ALL. Bina battaye chalegi!" He blabbered, his heart sank, and hatred filled his heart
Anger bubbled up inside him as he stood up and destroyed everything he could lay his hands on. Whether it was a cofffee mug, plates...bottles. All the things he could get his hands on, were now lying on the floor shattered. Completely destroyed...Just like his heart.
"Sid...calm down" Karan said as he tried to hold him
"Calm down. Calm down Karan she just left without a word...HOW DARE SHE!"
He was in a good mood this morning when he woke up. Determined to fix whatever misunderstanding happened between him and Roshni...which till now was still a mystery to him. But now everything was finished
His head was pounding a d his hands were itching to punch something...before he could cause any more damage, He ran to his car, and sped off.
He was driving like a maniac. Recalling the last days events again and again. He became restless and angry again and again.
"Damn You Roshni. What was my fault! Bas thodi dosti. Just like that!" he yelled as he drove.
He felt she had wronged him...
Again tears made their way through "Why Roshni Why. Why did this happen. What did I do. What deed did I do..and you...you just left".
"Teek hai. So what. Why do I care...why am I in so much pain. Why am I behaving like this"
She had failed him. She had failed their friendship.
But why was her indifference killing him
Why was it becoming difficult for him to breathe
"WHY! WHY! WHY!"
Finally he couldn't take it anymore. .and he put the brakes on suddenly and the car came to a screeching halt
He put his head back and closed his eyes.
He rubbed his chest again, unable to breathe
Even that didn't help.
"Why does it Hurt so much?"
He opened his eyes and dialled her number once again. ..
NO ANSWER
"DAMN YOU ROSHNI. DAMN YOU!! HE huffed like a raging bull...
"You didn't think once about me. Mere dard ke bare mein nahin socha. You failed in this friendship Roshni. You failed big time!!!"
"You left me..teek hai. Tumhari marzi I don't care. You insulted my friendship. FINE! Have it your way...WHO NEEDS YOUR FRIENDSHIP ANYWAY. I will waste no more time thinking about you. You never deserved my friendship..and now you don't deserve my time..."
"Aaj tak tumne sirf meri dosti dekhi hai...now see my hatred...
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