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An Os: The past that haunts...
And it all lay there... In the past where I had no interest to wander about...
Someone once said to me that you can hide your past, run from it but you can never deny it... It's a part of yourself, of ur life... So I finally gathered all my courage and looked into the mirror...
"You have to do it today or never"
And I decided to fight rather than stepping back.
I could find him surrounded by fellow mates so I stayed quiet... Waited for the opportunity where we could be alone...
Vidhushi came in drinking her umpteenth beer bottle.
And she stood on the park bench grabbing everyone's attention.
"Come down Vidhushi, will you please?"
"Today I want to share a kind of happiness that was away and missing for 2 years."
"Vidhushi you'll fall"
"Today I get to meet 2 of the very special people in my life"
I pull her hand but fail to bring her down.
"Randhir and Sanyukta"
I pull her down with all my force and warn her that I m her sister-in-law and I could easily report her father-in-law about her condition.
"Whatever" she says and walks away.
Aryan heads towards me and before he can interrogate, Randhir pulls my hand and takes me aside. We both avoid looking into each other's eyes.
"What is all this going on?"
"Listen I m sorry for inconvenience"
"If anyone..."
"I guess it would be an insult for my name to get connected to you Mr. Shekhawat and so I m least interested."
"I have left that life behind... And there's no way I want any of your nonsense in my life."
"All you do is run away every-time... I guess I can't undo the part of knowing you... And I don't even want your shadow in my life... I guess if I could leave my passion just by a comment that you made, there might be something wrong... You don't get to affect me anymore..."
This time my eyes turned red and we both looked into each other's eyes... Pain was all I could find but did it matter anymore?
And he walked away as he had done before...
Some confrontations are not as you always wish... If only circumstances weren't so cruel...
"Sanyu I'm sorry I didn't know you and Randhir already-"
"Aryan just leave I would like to stay alone for some time. And I'm not upset at you.."
He had tears in his eyes... I knew he couldn't watch me like this...
"I'll be fine go..." I almost push him...
I sit for a while wandering If I was ever wrong at my decisions and it started raining in the mid night.
Somehow the very thought of rain brought the memories I had spent with Randhir... These many months and not even once had I wandered in that corner of my heart... And I drenched...
*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_
I knew she would be as manipulative as before and today she proved me correct... I knew I would not be so wrong about anything in my life... She as I thought is the same manipulative girl.
Meeting Vidhushi was atmost nonsense. I guess the best decision I had ever taken in life was to go away from FITE and the dream team. I still wander what I would have done without Sanaya... She's such a kid.
When I heard Vidhushi says those words more than her it was Sanyukta that got into my nerves but then who is she? No one and so I had to clear things finally before Sanaya could know...
I avoided eye contact... Not because I was afraid to fall in love with her again... It was because I'm afraid of the fact that she knows me well enough...
She told me she left her passion, well no body cares because if I would have been responsible for someone landing up near death, I would have locked myself up unlike her shamelessly doing anything for achieving her wants...
As I closed my eyes, our first kissed flashed in front of my eyes... The fire, the anger... And experiencing all these things after 2 years seemed like an headache which would never go away...
Yes, I do run away from my problems and I m not accountable to answer anyone about that... Except Sanaya though... She unlike her, is a kid at heart and I don't know why I compare? I just... She takes care of me the same way... But Sanyukta is no one... She will never be... I guess she had done excellent rehearsal before coming to meet me because I somehow felt her pain... She'll never be able to make it up...
And I m done with everything of hers... Those vows that marriage was just a lie... An illusion... I m gonna live in reality no virtual world anymore...
I still don't understand why I couldn't discard this ring though?
He looks at his so called 'engagement ring' and remains awake... The rain has little effect on him... He struggles to fight through the nightmares... And one more night he wakes up abruptly and looks out of the window... He sees her drenching...
And it all lay there... In the past where I had no interest to wander about...
Someone once said to me that you can hide your past, run from it but you can never deny it... It's a part of yourself, of ur life... So I finally gathered all my courage and looked into the mirror...
"You have to do it today or never"
And I decided to fight rather than stepping back.
I could find him surrounded by fellow mates so I stayed quiet... Waited for the opportunity where we could be alone...
Vidhushi came in drinking her umpteenth beer bottle.
And she stood on the park bench grabbing everyone's attention.
"Come down Vidhushi, will you please?"
"Today I want to share a kind of happiness that was away and missing for 2 years."
"Vidhushi you'll fall"
"Today I get to meet 2 of the very special people in my life"
I pull her hand but fail to bring her down.
"Randhir and Sanyukta"
I pull her down with all my force and warn her that I m her sister-in-law and I could easily report her father-in-law about her condition.
"Whatever" she says and walks away.
Aryan heads towards me and before he can interrogate, Randhir pulls my hand and takes me aside. We both avoid looking into each other's eyes.
"What is all this going on?"
"Listen I m sorry for inconvenience"
"If anyone..."
"I guess it would be an insult for my name to get connected to you Mr. Shekhawat and so I m least interested."
"I have left that life behind... And there's no way I want any of your nonsense in my life."
"All you do is run away every-time... I guess I can't undo the part of knowing you... And I don't even want your shadow in my life... I guess if I could leave my passion just by a comment that you made, there might be something wrong... You don't get to affect me anymore..."
This time my eyes turned red and we both looked into each other's eyes... Pain was all I could find but did it matter anymore?
And he walked away as he had done before...
Some confrontations are not as you always wish... If only circumstances weren't so cruel...
"Sanyu I'm sorry I didn't know you and Randhir already-"
"Aryan just leave I would like to stay alone for some time. And I'm not upset at you.."
He had tears in his eyes... I knew he couldn't watch me like this...
"I'll be fine go..." I almost push him...
I sit for a while wandering If I was ever wrong at my decisions and it started raining in the mid night.
Somehow the very thought of rain brought the memories I had spent with Randhir... These many months and not even once had I wandered in that corner of my heart... And I drenched...
*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_
I knew she would be as manipulative as before and today she proved me correct... I knew I would not be so wrong about anything in my life... She as I thought is the same manipulative girl.
Meeting Vidhushi was atmost nonsense. I guess the best decision I had ever taken in life was to go away from FITE and the dream team. I still wander what I would have done without Sanaya... She's such a kid.
When I heard Vidhushi says those words more than her it was Sanyukta that got into my nerves but then who is she? No one and so I had to clear things finally before Sanaya could know...
I avoided eye contact... Not because I was afraid to fall in love with her again... It was because I'm afraid of the fact that she knows me well enough...
She told me she left her passion, well no body cares because if I would have been responsible for someone landing up near death, I would have locked myself up unlike her shamelessly doing anything for achieving her wants...
As I closed my eyes, our first kissed flashed in front of my eyes... The fire, the anger... And experiencing all these things after 2 years seemed like an headache which would never go away...
Yes, I do run away from my problems and I m not accountable to answer anyone about that... Except Sanaya though... She unlike her, is a kid at heart and I don't know why I compare? I just... She takes care of me the same way... But Sanyukta is no one... She will never be... I guess she had done excellent rehearsal before coming to meet me because I somehow felt her pain... She'll never be able to make it up...
And I m done with everything of hers... Those vows that marriage was just a lie... An illusion... I m gonna live in reality no virtual world anymore...
I still don't understand why I couldn't discard this ring though?
He looks at his so called 'engagement ring' and remains awake... The rain has little effect on him... He struggles to fight through the nightmares... And one more night he wakes up abruptly and looks out of the window... He sees her drenching...
XXX
PS: It would be better if bashing is avoided though I would love to hear from critics! 😉
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