First and foremost, writing here is not at all easy for me. Not because I hate writing or I have less command over English but because of the situations in my house. I come from an extremely conservative royal family of India, which is strictly against social-networking, talking/thinking about romance and doesn't believe that girls should voice out their opinions. I understand that their ideals are a bit backdated and narrow-minded but end of the day they are someone's ideals and hence they deserve respect. I neither want to get caught and get punished while hurting my family nor do I want you to have less updates. And hence, I write in HIDING, when people are sleeping or not watching not caring about the consequences.
Secondly, my life seriously is just too amazing that words cannot describe. I know I cannot complain about it when people are dying of various ailments or situations but I can definitely say they don't make my life easier or better. And still I take out time to write because I LOVE READING YOUR COMMENTS AND THIS IS MY STRESS-BUSTER.
But sometimes I don't think it is worth the risk because I am getting extremely low responses on certain fictions which are actually much more difficult to write than other fictions which get a good response. Taking the example of Gunaahon Ka Devta, which is a real life story and Khushi's character is inspired by my own character, marked a drastic decline in the number of likes which suddenly decreased from 110+ to 50+. Really was the second update so pathetic that you all 'liked' the teaser more than the update itself? Seriously, if there is a fault somewhere please PM/Scrap me and if you want to write on any of my threads, constructively say it. I appreciate constructive criticism, but NOT bashing.
Hold My Hand, Dil Kho Gaya~2, Tujhe Bhula Diya, Khel Khel Mein are some of my fictions which need a lot of thinking and time. How many of you know that I think about ideas for my fictions at night, reducing the number of sleeping hours? How many of you know that every single fiction of mine has some parts of my real life in it? That's the amount of dedication and effort I put in to write every single FF of mine. I know I should not be giving so much of importance to my reel/virtual life but that's how I am. I am serious in everything I do.
I am sorry if I wasted your time/energy as you read through this post, but making this was utterly important. Hoping for a better response in the future. Happy Dussehra to all those who are celebrating. Happy Muharaam in advance.
Love,
Yagya