hey guys i am really sorry ...for updating this late...I have been stuck in some stupid matters...Sorry guys...hope this will melt things...i will update it longer...tonight...for now i hope this update will melt you guys anger * puleezzz* with puppy eyes*
Part 8
''we aint just colleague shilpa...i'm your elder sister'' Shilpa being emotionless towards her was hurting her the most ... she couldn't bear it anymore
''what did you just say??'' she was stunned with riddhima's confess...before she could realize anything more she felt riddhima's arms wrapped around her and she wetting her night dress with her tears
She soo much awaited for the day...riddhima would hug her...accept her as her sister...but could she allow that???...going close to riddhima again...what if she hurts her again...will she be able to get back to normal...''No'' She yelled...pushing riddhima apart from her
''Shilpa please...don't push me away!!...Am your sister'' she stood looking at shilpa's face growing pale...since she came it was actually the first time...she was watching shilpa's feature...how could she miss it...their eyes...how could she not realize she was her sister...how did she get sooo mean...Shilpa stood motionless...while a feeling of rejection engulfed riddhima
''Say something please Shilpa'' she felt broken with guilt
But without saying anything she turned moving inside her room...and came back with a clean towel...and moved it to her..''dry yourself...you might catch cold'' she was still emotionless...she was clueless how would she react...but then realized it was way too late for this sister reunion...in a few days...she's going to get married...and go away from all..and moreover...accepting riddhima...will get her closer to armaan. it will just complicates thing...which she din't want
''How can you care for me after all what i did to you??'' she asked taking the towel...while she felt a hope arise in her heart with this gesture of hers
''Listen riddhima'' she finally decided to break her silence on this topic...''I really dunno to react...i've been always wishing for you to know the truth and wondered whether you would accept me or not'' she refused to face her before annoucing her decision...no matter what...she was her sister...and hurting her means getting hurt along ''its too late riddhima''
She heard shilpa whispering...but refused to believe she actually said that...''it's not late shilpa...try to understand...it's still me and still you..and am ready to apologize a thousand times for my past behavior''
''I've already forgotten that riddhima...that's actually not the problem''she felt confused how to express herself...when she grabbed her hands...tight...looking at her desperately
''then whats the problem shilpa...why?? Why are you saying its too late''she tried understanding her for once
''Riddhima...to be very honest...am afraid.'' she sigh and continued...''am afraid of getting hurt again...last time...i was strong enough to fight with all my wounds...and recover...but i fear this time i won't...and i've cause enough damage to myself...for once i wanna be selfish'' she came in a go...again fearing she might have had hurt her...for nothing in this world...she would want to hurt her sister...her last family she thought...her heart cursed her mind for not letting her go and hug riddhima...complaining why she has been treating her soo bad...what was her mistake...but her mind sticked on its decision of masking her feelings
As her words hit her...she realize Shilpa was right...she had given her nothing but pain...even if she wasn't aware shilpa was her sister...she never had the permision to hurt anyone soo badly...she gulped her pain in...smiling at shilpa...with a sisterly affection plastered on her face...''i agree with each of your words shilpa...i will not force you...because i've lost the right long back...and i wanna say...you aint being selfish for not giving me this chance...i've always been hurting those who loved me...but for once can you give me something??'' she asked nervously while shilpa looked at her curiously
''W...what??'' she broke the word into two..holding her fears and sorrows inside
''The permision of nursing this wound of yours'' she pointed looking at her wound with painful eyes
She simply nodded...fearing she would break down if uttered any other word
