Arshi FF: Hopes and Ambitions. Thread 3 - Page 103

Originally posted by: vks11

Loved your post.👏 Just the way I feel . Straight out of my heart.🤗

Originally posted by: 1chilly

Absolutely!

Loved the post, Geeta.

You've put in words what I couldn't.

Originally posted by: pixiegirl

Firstly Shweta, hope you're feeling well again. Thanks for updating the story even when you weren't feeling so great... Thank you for that, it is truly appreciated :))

Secondly, I love Cold Play & you couldn't have chosen a more apt song for the chapter, this song reflected Arnav's feelings & thoughts at the moment to the T...

If in the last couple of chapters I was going gaga all over Khushi's poise & strength, this chapter is all about Arnav's torn & confused emotions & my heart goes out to him completely...

His inner turmoil, his confounded state, the conflicting emotions that he is facing at the moment, is truly heartbreaking to say the least. He truly is stuck in reverse. When he needs to think forward about the future, all he is doing is thinking about the past... Of the could have beens, of the whys & wherefores that really have no place in his world today. Yet, he seems incapable of shrugging his past off as he had done once relatively easily before & move on with his life...

No wonder, his handsome victory in the elections was unable to generate any degree of enthusiasm in him. He is dwelling in the past so much, that despite his overwhelming victory he feels defeated. Defeated by the weight of his emotions, defeated at being unable to save a life, defeated at being unable to prevent someone from charting a self-destructive course, unable to arouse enough feelings of love & sacrifice in a girl for him whom he "supposedly" loved...

Now he is stuck not only under the weight of the grief of Lexie's death but also humbled by the depth of feelings his very young & brave wife has for him. Life has suddenly become too heavy for him to carry on his shoulders...

All his life, Arnav has been a giver, but never the receiver. He gave his love selflessly to Aakash, to Lexie, his family, but until recently he had never been the receiver of true love & affection from anyone... No one seems to have loved the man selflessly & unconditionally except his daadi whom he literally dotes on & perhaps to some extent Aakash when they were kids but even that he lost when he came back to take over the reins of their failing political party. Even his own parents shunned him in his youth for his bohemian lifestyle, he was written off as a lost cause by his own mother, his brother whom he came to rescue was insanely jealous of his success, his so-called girl friend preferred the company of hippies & drugs more than him, none of the women he liaised with, were interested in him per se rather in what he could give them...

But the amazing man he is, he took all this in his stride & shouldered the responsibility that was thrust quite unexpectedly on him very seriously by shutting off his past, & putting his emotions into cold-storage & tried to make the most out of what life had handed down to him. He put in all his energy in reviving their political party almost from extinction that he was tasked with & was trudging along quite fine with an impersonal & mechanical life without brooding too much over it when he came upon a force he was forced to reckon with. In came traipsing a whit of a girl quite literally from the blue, whom he had written off as & too young & immature to ever merit consideration in his mind only to have her slowly encroach upon all his thoughts & feelings... Little did he expect that the damsel in distress whom he had rescued in a brilliant move to up the ante against his political rival, would one day up the ante against him!

His simple admission that he found her beautiful & was attracted to her made her reveal to him her interest in having a "normal" marriage with him... Being the shrewd politician he was, he lost no time to make a deal with her about their marriage, making it very clear, that it would be "normal" only as far as he could offer "normal". Love would never enter into the equation from his side, and ironically, it was love alone that had made his brave wife agree to his deal. As his own emotions transformed from basic physical attraction to something more, he started having niggling doubts in his mind that his little wife may have developed deep feelings for him too. Although, he suspected her feelings for him, he had no idea how selfless her love actually was. He was forced to acknowledge that her confession had touched him deeply... He can't deny anymore that it does feel so good, that it does make him happy, that it is what he never had the fortune of experiencing in his life all along. This feeling of belongingness, the feeling of being cared for, this feeling of being so special to someone that everyone & everything else becomes secondary to them. He is being forced to realize that in spite of having everything that money could buy, it was this kind of unconditional love that makes a man want to go home after a long day at work... To feel loved is so essential to one's life, sadly the Prince who is all heart had been a pauper in that aspect of his life until now... No wonder, her confession meant so much to him...

"Her confession had warmed the deep recesses of his heart. As if he had been waiting for this very confession all his life. For the first time, someone had put herself out there for him."

Never had he quite anticipated that this quiet, demure, yet resilient woman would one day challenge him openly to face his own convictions & thinking, to take a look at his own emotions & feelings that he had forcefully buried six feet under. By openly declaring her own feelings for him, she had challenged him to do the same... Does he have what it takes to look at himself critically & be truthful to him & Khushi??

Under the circumstances, he cannot help but make comparisons between the two women in his life... His young albeit mature beyond her years wife, Khushi, who had quite literally shown him the mirror, and Lexie, who had forced him to bury his feelings... One putting him above everything else, & the other had put everything else above him. Quite the dichotomy in the two women who have been close to him. He is now wondering & quite rightly so, that did what he feel for Lexie, even classify as "love" or just plain human compassion any human being has for another person who one is quite fond of?? Would he have allowed the excesses to Lexie that she indulged in had he been really in love with her? Doesn't love make one all possessive & jealous?? The same way he reacts when there is another male within two feet of Khushi?? ;) Would he allow Khushi even one millionth of those excesses that he let Lexie enjoy? I think not... There you go, the man needs this deep contemplation if he needs anything at all at this moment...

I totally loved the way Khushi kept him at a distance after having checkmated him. She did not allow him to touch her under pretext... Hug or otherwise... The guy needs to feel her absence, needs to crave for her touch, he needs to feel all the frustration of having his prize within his reach yet be unreachable... Deep rooted convictions like his, cannot easily be let go. They have to be yanked out with both hands & thrown away... And it has to be done by Arnav himself, no one else can fight the battle for him. Hmmm, what will trigger such an emotion in him I wonder?? Will Jhangid have to be brought in to threaten Khushi in some way for him to rise from his slumber?? We'll see...

Just loved the song, each line seems to have been written with Arnav in mind LOL.

When you try your best but you don't succeed

When you get what you want but not what you need

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Oh! how he mourns for Lexie... Truly heartbreaking...

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below

When you're too in love to let it go

But if you never try you'll never know

Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down your face

And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face

I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

Tears stream down your face

And I will try to fix you

Ah! sweet promises from Arnav to Khushi, that he is wiser now, has learnt from his mistakes & won't let her suffer...

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Originally posted by: Kishmish

Pixie ji ... I bow down to you ... am completly awed at the way you have in

such simple words expressed the gamut of emotions our dear chikna neta

is going through ... thankyou ... 🤗

Arnav understands and I guess agrees with what aman and Khushi has stated about Lexie but unable to get over the guilt.
I guess we will need Shyam as usual to interfere and make Arnav realize his feelings.
We need more of aman and Anjali.

I am falling in love with this Khushi all over again. She is the wife of Arnav Singh Raizada in every true. She has the capability of keeping aside the hurt she felt when she came to know about Lexie and still keep loving him and moreover even empathize with him by feeling his loss.

I love hw khushi behaved with arnav. She was genuinely happy but warned him to not to take her granted... waiting for the next part.

Shweta ji, time to open a new thread.

Originally posted by: 1chilly

Shweta ji, time to open a new thread.

And if we get an update, it will be 'sone pe suhaaga'. 😃

Originally posted by: pixiegirl

Charu, you stole words from my mouth...

Yesss! A new thread & a new update pretty please Shweta ji...😊

yes, please new thread, new update please 😉