''where's Your first aid kit?? RIddhima questioned...looking at her innocent face while she pointed at a drawer...keeping her silence...she walked towards the drawer looking at her walls...it was addorned with Shilpa...sid's pictures...one was of their engagement...nikki abhi all were present...they all looked soo happy...a tear of sadness escaped from her eyes..as she realized...she lost her loving husband...she lost her sister...she lost all...she wiped the tear with the tip of her finger...opening the drawer and getting the kit to shilpa
They both sat on the coach and riddhima started nursing her wound...she noticed not even once shilpa flinched at the stinging pain the antiseptic might be causing to her...she was strong
Shilpa sat...looking at RIddhima nursing and caring for her...wasn't that what she wanted a caring sister...then what stopped her from hugging her...it was all soo confusing...she felt her mind will blast with all the questions troubling her mind
''it's done'' her words brought her out of her thoughts and she looked at her arms...her wounds..hidden by the white bandage
Silence again prevailed over the room...not knowing what to say more...shilpa added '' Thank you'' she was polite...a change riddhima felt
''you don't have to be...i was the one causing it to you'' she thought troubling shilpa more wouldn't be right...she needed to have the time for herself...''i need to go'' she said standing up
''drive safe'' that's all she could come up with ...and watched riddhima leaving...she hitted the bed...thinking about all that happened in a day...she was again alone in her house...she gripped her blanket around her...breaking down...in tears...she couldn't handle it harder..and cried herself to sleep
He entered in his room...thinking about shilpa's face...what an idiot has he been...the eternal aashiq they called him...he couldn't even realize...he actually moved on riddhima...and loved Shilpa...maybe even before the night he and shilpa spent together
''I have to talk to you shilpa...i have to tell you that i love you'' he said to himself with determination in his voice
The next morning Sid got home...and made his way directly to Shilpa's room...she was curled in her blanket...but he could notice the dry stains of tears on her cheeks...and thought maybe she cried herself to sleep again because of riddhima's rejection
His bonding with shilpa was pure...She was his bestfriend...the one who always stood for him when he needed the most...if shilpa hadn't been there...he would have had been already dead suffocated under the pain of separating with riddhima...He loved riddhima soo much...for a few days after his separation he was actually hallucinating about riddhima still being around him and thought he lost it...but shilpa was there was a light for him...he could never thank her enough for her presence ... he felt her stir in her slumber...she was waking up
''Sid'' she mumbled...as she watched sid sitting next to her with her eyes half open
''Yo Sleepy head''he stroked her hairs gently...giving her a warm smile...as she opened her eyes
''goodmorning'' she whispered...getting in sitting position
''Goodmorning...hows this??'' he asked looking at her wound
As she watched the bandage...her mind drifted to her confrontation with Riddhima...she knew about she being her sister
''It's okay..'' she paused looking at sid wondering if he was the source of riddhima knowing she was her sister...''riddhima nursed it'' she said examining sid's expression
''Riddhima was here??'' he asked but again a feeling of possesiveness hit him...''did she hurt you??''
''No sid..but she knows'' she kept her focus on his face...and watched his face growing pale...and knew her doubts were right
''knows ...about what??? '' he was stammering and moved his face away
''Sid!!! I can't believe you???? You told her???'' She blasted at him...widdening her eyes
''What could i do else shilpa'' he knew playing the innocent wouldnt work anymore...he pouted and bended his face knowing he was guilty
Incomplete
''Why Sid???...I just can't believe you did that??'' she pushed her head back on the back bed board closing her eyes...while he cupped her face gently...he knew acting hasty wasn't his best decision
''Am sorry shilpa...but trust me i dint do it deliberately i was just pissed off at the fact...she was your sister and she kept on misunderstanding hurting you'' he explained himself hoping not to loose his last friend
She could feel honest in his voice...she knew he couldn't see her in pain...''i know sid...you wouldn't do anything to hurt me ...but i still believe you did wrong by telling riddhima the truth'' she faced him in his eyes
''Did she hurt you again??'' he asked worriedly
She shook her head negatively...''i think i was the one hurting her'' she mumbled confusing sid
'' what do you mean??''
''She apologized and asked me back...but i couldn't sid...''' she held his hands tight fearing he wouldn't understand...''there's already a gap between me and riddhima...and nothing can fill that''
''But if she apologized whats the problem to forgive her..look am not forcing you..it's entirely based on your decision...but it's just that am not grabbing the logic behind your denial'' he rubbed his thumb gently against her grip understanding she was feeling insecure
''Sid...shes engaged to armaan...getting close to her...means opening a path between me and armaan...i don't want this to happen...riddhima..is better off with me away from her life...and another thing sid...riddhima is always confuse...she never know what does she want...what if tomorrow she realize she doesn't want me as her sister anymore...do you think i'll be able to cope with it again???'' she placed her point clear infront of Sid...he was the only one with whom...she can actually say whatever she feel...he was the one who never hurt her
''I guess you are right Shilpa...am the living proof of RIddhima's confuse brain'' he chuckled sarcastically but she could still feel the pain behind it
''I've to get ready for the hospital'' she said realizing the time
''i will drop you'' he knew she can act strong...but she wasn't ...atleast not mentally and emotionally
''but you just came from the hospital'' she facepalmed herself
''So??? I will just go and get fresh...after dropping you..i'm gonna get back home and myself some rest'' he gave her a side hug before leaving her room And she sat on her bed...thinking how would she face Riddhima and if Armaan knew about all of this
She entered in the locker room looking out for someone when she heard someone screaming for her...''RIddhima''...She turned on her heels and watched armaan
''Are you okay??'' he asked with a concern tone...no matter what...but he did care for her...if not his love...she was still his friend
''I am armaan'' but her voice never supported her words
''wanna talk??..because i need the support of a friend badly'' he smiled politely
''I dunno armaan...i talked to shilpa yesterday'' she paused looking at his shocked expression...and continued as it softened ...'' she was soo scare to want me as a sister again...i could feel her wishing to hug me...but all the wounds i inflicted to her...made her refuse coming close to me'' she broke into tears
''am sorry Riddhima...more than you it's been my fault...i shouldn't have had come back here at first'' he was blaming himself for all wrongs
''No armaan...it's not your fault...atleast not only your fault...i was never sure at my decisions...and you or anyone else never told me to be bad with shilpa...i did it because of my own insecurities...for once i was atleast going to behave well with her...but then again my confusion screwed it all'' she remembered when shilpa was leaving...she did try to behave well with her...but her warm heart couldn't melt her frozen one for long...and she screwed it all again on seeing sid and shilpa together
''I love her riddhima'' He said out of the blue...hoping she wouldn't judge him wrong but instead she smiled
'' I realized you do...when i realized i love sid'' it was no shock for armaan...he was hoping for this after Riddhima's behavior
''But we lost them'' Both could feel their eyes moisten
''Atleast you can ask shilpa for a second chance armaan...but i can't even do so for Sid...i've already fell in his eyes...he must be hating me...and yesterday...i saw shilpa and sid's picture i fear i can't be selfish again...to snatch my sister's happiness'' she sat on the nearby bench fearing she would fall
He sat beside her...hugging her...and crying along...''damn Riddhima...If she couldn't forgive you and you are her sister...what makes you think she will forgive me...i did really wrong to her...in my stubborness i screwed it all...screwed the chances of having a perfect life''
''Friends'' she lifted her palm hoping he would place his...and he did exactly that..when they heard few footsteps
Shilpa and sid entered the locker room...looking at Riddhima and armaan hugging each other...They broke away..looking at the couple ...feeling lack of words..but Riddhima still tried moving towards shilpa..''Are you okay??'' She asked in a caring tone
''Yes i am'' she replied without making any eye contact with her or armaan...and fished her stuffs out of her locker..getting out
Even Sid left giving riddhima a last look...he could see the repentance on riddhima's face...but couldn't deny the pain that raised in his heart as he saw Armaan and riddhima hugging...he entered in his car...placing his face in his hands...''I hate myself for still being in love with you riddhima...when will this all end???'' he was once again shattered
''Shilpa listen to me" he ran behind her
''What??'' she looked at him breathing heavily...but still din't tell anything...she noticed he was growing weak...he was still not the armaan she thought he'did be on having riddhima back
''Shilpa...i wanted to say..''
''Sorry??'' she completed his line...and watched him agree with her...''aint you tired being sorry??''
''Shilpa...i''
Again she interrupted his words...'' you want armaan???? Yesterday i told ya..just be away from me behave like am invisible for you...Your priority should be riddhima...Thats what YOU WANTED.'' she placed emphasis on her last words
''am no more with riddhima'' he whispered the last words quickly before she could interrupt him again while she stood shocked
Edited by Aashi_Shona - 10 years ago
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